To Love Somebody : by Kai


Disclaimer : I don't own them, no... thanks Sunrise, Don't sue meeee
Pairing : 1+3
Warning : Shonen Ai, Heero POV
Note : Ficlet / Sequel to : [Somebody to Love] / Prequel to : [Blinded by the Moonlight]

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-To Love Somebody-
By Kai
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Six o'clock in the morning. The former Wing pilot stood against the mild wind at the white balcony on the second floor ofhis Arabian friend's mansion. He didn't really sleep last night.. because.. today's the day..

What am I thinking?

Today should be the perfect day, clear blue sky and nice weather. I can see the vast ocean from here, and I'm waiting forthe sunrise. I can feel the coldness of the marble floor under my bare feet, due to the fact that this is a midwinter morning. Quatre always told me to take care of myself. He said I should wear the proper garment to keep my body warm, even though we used to be 'the Mighty Gundam Pilots' like Duo said. But that didn't mean that we won't catch a cold. If Quatre sees me dress only in a bathrobe like this, he'll get mad for sure.

I can remember the last time when we were all like a family here; Me, Duo, Quatre, Wufei and Trowa...After the war, we had no where to go. So, Quatre invited us to stayed with him. He said he didn't want to be alone.. Then, we all gathered here and worked as 'The Preventers'.. yes, that means we were together all the time. We became more than just friends. More than just old comrades and more than the brothers. That's all it should be.. but .. one day, Trowa said he wanted to leave.. He didn't tell me nor anyone his reason, and nobody could guess.

After he left, for Duo, Quatre and Wufei, everything was just the same but they thought of him sometimes. Duo used to go to Trowa's old room, knocking and yelling for him to come out. They didn't deny the fact that they missed Trowa. Even his presence was hard to find but.. knowing he was there was good enough...

Sometimes I wonder whether I miss him or not..

I knew that he had a habit of going out at night here at the balcony, watching the moon and the stars while we were asleep. I knew because.. one night, I stayed up late. I was doing the research. I wanted something hot to drink, so I walked passed the balcony. He was here, playing his flute alone under the moonlight...the midnight wind seemed to embrace him softly, his eyes were closed and his melodies were beautiful... That scene was so serene and sacred.

//Somewhere out there, beneath the pale moonlight
Someone's thinking of me and loving me tonight..//

That night he didn't notice me and after that, I continued working late at night. Deep inside, am I hoping to see him again? I didn't know the answer to that question until he left. I often came out here, and let the silence guided me to him, guide me to my imagination of him standing here.

What am I doing?

I just realized that I wanted him back...after he left, Quatre and Duo tried to asked him for dinner. Sometimes it works, sometimes it doesn't. But everytime he comes, he comes only when I didn't show up. Was that just a coincidence? I found out later that it was true, he avoids me...because one day, I told Quatre that I got a mission and Trowa accepted to come... I couldn't believe it. Lying was the only way I could see him.

I didn't hear Duo call me loudly along the hallway. He told me that I should get dressed. I nodded and complied.

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My mind was wondering through many things I've done until today.. our past, our pain, our laughter...they never let me go...I know by now how I felt through the many months of his absence. I missed him so much. It hurt everytime I walk passed the balcony and I passed it everyday... it reminds me of nothing but my emptiness..

Should I tell him? But how? It makes no sense to tell him now, it's too late.. too late for me

I found myself again when I was standing in front of the priest, I felt someone poke me at my arms...I turned to her...It was Relena. She stood beside me in white dress, holding the bouquet and asked me if I was alright. I gave her a light smile and said...

"I do."

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I heard the music well up while we walked to the church's front door. Duo was throwing uncountable petals to the sky and they fell on me. Slowly, I looked up and my heart was stopped...I saw the slim figure sitting on the bench under the tree...it was him. He was here.

He didn't look at me when I saw him. I tried to call to him but Relena pulled me down and kissed my cheek. My mouth went dry and my voice was gone. He was turning away.

'Trowa... Trowa, come back..'

Nobody heard me because I didn't call out to him. Even my mind was screaming, because I knew it was useless. If I called, he might wish me luck, but I don't want that.

Am I going to let him go?

I asked myself, and the answer was yes, it was the best for him. And Relena...nothing that I could revoke anymore...

After a 'blissful' moment for 'us', hugging and laughing. Duo said it was time, so Relena and I went in the black limo. I stared out of the window, hoping to see him again but only the deserted cemetery appeared in my sight...

"Heero, why are you crying? Are you alright?"

"It's nothing, Relena...It's nothing.."


fin~

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Kai: Hmm actually I didn't plan on writing this after 'Somebody to Love' but recently I just realized that there's a Bee Gees's song called 'To Love Somebody', so.. it sparked me!

please please, I need feedback good or bad are welcome (*^_^*)

Edited by : Becky Chan! Thanks again!

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