Twelve Years

by DracoHermioneForever

Based right after Prisoner of Azkaban. Remus finds Sirius and they talk about what they used to be. Neither is over another but they cannot be together because Remus is upset he had no one for Twelve years. One Shot!

"Twelve Fucking years Sirius," He screamed.

"I- I'm sorry Moony."

"Don't use my stupid nickname," Remus was ready to kill.

"But…."

"Look," Remus said more softly. "Did you ever think after twelve years I may have moved on? I never thought I'd see you again and I thought you had betrayed our best friend. Do you think I could just love you for that?"

"I was hoping," Sirius looked down.

"Well I couldn't," Remus said shaking and looking shameful. "I convinced myself you had become something else. I can't do this."

"Well did you ever think," Sirius said. "That I was sitting in my cell in Azkaban as a dog, which I learned how to be for you, thinking about you, wishing I was with you, missing you, and hoping you believed my innocence. I was hoping you'd visit me. I was hoping I'd wake up and it would all be some miserable dream and I'd be sleeping beside you."

"Padfoot," Remus said. "We can't."

"I know Rem, I know."

They kissed for the last time, and remembered how they had been before the betrayal.

"I love you and I always will," Sirius muttered and he disapparated.

"Sirius," Remus said to no one. "Even after twelve years I'm not over you."