AN: Hello all! I'm a new Haven fan and I am COMPLETELY obsessed with the show! I love the stories and I adore the characters! This is just a little thing I started thinking about after the latest episode "Sarah". This doesn't fit with the current timeline of the show but in the universe this story takes place in, Julia stayed around and eventually she and Duke fell in love and got married. Really all you need to know at this point.

Disclaimer: I don't own "Haven" but I would love to have a Duke! ^_^

Duke,

It's hard to believe that you've been gone for a year now. I can still see your gentle brown eyes and devilish grin. I can still imagine your sweet laugh and your warm, soothing voice. Your old clothes still carry your scent and I live dreading the day that it eventually fades. That smell of the sea, mixed with your cologne is sometimes the only thing that can bring me comfort.

I have nightmares about that night. I see you lying there, perfectly still and covered in blood. I reach you but it's too late. You meet my gaze one last time and have only strength enough to whisper my name before the light in your eyes flickers out. I wake up screaming and crying because I know it's all real. I won't wake to find myself wrapped in your arms and I never will again.

Neither of us knew it at the time, but I was pregnant. About 7 months after you…were gone, I gave birth to our son. I named him Liam. I wish you could see him…He looks just like you. I know he'll act just like you too when he's older.

I swear to you, though that he won't follow in your footsteps. You fought so hard against the fate of your family. You didn't want to be like them. But in the end it was like you just gave up and let fate have its way. But I promise that won't happen to Liam. I won't let him die…I can't lose the only piece of you I have left.

Audrey is gone now. She disappeared right after that night. In 27 years she'll be back. She'll be someone different but she'll still be Audrey. And truthfully I don't know if I could handle seeing her again. I know she was once your friend but not in those final months. And I could never forgive her for killing you.

Duke, I'm writing this letter because I can't say goodbye to you yet. This is my way of trying to keep you with me, just for a little longer. I love you more than anything and I have to believe that someday we'll be together again. Until then I'll raise our son and I'll tell him all about his father. He'll know everything about you he could ever hope to know.

I will always love you,

Julia

Hope you enjoyed! May make this into a multi-chapter if I get enough of a response. Please review if you liked it or are interested! ~Blue-Eyed-Devil0689