Hey everyone, I know it's been forever since I've done anything with this story. I have made a few changes to it and am trying to finish it, so I'll be adding lots more, and hopefully finish this story soon! P.s Thirst five came out, I'm reading it now, it's so good!
My eyes remain glued to Krishna, not because I feel I have to stare but because I simply cannot look away. His words bounce around my skull "It matters not, Sita. Stay or go you will always be with me." I feel as if I'm about to make the most important decision of my extremely long life, but yet instead of contemplating my options I stand here captivated by his magical blue eyes.
"Sita, would you like to see Umara before making your decision?" Krishna voice feels like a caress from a loving hand, I all but melt where I stand, I'm not sure I am capable of speaking so I nod my head, I pictured meeting Krishna many times on earth after I first saw him, I never prepared for being given a choice to travel back to earth. "As you have said Sita, I am full of surprises." He says while turning his head sideways to smile at me, in that moment nothing matters but him. My heart pounds in my chest, which surprises me since I'm dead, my body feels like my veins have been infused with liquid bliss.
"Will I come back to you, my lord, if I were to go to earth and die again?" If the answer is anything but yes, I will chain myself to the very ground I stand on. His laugh tickles my heart and makes me slightly shaky.
"I don't think going to such extremes is necessary but, whether you stay or go, Sita you are always here." I suspect he means because of his grace, his answer annoys but does not surprise me, for it is just his way. We walk together silently, not out of anger but because words are not enough, we walk for quite some time but how long a mystery to me is, time has no meaning here, a concept I myself do not understand. I really would like to meet Umara, Yakasha's wife but I never want to leave Krishna's side, it grieves me to think our walk will end sometime.
"My lord, did Yakasha see you?" As I ask my voice turns to barley a whisper at the end, if Yakasha did not survive the scales...the concept is not a possibility in my mind.
"Yes, I have met with Yakasha, I saw his last night on the beach with you, actually his is in the cavern directly before Umara, if you wish to see him you could stop there first?" I feel one tear of joy trickle down my cheek, although I'm not completely sure it is there. I feel as I did on the mountain top in Las Vegas, only I am not filled with radiation but the pure goodness Krishna emits.
"Am I in heaven, I like it by why do you spend all of you time with me, Sita the vampire?" I can't help myself, I has so many questions, only a fraction are answered. "My lord." I tack on for good measure, again he smiles.
"Oh my Sita, always so curious even in the afterlife. I guess if you wanted you could call this heaven, although it is past words or time, and Sita I am with you but also I am everywhere I am in all of creation, it is just this form of me that stands by you now." His answers are substantial but just raise more questions. "Through the passage of light Yakasha stays, you may go to him now."
"Wait! one more question, is John similar to you, Krishna?" I cannot help but ask, for it has haunted me.
"John is a very special person, and his wonders will only grow with age. Now go Sita talk to Umara and Yakasha, follow your heart and come to me when you have reached your decision." And before I can say goodbye he is gone. I just realize now I was so absorbed by him I barley notice the red lotus flower and flute he held, also his clothes changed from his earlier wear to a blue floor length gown, I look down to see my dress is similar. I take a deep breath gather my courage and walk through what I can only describe as a doorway of light, I'm not sure if I am ready to see Yakasha yet. I'm not sure what I expect to see behind the door, maybe a holy fountain, but I defiantly did not expect to see Yakasha sitting listening to classical music, the music does not come from a specific place, it just surrounds us.
"Oh Sita, how I've missed you," He mumbles, I understand how he feels, I thought it would be forever before I saw him again. "Is it true you took out the telar and IIC?" My first reaction is to say yes, I'm not sure maybe it's his hopeful expression but my gut tells me it's something else. It's impossible, I know I died on the mountain top when Matt shot me but Krishna's three simple words come back to me "Are you sure?"
"Honestly, I don't know, I feel like to different people. I know I stepped in front of Seymour to protect him from Matt who was attacked by the array, but when I concentrate I get flashes of other thing. I don't know what's happening!" I groan in frustration, I feel the information is important and I can almost remember! Yakasha rubs the back of my head and whispers calming things.
"Did you like Umara?" Yakasha says guiding me to a bed I didn't notice before.
"I came to see you first I am going to her next." He looks confused.
"No on earth, Umara talked about meeting you, helping tackle the IIC...Sita are you okay?" The flashbacks play vividly in my mind but only stay for a millisecond. I feel my body start to sway back and forth then land on Yakasha, someone enters the room but I do not have the power to lift my head and look. "Umara what's going on?" Yakasha says with urgency, I want to tell them I am okay but I do not have the energy.
"Shit, her brain is confused because subconsciously it remembers dyeing a number of times, her conscious cannot keep up with the confusion." I don't understand, it is not possible for someone to die more than once, which is how the world works. "Sita look at me," suddenly all of my strength comes back and I lift my head and look into a beautiful set of warm brown eyes, then everything hits me the cradle, the lens, the IIC, telar, Shanti, Tarana. Everything comes crashing down and it's too much, black dots dance across my vision and before I can make a sound I black out completely.