Hey Guys ! So, this is my first The Good wife story and my first english story (I'm french) ! This have been on my mind since something like 6 months and I've write it something like 2 months but I didn't continue it. Anyway, it's a little drama but it's 100% Peter/Alicia (Team Florrick forever !) ! Thank you to Michelle (A.K.A KissingYouGoodbyee) and thank you to you, my AP family, you're seriously amazing ! Thank to Christine for advise me in this story ! I hope you'll all like it ! I don't know how many chap I'll write !

Okay, you need some info: this is a post of "Another ham sandwich" 3x14, specially after the 18 minutes, Will have his Grand Jury investigation and Peter came to talk to Alicia in her appartement. So this is what could have been next

Enjoy !

"You keep your hands clean at the expense of... "she said and she stop herself.

He glared at her "At the expense of who?"

She turned her head and he continued, "Will?"

"No," she said simply, "My firm."

He kept his eyes on her, "And Will."

She rolled her eyes, "Yes. My boss."

"The boss who you're sleeping with," he said slowly.

She took a breath "Peter, if that's the issue here, then let's talk about ..."

He shouted and cut her off, "Of course that the issues!"

He looked into his eyes and bowed his head, aware that he had yelled. Something he had never done before. She looked confused and she replied after few seconds, "There's nothing between us."

He looked at her suspiciously. "My God you have changed! I used to be able to tell when you lied."

"You think I'm lying?" She asked slowly

"I think you're manipulating the truth like a pro," he answered.

"Well, you would know about pros" she said firmly.

He shrugged his eyebrows, "Well, you got me there...What do you want, Alicia?"

"I want you to stop this Grand Jury"

He shook his head "No. That was what I used to do. Things that worked, but were wrong. Not doing that anymore."

"Peter...the problem wasn't that you did things that were wrong. Your problem was that you did things that were wrong against your family"

"Maybe so," he admitted. "But there is nothing to do with this. Will Gardner is not my family."

She looked at him, "Peter...You know this is unfair."

"Yeah? For who? I paid for my mistakes! Why not him?" He asked angrily

"This isn't the same mistakes!"

"Yeah. And I paid severely for what I've done to you! I wasn't corrupted! I've been in jail for 5 months because of what I did to you. Now, I want same for all. He stole the money, he has to pay! "

She stared at him. "You talk about change! You weren't like that before! Since when are you so...Heartless?"

He took his coat "Since you kick me out when I won."

She could feel his tense and his anger. She wasn't used to see him angry. And she felt bad. Something was hurting her and she didn't know what it was exactly. But it was something like...Guilt.

"It was because you lied to me! Again!" she said as she held her tears.

"How I was supposed to tell you? Hey, hon, I didn't tell you before, but I slept with your best-friend! This wasn't a big deal, so, who cares?" he said ironically. "I admit it; I was never going to tell you. Yes, I'm a coward but I couldn't tell you! At least I'm admitting it, me, I'm not lying to you!"

"Me either! You said you used to be able to tell when I lied? Just do it now! See! See If I'm lying! I'm not seeing Will anymore!" She said with tears at her eyes.

He looked at her eyes and saw her tears, he felt nervous and guilty but he was so angry, so jealous that he couldn't stop himself. "Anymore? So I was right? You used to see him! Let me guess... Just after our break-up wasn't it? So what? You will tell me that you were in pain and he was here for you so you try with him? You were waiting for that since EVER! Even when we date first time, you talked about your 'sweet little friend Will'. Same at our wedding ' Too bad that Will isn't here'. You were thinking about him all the time! So, I guess, this was easy hmm? I was in jail, you were free, no husband, nothing. New jobs with your dream guys!"

"Oh my God !" She was chocked and so angry about what he said that it was almost normal to insult him "How can you be such a jerk?"

He tried to be calm "How? You know damn well how! I'm trying to change in the good way for you! You don't know how it's difficult to change when you're alone. I don't have true friends, I don't even know if I have friends except Eli! I don't have my kids when what all I want it's just to see them. I don't have someone to talk when I come back to work. But I'm trying to change for you! You know how much I love you! You know that I'm fucking jealous of this fucking Gardner! You know that he's my rival since ever! But you still continue to talk about him! To defend him! He's not better than me! If it's what you think, I can swear he's not! He's not as in love with you than me, I swear on it!"

She sigh "I don't believe in you trying to change."

He lowered his head "So why you didn't divorce me?"

She thought about it few second. She knew why. For her it was obvious even if she tried to deny it. She was still in love. She didn't believe him, but she loves him after all. But she couldn't tell him. She couldn't lose this fight. She was so angry that she couldn't control herself.

"Because of the kids. Because I don't want to see them in pain. That all" she lied.

He raised his head to face her. She saw his tears. He had never cried. He had always been a strong man. Her strong man. And now he looked so broke that it almost crushed her heart. She thought about what she said and she realized how idiot she was. How painful it could be to him. He looked at her few second, lost; he turned his back and walked to the hallway.

"I'm so sorry Alicia...But it's too painful. I'll divorce you... I...I can't watch you with any other guys, always thinking that one day we will be back together. I loved you so much... I'm done. Goodbye, Alicia," he said with a little voice

So? It sucks? I know they are both hard when they talk but you know, as we said "After the storm the rainbow" (At least, that what we say in France) ! I know Peter wasn't in jail for 5 months but I have to imagine some things. Sorry if it's bother you !

I know it's because of Peter and he's not "nice" to say things like this to her, but it's exactly what I wanted. In my opinion, she didn't exactly cheated on him because they were separeted but it sound better when it's like this ^^

I like when they are fighting but I like them in romance too so don't call a hitman, please

I hope you liked it even if it was hard, I assure you that is definetely a Peter/Alicia ! Do you want to read the second chap?

Tell me what you think about it ! Thank you !