authors note: i do not own this manga.. if i did usui would be mine :)
She had known pain like this before.
The kind that eats away at your soul, the one you would do anything to rid yourself of.
She first met it in middle school, when her father left.
Alas, the pain that now gripped at her heart was tantamount to what she felt then. The pain she was now ridding herself of with razor blades.
From each thin line bubbled blood. From the blood oozed her pain. From the future scars spoke of heart ache.
Five cuts.
A new round of dull empty pain gripped her heart, causing her to convulse in silent sobs. She couldn't breathe. She didn't care.
Why must she have come here to this empty place?
She wanted him. This she was sure of.
Twelve cuts.
The lines fascinated her, the blood streaming together into one river. Each mar of the flesh brought her some condolence. Made it just that tiny bit easier to breathe.
He hadn't been around, and she grew worried. The voice message she heard after she reached his apartment to check on him still rang through her head.
Why did he end it this way?
Twenty-three cuts.
They now spanned her left forearm, decorating it in the twisted art of these lines.
Her shattered heart was nothing more than a dull black hole of pain, as she began on her right.
Since his transfer he never frayed from his promise to visit until two weeks ago. He saw her no matter the weather, no matter the time. Even snuck in through the window once. Now he says he doesn't want her
The memories were painful.
Thirty- nine cuts.
She wondered how many she could fit on one arm. Fifty-two was her answer. She started over on her other arm, lost in the pain.
Somewhere along the line it began to rain, and her other arm was filled with bleeding red lines.
"AYUZAWA!" his voice boomed, as Usui rushed to her side. He grabbed at her, wrapping her in his arms.
"Why? Why? Ayuzawa? Answer me!" Takumi yelled.
All she could do was cry, gasping for air, her head buried in his chest.
"I am sorry, so sorry, I didn't mean it, I swear. Misaki, why? No… No.."
And then her world turned black.
i know i didn't truely stick to the characters personality, i mainly wrote this fanfiction to express somethings i am/once felt. Please r&r, and maybe i'll be inspire to write another story with our two favourite characters