I'm holding on your rope, [you] got me ten feet off the ground
I clung to you desperately. You were the only thing I had, the only thing I could touch and it not be forced away. I held onto you for dear life.
And I'm hearing what you say, but I just can't make a sound
You would come home and tell me stories: facts, fiction, what happened at church that day, things you saw while outside, et cetera. All of those things sounded beautiful. You told me that one day I'd get to see them too, but I knew I'd never be able to leave home; not with my physical health or mom's mental stability.
Tell me that you need me
You had promised a better life for the two of us. You said that you needed me to stay healthy and on mom's good side so you could make it work. I believed you.
Then you go and cut me down
You vanished. One day you left and you didn't come back that night, or the next night, or for several more months. I tried searching for you everywhere. Where are you? Finally I found you, but you were under a new name. You were trying to forget about your old life. Forget about me. I was shocked. I was hurt. I felt betrayed.
But wait. Tell me that you're sorry; didn't think I'd turn around
In all your life, you never dreamed I would join a cult, and even more: turn against you. You always thought that I would stay sweet, innocent Saeran, right? Well let me tell you brother that I am no longer the perfect child you fantasized me to be. I have done evil in your eyes. I have become the person you tried to keep me away from.
You did this to me.