So I was just listening to some music (like always) and since I've been watching Victorious on my laptop (idk why. lol. But I like it) this came to me and I felt like putting it up.
So Cold
It was a chilly day in UCLA and a petite brunette was slowly making her way through the campus with her friend while she was talking on the phone. "Hey, listen, uhmm... You know, it would be really nice if you came down here to see me. I'll be graduating soon and you still haven't come to visit me at all since I started." She said.
The other voice on the line was silent for a while when they finally spoke. "Yeah, I know babe. I'm sorry. You know I can't though. I'm busy with work." The brunette sighed at the excuse the other girl said. She's heard it one too many times. "Jay, it's the same things all the time. You got work. Andre wants to write a new song with you. You never have time to come down and see me!"
The other voice, known as Jay sighed over the phone. "Fine! You want the truth? You want to know why I haven't gone down to see you Tor? It's just that... Everytime I look at your face, I can't help but remember about the baby... Our baby..." Tori stopped walking as she let the words sink in. So Jade was still hurting... "Tori? you okay?" She heard Robbie ask but couldn't answer him as she thought of when everything changed between the two girls.
-FB-
Before graduating Hollywood Arts, during their junior year, Jade had gotten pregnant with Beck's child and decided to keep it. Beck, however, bailed on Jade and left her with a pregnancy to deal with on her own. Distraught and heart broken, she turned to the only girl who was always there for her, no matter how rude or how much she pushed her away: Tori Vega. Tori Vega, since meeting Jade West from day one, had immediately fallen for her. So, being the kind and loving friend she was, helped Jade with the pregnancy.
As her pregnancy progressed for a few months, and she saw how caring, protective, and attentitive Tori was over her, Jade began to fall in love with Tori as well. The next thing they know, both girls end up together and no longer did Jade feel the baby was Beck's as well, but her's and Tori's. They were a happy couple and all their other friends were happy and supportive of them.
One day though, Jade woke up and found that she was bleeding. She woke Tori up, "Tor... I'm bleeding... it hurts..." when the half latina saw the blood, she quickly got up and went to start the car while Jade put some warmer clothes, since it was raining, and took her to the hospital. After being checked in, she was rushed into a room and had some tests done. Both girls waited anxiously in a room. Tori tried to soothe her girlfriend but failed. When the doctor stepped in the room, Tori quickly reached for Jade's hand. "I'm very sorry..." Was all Jade heard from the doctor before spacing out and bursting into tears. Tori squeezed Jade's hand and began to rub her back. The doctor decided to give the two girls some space and left the room. Tori stayed quiet for a while until Jade had finally calmed down. "Jade... I.." Jade shook her head and let more tears fall out. "Don't say you're sorry... This wasn't your fault... Just... Don't leave me Tor..." Whispered Jade. Tori agreed and hugged her girlfriend. Never in her life, had she seen the other girl this broken. Not even when Beck left her. Seeing Jade like this broke Tori's heart but she knew she had to say strong for them right now.
After getting the clear to leave, the two went back home, but something inside Jade snapped. Ever since then, she wasn't the same fiery girl Tori admired and loved. Yeah, she'd put up a front to everyone, and they'd all believe her; however, Tori could always see through Jade's walls.When the group of friends finally graduated, they stayed together and in touch.
Robbie, Cat, and Tori went to UCLA and Trina went to Berkeley to keep studying, while Jade and Andre were signed at a record label. But ever since the junior year of Tori's college life, she was a bit more distant, especially the past few months. She'd be cutting Tori's calls short and when they'd skype, Jade would always try to avoid from looking Tori in the eye alot. It hurt Tori knowing her girlfriend was pushing her away but she never gave up. Now though, knowing Jade was still hurting, and feeling guilty because she reminded Jade of the baby, she began to question their bond.
Tori was brought back from her thoughts by Jade's voice on the phone. "Tori? Tor? Baby! You still there?" Tori shook her head and put the phone back up by her ear. "Yeah... I'm here... I gotta go... I'm late for class..." She heard Jade sigh on the other end of the phone. "Tor... I'm sorry! it's just that I can't deal with th-" Tori quickly ended the call and stuffed her phone in her pocket. She stood there for a while trying to hold the tears. When she felt that she could move again, she turned around, and walked back to her dorm, leaving a confused Robbie on his own.
