I think I have been reading way too much Luke and Noah stories! I have this story in my head right now and hopefully if I get it out I can get back to my Robin Hood story!

I am an angst junkie! There will major angst in this one. Hope you guys like it!

ENJOY!

Chapter One

Co-Existence

Noah walked through the quiet house that had become his home nearly three months previously. It was a move that he did not want. The accident on the set of his student film took his eye sight and forced him into this situation. These months following the accident his eye sight had not improved much. His vision was still nearly non-existent. He was only able to see light changes. So instead of pitch blackness, it was now a dim darkness. He was still unable to do many things on his own. All the little things that everyone else takes for granted. Like going for a walk outside, or shopping at the grocery store, or watching TV. Anything that involved him having to see, he stopped doing all together. He had been given a leave of absence from OU. All of this video editing for his student film stopped the night before the accident. He wasn't even sure where he fit into the world right now.

His right hand was out stretched, feeling along the wall as he moved down the hallway towards the den in Lily and Damian's house. His hearing had greatly improved since his eye sight was gone and he heard something that gave him pause. He turned the small corner and into the room. He knew that there was something in the room, but the room was dark; that much he could tell.

"Hello?" he said into the room as he reached for the light switch on the inside of the door. Noah could see the light come on and he stepped into the room. He heard the person inside cough lightly and he heard sniffling. "Who's in here?" He asked again.

"It's just me," said the voice. It was Luke.

"Luke? What are you doing in a dark room by yourself?"

"Nothing. I dozed off earlier and I just woke up," he tried to cover and hoped that it worked. Noah could tell by Luke's voice that he was lying. Luke was wiping away the tears that were still on his cheeks as he stood to face Noah. Luke looked at the man that was everything to him and felt suddenly sad. They had not been themselves for months and he didn't know where they stood anymore.

If at all.

"Uh…did you need something?" Luke asked in a gruff voice. Noah suddenly felt uncomfortable, like he was interrupting something. Luke couldn't help, but be hopeful at that moment. Had Noah sought him out for a reason?

"No. I was just going to say goodnight,"

"Oh. Goodnight," Luke sounded so wounded and quiet. Luke turned back to the chair he had been sitting in and collapsed into it with his back facing Noah. Noah wasn't sure what to do. Part of him wanted to grab Luke and hold him until all of the pain was gone; his and Noah's. Part the larger part of him just wanted to be alone, angry, and not have to see anyone. He just wanted to handle everything on his own and he always hated asking for help. And this accident only reinforced that fact. Noah turned to walk back to his room, but stopped just inside the doorway.

"Luke? Are you all right?" Noah asked and he could hear Luke sniffle twice before he answered.

"I'm fine. Goodnight Noah," he answered without turning around.

Fine! He doesn't want to tell me then I don't care. Noah thought to himself as he turned to go back to his room. Scratch that – Luke's room. He didn't even have a place in this house that was really his. He stopped one last time and stepped into the hallway. He was not three or four steps away from the den door when he heard the light switch click off and the door shut. He listened for a moment but heard nothing. He knew then that Luke had shut the lights off and closed the door.

Noah didn't know how to fix what had been broken between them. He wanted to go back to the way things were, but he just couldn't. He couldn't forgive Luke for what happened with Mason. He just couldn't get past the accident at the set while Luke was there. On some level, deep inside of him, he knew that the accident was not Luke's fault, but it was the "what if's" that plagued him still.

What if Luke had not been there distracting him?

What if they had not fought?

What if he had been able to have Mason on set that day? All of these questions swirled in his head every day.

The next week continued like this.

Noah finding Luke in the den every night, alone, in the dark. He knew that Luke was crying by himself every night, but still he did nothing. He didn't know what to do.

How did they get to this point?

They had been able to talk about anything and everything. Each night in their apartment, after they made love, they would lay in the dark and talk until they fell asleep. Luke loved to hear about the places that Noah lived at before he came to Oakdale. Noah loved to hear about Luke's outrageous family. Both of them wondered if they would ever run out of stories.

It wasn't until Mason that they started to hide things from each other.

Noah didn't tell Luke about the side glances or flirting directed at him from Mason. He didn't tell Luke that he was flattered by the attention he got from the older man that he had grown to admire. Luke didn't tell Noah the real reasons behind his jealousy of Mason. That Luke was afraid that Noah would be charmed away by the professor. By the man that had more in common with his boyfriend Noah than Luke did. This division in their relationship had grown now to where they barely spoke to each other. Luke was there to help him with the day to day; take him to the doctor's appointments, help him map out the house in his head, but they never really talked anymore.

There was the afternoon of Thanksgiving, when Luke told him that he was going to be there whether he liked it or not. They had a nice conversation that day, but here it was, almost the middle of February, and they had fallen into a kind of co-existence without much else.

Noah didn't know how to break this cycle. But what he didn't know was, it was about to be broken for him.

Not much I know, but I wanted to wet the appetite and have you wanting more.

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