My name is Erin Yeager; I'm 18 years old and I'm in the top 5 league of Survey cops. I'm popular with some of the other soldiers because of my tomboyish nature and feminine appearance. I used to hate the way I looked until I accepted it was because I look like my mother; after that I kind of used it to my advantage which I don't regret in the slightest.

Since birth despite my obvious dislike for anything remotely feminine; my cute face and long dark hair has attracted others. I mean I don't hate the attention I get its just I hate gender stereotypes made by douche bag diplomats in power and simply break gender roles. I hate how people expect me to wear cute dresses and skirts when I enjoy wearing shirts and trousers instead. I mean the closes to feminine I'll get is my long hair; and because it gets in the way when windy I tie my hair up in a ponytail to keep it from getting into my face.

I often (but not always) get into trouble due to my cockiness, short temper and lack of patience. But I write of off to my determination to succeed and desire to keep fighting to protect humanity. However many of my subordinates say otherwise saying I'm just hot-headed and independent; which sometimes I agree with. But most of them expect me to be timid, girly and obedient; fuck that I aint a pushover! I've got more balls than most of those pansy ass crybabies; Hell once some of them know their in deep shit they panic like the little bitches they are. (This coming from a woman!)

Anyway enough about me; I best tell you about then people in my life; what you expect me to be a loner cos I'm too much for anyone to handle? Man were you wrong!

My best friends are my adopted brother Marcus Ackerman and Arwen Arlert. I've grown up with them since I was young and were there the world fell apart and our home was destroyed by titans. Until we all escaped together it seemed like we would never see each other again; I mean our home had been broken into by cannibalistic giants. How could we not think the worst for each other at that point?

Arwen is 17 years old and often bullied for being a coward; in my opinion she is just introverted and avoids violence due to being a pacifist. I see nothing wrong being against violence; but I do admit she needs to stop being a doormat and stand up for herself more. She has shoulder length blonde hair in a bob and light blue eyes. Her grandfather is of German descent so she got her genes from him.

She is rather short which often makes her easy to be harassed and pushed around by older and taller members. However a lot of them just leer at her small waist and small chest; she has always been a bit lacking in that department. I do my best to make sure she doesn't get attacked by manipulative members in the upper ranks; a lot of them would abuse her just because of their titles.

Marcus is 19 and almost a full grown adult; I've known him since I was a child and I saved him from sex slave traders. He is generally quiet and keeps to himself but he is a kind person and protective of those he cares for. Many people are scared of him because of his lack of talking and silent appearance; his cat like abilities to sneak up on others doesn't help either.

He is well toned and takes care of his body making him popular with female cops in the group. This is because he eats well, exercises like a maniac and gets plenty of sleep.I do worry about him pushing himself but luckily it earns him more fan-girls who drool over him; I don't mind though because he's like a brother to me; I just don't want him to date someone who will take advantage of his good will.

I don't know why but when Captain Lilia is around Marcus always gets mad or glares at her. It's not like they have ever fought or argued before; they hardly say 2 words to each other. If anything they give each other a kirk nod, say each other's name when passing each other or simply update each other on current mission statuses.

Then there is Captain Lilia Ackerman; the head of the Survey cops and the greatest soldier humanity has to offer. She's 22 and is the only person to rival Marcus when it comes to training. She has a problem with OCD and cleaning as she cannot stand the sight of anything filthy. She rivals me on bust size as mine are 30C and hers are at least a 32 D; however she covers them up better with her jacket.

Unlike my wavy-ish hair; Captain Lilia has silky straight hair that reaches her elbows. Sometimes she wears it down or wears it in a ponytail. Very rarely she will wear it in a clip tied back into a topknot. Like many others I agree with the statement that it adds to her already overflowing sex appeal; if that were humanely possible.

Like me she has beautiful eyes; while mine are a stunning green colour hers are more dramatic. She has grey eyes that match a sea before a storm hits; they are the eyes of a warrior staring down its prey. Many have labelled her a goddess warrior incarnate and I am inclined to agree with that statement; when in battle she is sadistic, ruthless and unforgiving.

One day I want to be as strong as Lilia-san; to be as flawless, brave and straightforward. I want to be as carefree and yet dedicated to my duties as she is; she's so cool and so popular I wanna be just like her. I wanna be as respected, admired and loved as much as she is instead of being mocked, teased and insulted; and until I am I'm gonna keep pushing myself.

But sometimes I get the feeling Captain Lilia hates me; she's always staring at me coldly or watching me from a distance. She always seems to be in a bad mood when I spend a lot of time with Michael; and sometimes I get the feeling she stares at my chest or ass. I often worry its because my body isn't as toned or well trained as hers is; which makes me self conscious.

So I decided to keep training harder so I can impress Lilia-sama so that I won't annoy her anymore. I'm going to stop messing around and slacking off with Arwen and Michael so much and concentrate on training more. That way she won't be as mad at me anymore and she will praise me or smile. It makes me sad that I cause so much trouble for Captain Lilia; I feel bad for her having a troublesome soldier like me in her ranks. I heard from Hange that she gets loaded with work and often doesn't get a lot of sleep. To be under that much stress and have to deal with me and so many others makes me feel guilty.

I'd feel better if I knew what Lilia-sama was thinking; then we could understand each other more. That way I could be of more use to her and be the best soldier I can be and give my abilities to the good of humanity. If I were to be able to make her see how much of a good soldier I am and how much I wanna do her proud; It would make me so happy!