Inside the dorms, Tori was on her bed, crying her eyes out, when in came in her roomate and bestfriend, Cat Valentine. "Hey Tori! Aren't you- wait, why are you crying?" Asked the bubbly red head with a pout on her face. Tori sat up and looked at her friend. Cat, seeing the blood shot red eyes and tear stained face on her friend's face, rushed to her side and hugged her friend in need. "Tor... What's wrong? You never cry." Cat said while rubbing her back. Tori shook her head and let more tears fall. Seeing Tori like this made Cat upset because not only was Tori her bestfriend, but she had also had a crush on the half latina. Ever since coming to UCLA and getting closer, Cat couldn't help but develop a few non platonic feelings for her friend. Knowing that the half latina was dating her other bestfriend though, Cat sucked it up and did her best to be the bestfriend she was to the two lovers.
"Tori, talk to me please..." Pleaded Cat. After a few minutes of trying to comfort Tori, the half latina finally calmed down. "It-It's Jade..." was all Tori said before feeling a lump on her throat. "What did she do now?! Tori, she isn't good for you! All she does is push you away! Ever since you guys lost the baby, she pushes you away like if it was your fault or something!" Cat said in an angered tone. This made Tori pull away from the hug and look at the usual happy girl, with a confused look and a raised brow. "I mean, it's like she doesn't have time for you Tori. She's suppose to be your girlfriend. We're about to graduate and not once has she even come to see you. Even Andre had come like a few times! And when you've tried to surprise her by going over there, all you get is a message from her stupid assistant saying she flew out to New York, or Vegas, or something!" Exclaimed Cat.
Tori finally looked at her and took a deep breath. "I called Jade... Sh-She said that I remind her of the ba-baby. That's why she hasn't come, and sh-e can't deal with it." whispered Tori. Cat stayed quiet and let Tori keep talking. "I just... I don't even know if that meant she was breaking up with me. I know it was never my fault Cat. For God's sake, I was excited for the baby as much as she was! I'm tired of her pushing me away and making excuses for us not to see each other. I'm so done with this Cat... I miss being held in her arms Cat... I miss the her smell... her touch..." Tori went on. Hearing Tori only made Cat crack and lose resolve. She pulled Tori closer to her and opened her legs and wrapped them around the torn girl to bring her closer. Tori loooked at her questionably at the action but Cat only gave her a soft smile. "Tori... I know Jade is hurting, but that doesn't mean she can treat you like this. You deserve better... you deserve to feel better... to feel loved..." Cat said while pulling Tori closer to her. Tori questioned herself as she leaned in closer to Cat's lips. What about Jade? She thought. As soon as she could feel Cat's breath on her lips, she pulled away. "Tori, I-" "No Cat... It's okay... I just can''t do this... not when Jade and I are like this... I'll see you later. I'm going for a walk."
Cat huffed out as she watched Tori quickly walk away. She just sat there on the bed, feeling conflicted, sad, and upset. 'Was I really going to go behind Jade's back and take advantage of Tori's feelings right now?' She thought. She sighed and reached for her phone that was on the drawer. She unlocked it and scrolled down through her contact list until she reached the number she was looking for and dialed it. It rang four times before the other line picked up. "Hey Cat. What's up?" "Cut the shit Jade." Said the bubble girl. She was never heard cursing unless she was upset beyond her limit and now, Jade was about to face it for the first time ever. "Cat? Wh-" "No Jade. You listen. Tori's heartbroken. What the hell did you do? You need to suck whatever it is that's bugging you up, and fix things with Tori. I've been the one having to try to make Tori feel better. And even Robbie! Either you be a better girlfriend, or you'll end up losing her as a friend too! She deserves so much better than what you're giving her Jade. Now fix it!" Cat huffed out and hung up, not caring what Jade would say back.
After running out of their dorm, Tori went down the hallway and out of the dormitory building. She walked through campus until she found herself in front of the garden. She went in and immediatley fell at ease with the soft breeze. She walked through the garden for a while and she was beginning to feel slightly happier. That is until her phone rang. She pulled it out and looked at the caller i.d and hesitated before answering. "What now Jade?" She croaked. "Tor... I-I love you. So damn much, and I want you happy. Which is why I'm letting you go. I've been hurting you and you deserve better. You have Cat to help you. I want you to do whatever it takes to forget me Tor..." Tori stopped walking and just stood there. She felt tht if she moved, she would faint, so, she just stood there. 'Let me go? Just forget about her? Forget what we had?' Tori though. She began feeling her chest heavy and was struggling to breathe. She leaned against a tree for support and let a few tears fall. "I can't do that Jay... Why though?" She asked. Instead, all she got was the click on the line and the call was ended.
