So this is my first story to actually share and i'm not sure what I want to get from this story but i'll continue if anyone likes it

Olivia's pov

She hadn't realized how hard it would be when he left her. She wasn't supposed to be dependent on anyone… that included him. Now she knows that can't happen again. That's why she's so distant with the new detectives she doesn't want to be close with anyone like that ever again. Everyone knows that she didn't deserve to be treated like that from anyone much less Elliot Stabler. They all know she's missing her other half and their just waiting for her to give up too. For some reason that no one not even Olivia herself can explain she feels obligated to continue the job he give up on. How could she not want to finish what they started together even if he isn't there beside her.

Last time she heard anyone say that name out loud was a year ago to the day. Everyone around her was scared how she would react if they talked about it. That's why she was surprised when she heard Amaro ask about him that morning on the way to a new crime scene. She hasn't forgot what he said to her and doesn't think she can. They stung her like a bee and she froze for a little till she found the courage to answer. She remembers the hole conversation like it was happening right in front of her at the movies or on her TV.

" So I've been hearing a lot of stuff lately about your old partner Stabler and well I was wondering what was it like to work with Mr. Hot Head as everyone describes him"

"Um… Stabler is… I mean was a great partner to have in this line of work Amaro" She hadn't realized how hard it was to say him name until then or even verbalize that he wasn't her partner anymore.

"It's Nick my names Nick not just Amaro you can call me by my first name you know that right" Damn she thought why does he have to be called by his first name that's when she gets attached is when she starts using first names and she knows this.

"I… I know I'm just not ready for that I guess and I'm sorry for that I really am Amaro but you have to understand that I can't… I can't" Why does this have to be so hard ugh this is what makes me mad at Elliot he isn't even here and he's still making my life complicated

"You can't what Liv what can't bad-ass Benson do" He's being way to nice to me I don't really like where this conversation is going I need to end this NOW

"First off AMARO do not call me Liv okay. Secondly I don't think you would understand what I can't explain just yet when and if I'm ever ready ill come talk to you got it"

"Got it"

Come on Olivia get yourself together there's a victim out there that probably needs your full attention right this second… then she hears it his voice. She can smell his cologne as he gets closer she can hear his breathing ringing in her ears. Before she even notices what's going on she blacks out and falls to ground face first…