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Disclaimer ~ I don't own anything that has to do with Lord of the Rings. Though you guys should already know that. All I own is Ariana, her father and mother Sally Matt Mrs. Lester and anyone else that may come up that is not in the lord of the rings books.
Note to all, please keep in mind this is my first lord of the rings fan fic so If I get a detail about middle earth wrong please forgive me for my mistake and tell me the correct way. This story is going to be following the movies and books, because there are things in the books that I like and things that are in the movie that are not in the books that I like. Another thing this will go all the way to the War of the Ring but if it will go after that or how much further after that it'll go I'm not going to tell.
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Prolog ~ My World
People just pass me by, as if I'm not there. Actually most people wouldn't at my high school wouldn't recognize my face. But out of those that do know that I'm there talk of me as being this scary, emotionless thing.
My parents worry about me, they say that I should go out for things, talk to people, go the mall. They want me to do something, or anything and be someone or anyone else that I am. I've had to speak to councilors because of my "depression" or my "drug addition", or else my "suicidal attempts". They just fail to recognize that I'm different.
My mother has this thing where she has to know every single little detail about my life. And has to always have control, and when she doesn't have control, she gets pist. It was because of her that I had to go to the councilors in the first place, because she didn't know what I was doing, so she made up things that were not actually happening to me.
My father works all day, and will come home for about 4 hours. During those 4 hours he's either sleeping, or getting drunk with his buddies. And then in the few minutes that I might actually see him, he expects me to be "daddies little girl" and act as if he was a real father, and that my world was prefect. But it's when he's drunk that I become his punching bag. My mother believes my father is helping me get further in life by doing this and ignores everything that she hears because she wants to live in this prefect world, and if something isn't prefect she acts as if it isn't happening
As for me I live in a world that is only black. You aren't aloud to show any weakness or you will be smothered into dust. There's no such thing as happiness. When you're happy you are denying the fact that there is evilness. No crying is aloud, because then you're showing a weakness.
Unlike my mother thinks I've never in my life have touched any drugs, or alcohol. Nor am I depressed. I do talk to people when I need to or have to. I do things on my own and in my own way. I don't care if people think of me as a freak.
They're all just weak. Living in their primitive high school world. Where they're only worries and troubles are how their hair looks, or they will be talking about the hottest guy. Then when they really get on a role they'll start talking about how they're going to marry this guy named Orlando something. And if it's not that it's school pride and how they are going to demolish who ever it is our school is playing in the next game. They don't realize that the world is a cruel and cold place. And that it's everyone for them self.
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This is a note I am only going to say once just because I am one that does not like to repeat themselves a thousand different times but because I've had a lot of people ask me if this is how I really feel,or if I really actually do have these problems in my life I don't. None of this is based on me except maybe a couple of small details and I mean small details. I just decided to write a story where the girl is like this. I just thought that I should make this clear to everyone that ever reads this story. But now that that is cleared up please review!
Jessie
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Disclaimer ~ I don't own anything that has to do with Lord of the Rings. Though you guys should already know that. All I own is Ariana, her father and mother Sally Matt Mrs. Lester and anyone else that may come up that is not in the lord of the rings books.
Note to all, please keep in mind this is my first lord of the rings fan fic so If I get a detail about middle earth wrong please forgive me for my mistake and tell me the correct way. This story is going to be following the movies and books, because there are things in the books that I like and things that are in the movie that are not in the books that I like. Another thing this will go all the way to the War of the Ring but if it will go after that or how much further after that it'll go I'm not going to tell.
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Prolog ~ My World
People just pass me by, as if I'm not there. Actually most people wouldn't at my high school wouldn't recognize my face. But out of those that do know that I'm there talk of me as being this scary, emotionless thing.
My parents worry about me, they say that I should go out for things, talk to people, go the mall. They want me to do something, or anything and be someone or anyone else that I am. I've had to speak to councilors because of my "depression" or my "drug addition", or else my "suicidal attempts". They just fail to recognize that I'm different.
My mother has this thing where she has to know every single little detail about my life. And has to always have control, and when she doesn't have control, she gets pist. It was because of her that I had to go to the councilors in the first place, because she didn't know what I was doing, so she made up things that were not actually happening to me.
My father works all day, and will come home for about 4 hours. During those 4 hours he's either sleeping, or getting drunk with his buddies. And then in the few minutes that I might actually see him, he expects me to be "daddies little girl" and act as if he was a real father, and that my world was prefect. But it's when he's drunk that I become his punching bag. My mother believes my father is helping me get further in life by doing this and ignores everything that she hears because she wants to live in this prefect world, and if something isn't prefect she acts as if it isn't happening
As for me I live in a world that is only black. You aren't aloud to show any weakness or you will be smothered into dust. There's no such thing as happiness. When you're happy you are denying the fact that there is evilness. No crying is aloud, because then you're showing a weakness.
Unlike my mother thinks I've never in my life have touched any drugs, or alcohol. Nor am I depressed. I do talk to people when I need to or have to. I do things on my own and in my own way. I don't care if people think of me as a freak.
They're all just weak. Living in their primitive high school world. Where they're only worries and troubles are how their hair looks, or they will be talking about the hottest guy. Then when they really get on a role they'll start talking about how they're going to marry this guy named Orlando something. And if it's not that it's school pride and how they are going to demolish who ever it is our school is playing in the next game. They don't realize that the world is a cruel and cold place. And that it's everyone for them self.
~*~*~*~*~
This is a note I am only going to say once just because I am one that does not like to repeat themselves a thousand different times but because I've had a lot of people ask me if this is how I really feel,or if I really actually do have these problems in my life I don't. None of this is based on me except maybe a couple of small details and I mean small details. I just decided to write a story where the girl is like this. I just thought that I should make this clear to everyone that ever reads this story. But now that that is cleared up please review!
Jessie