Too afflicted and heartbroken, the girl didn't have the energy to move and slumped down against the tree and just sat there. Not knowing what caused Jade to just dump her out of the blue left Tori extremely lost. She was positive there wasn't another girl involved with the pale skinned girl. Jade wasn't like that. She had no clue to what it could've been the reason for Jade to just leave her. Discombobulated by sadness, she dialed a number that popped right into her head: Cat Valentine. It rang a couple of times until she answered with a "where are you?" Tori sniffled before answering. "Can you come get me? I'm in the garden?" "I'll be there in ten." Was said before the call was over.
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It's been about four months that Jade and Tori had broken up and two months since they trio in UCLA had graduated. All their friends had went to their graduation ceremony except Jade. After the break up, all Andre told them was that Jade left. No one knew what went wrong between her and Tori and much less what was going on with Jade to just suddenly leave with out a reason. Tori was completely torn when Andre told her. She turned to Cat for comfort when Andre gave her the news. Everyone did their best to cheer the half latina up but no one was able to do anything. It had been four months since Tori last talked to Jade and Cat was tired of Tori's moping. They two best friends were now living together in a fancy garden apartment in Hollywood. It was Friday afternoon and Cat was going to take Tori out for some fun and relaxation for once since they were in UCLA.
"Cat, I don't want to go anywhere!" Tori exlaimed. "I don't care Tori. When was the last time you went out just for some Tori time? You never leave the studios unless you really have to! Come on. I promise we won't be going to parties tonight if you just let yourself have this time for you. It's Cat and Tori time! Exclaimed Cat excitedly. Tori reluctantly got up from the sofa and went to her room. "What do you want me to wear?" She yelled from out of her walk-in closet. "Something casual, comfortable, and pretty!" Yelled Cat back. Tori chuckled and put on some short jean shorts and a white buttoned up blouse tucked in with matching sandals. She left her hair down and only put light make up. She walked out of her closet and saw Cat already ready. She was wearing pretty much the same thing only that instead of a blouse, she had a red t-shirt. "Ready?" She asked. Tori nodded and walked out of her room and out of their apartment.
They walked down to the lobby and were greeted by their door man while exiting. "Good afternoon Ms. Vega and Valentine. How are you ladies on this fine day? It's good to see you finally going out Ms. Vega!" He said in a kind manner as he opened the door for them. "We're good Mike. Thatnks for asking! I had to drag out Tori here by force though. She never wants to go out but she deserves some time to herself don't you think?" Cat asked. "Ms. Valentine is right! It's a beautiful day today and I've seen you come in and out sometimes looking really exhausted. Have a good day though ladies!" Tori smiled at the young man and waved her hand. "Thanks Mike. You too!" She called out from behind Cat. The two walked to Cat's car and got in. "So, where are we going?" Tori asked. Cat only smiled and shrugged. "I can't tell you. It's a surprise. Oh and don't even think about pulling your wallet out at all today! Unless they card you or something! But everything is on me today! Haha! Isn't that awesome?!" Cat said in her usual chipper tone. Tori simply sighed but had a small smile on her face. They drove around the streets of Hollywood until they reached a spa center. "Are you serious Cat?" Tori asks surprised and secretly excited. Cat gives her an eager nod and both hop out the car.
They go inside and are greeted by the desk attendant. Apparently, Cat had this planned already because they had reservations already for the whole service. The rest of the afternoon was spent in pure relaxation and for once in the past few months, Tori actually enjoyed herself. It wasn't until evening until the two girls left the spa and went to go eat.
Again, Tori had a good time and Cat felt accomplished for finally cheering and distracting her best friend. It was close to midnight when the girls had finally gotten back home. Cat went to take a quick shower before going to bed while Tori went to her room. She sighed and walked to her closet and went to the end of it and pushed aside some clothes, where a hidden cabinet lay. She unlocked it and pulled a few pictures and a few items out and read them. The pictures were all of them while the items were gifts from Jade. Tori felt herself getting to cry when she saw a necklace with the date of their anniversary. Tomorrow would have been four years of being together and all those sad feelings were reaching Tori again. Pushing them aside, she put everything back when dhe heard the shower stop. She wiped the unshed tears and walked out of her room. Cat was going inside her room when she saw Tori walking towards her. "What's wrong Tori?" The half latina shuffled between her feet as she nervously asked, "Do you think I can stay with you tonight?" Cat raised her eyebrow but allowed the girl into her room after dressing into her pjs.
