Fragile Heart, Strong Mind

Here I lie again, pressing my cheek into the pillow I cried into so many nights. I oftenend watched you from behind, often saw your back when you fought, beliving you had to be in the spotlight.

You were tough, not one to show a soft side, though I believe you have one.

In my dreams, my intimate dreams I would kiss you, feel your soft lips touching mine. I would caress your cheek and tell you that I was there. But reality proved to be a whole lot different.

When you were hurt, I rushed to your side. When you were lying on the floor, I let your head rest on my lap. When you were lying unconcious, I sat by your side. Though I never heard you say that you acknolwedged what I was doing, I know you appreciated it though. I saw it in your eyes. Something only I would see.

His heart was like sleeping, only waiting for someone to wake it. Or so I believed. He ruled silence, no rather he was the silence. He would not talk a lot, just think to himself. But without doubt, he was smart.

I would do anything for him. A simple wink would tell me everything.

If he was cold, I would wrap my arms around him. It was not one night, it were many, in which I longed to see you. But your cold eyes would not look at me.

I could stand right on a bridge, telling you I would jump and all you would do is wishing me good luck.

When I saw you there, lying in the forest on the dirty floor, I heaved your head up and rested it on my lap. I cried because you were hurt. Though you had been hurt a million times more than me, you would not shed a tear. For you, it symbolized weakness. You were a man – men don't show their weak side. And what if a woman, a woman you love, would once become your weakness? Or would you never let somebody into your heart and stay the cold man you are. Maybe you lived just to kill as you said, and your heart froze so long ago.

I would always smile at the world and believe it's good. You though, felt betrayed. It's like you are the moon lighting the dark and I am the sun, shining down to earth.

I was sad you wouldn't just smile at me and make me feel good. But I assumed you smiled on the inside. The only happiness you gave me, was the fact, that you wouldn't acknowledge Ino either. That's the reason I will keep fighting for you. And slowly as my heart falls apart on the inside my mind stays strong and I tell you it's ok, I can wait.

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Alright, so that randomly came to my mind today. I'm not sure wheter it's any good, but hey, I felt like giving it a try and see wheter you guys might like to read. ;)