The two girls went to bed and had their backs facing each other. Tori finally turned around and whispered to Cat. "Cat?" "Yeah Tori?" Cat asked back and turned to face Tori. "Can we cuddle?" Cat gave her a warm smile before pulling the girl closer. Cat knew why Tori was feeling sad again. Being her best friend for a couple of years already, and she knew how to read the other girl well. She knew what tomorrow was. It killed her that Tori was still hurt by Jade but she understood. Throughout all these years, Cat had done her best to push her feelings aside and just be the friend Tori needed. She leaned towards Tori and kissed her forehead in comfort. "Thanks Cat... I'm sorry for still being sad... It's just... It hurts... She didn't hear me cry. When she told me she'd leave, I felt like I couldn't breathe. I just fell to the floor afterwards cause it was too much Cat. It's like she made my heart bleed... And she never gave me a reason and I can't hell but still wonder why... I don't want to hurt anymore Cat..." Tori finished with a whisper. Cat stayed quiet the whole time Tori spoke, and put all her attention to her. When Tori finished, Cat whispered back, "let me make you feel better Tori... Please... I, I can't take seeing you like this..."
Before Tori could say anything, Cat pulled her closer as if asking for permission. She answered by wrapping her arms around Cat's neck and pulling her in for a kiss. The kiss turned to get really heated and before they knew it, hands were roaming around their bodies. Both girls knew what they were doing was wrong. Not the act, but doing it under these circumstances, was wrong. Even though they knew they shouldn't have gone through with it, neither girl cared. Tori was using Cat to feel better, while Cat was taking advantage of Tori's state and letting her feelings break her resolution.
The next morning Cat woke up before Tori. She had the tan girl in her arms for a while until she felt her stir in her arms. Panicking a little, she carefully slid out of bed and put on an oversized shirt. She put on her slippers when Tori had finally woke up. "Hey..." She mumbled. Cat turned to look at her and gave her a soft smile. "Good morning..." She walked past her bed and out of her room but not before seeing Tori's face. She rushed to the bathroom and looked at her reflection in the mirror. She mess up. She knew she did. She saw the look on Tori's face right now. How lost, hurt she looked. After a few minutes of trying to gather the guts to face Tori again, she got out of the bathroom and went back in her room, where Tori was still laying, looking conflicted. Cat cleared her throat to snap Tori out of her thoughts and she did. "I'm sorry... I, zoned out..." "It's okay Tori... Look, about last night, I shouldn't have done that. I let my feelings get the best of me and-" "Wait, you have feelings for me?" Tori interrupted, now sitting up. "Y-yeah..." "Since when?!"
Cat shrunk a bit at Tori's tone but still spoke up. "Since you and Jade were together... I would never get between you two though! And I would have never taken advantage of you Tori! But it's just that it hurts to see you like this! I think I might love you Tori! I know it's wrong for me to tell you this now but I can't keep my feelings for you to myself anymore!" Tori slowly got out of bed and felt her heart shatter even more. "Oh god... Cat, this shouldn't have happened. I shouldn't have let that happen if I knew... I was only using you to feel better and I shouldn't have... God... I- I need to go... Somewhere-anywere! I just need some time to myself Cat. I'm so sorry." She said, pushing past the red head and quickly changing into some more decent clothes and running out of the apartment.
She ran. Ran until her legs were burning. She kept running, not paying attention to where she was headed. After a while of running, she realized she was near the music studio so she walked towards it. Once reaching the studio, she went in and locked herself in her office. Not knowing what else to do, she grabbed one of her notebooks on the desk and began writing lyrics, that is, until her phone beeped with an incoming text from Andre that simply said: Jade West is back.
So there it was! Not sure if I should continue. Unless people want me to. And I'm not talking about two or three people. If you want me to continue this, then I'll keep working on it. This chapter was named after the song called So Cold by Ben Cocks. I'll be using songs to write the chapters. So if you think you have a song that can work with the story or would like to be used as part of the story (cause there will be singing involved) feel free to share them! :) i will be picking some every now and then! So, if you guys want another chapter, follow and review! :)