If I could just fall
With you like this
"Mal… foy…" the boy beneath him gasped his name as he pounded inside the boy.
Your eyes never see me.
No matter how much I want you to see me
Only me
The boy screamed as Draco hit his sensitive spot.
But even so,
Even so, I want you
He slid out from the boy who collapsed onto the mattress, breathing heavily.
He ran his fingers to the smaller boy's hair.
If I hold you tighter, will I be able to keep your heart?
If I joined you deeper, would I be the one you always need?
……………………………………………….
"Harry…" Draco called to the boy that had been sleeping peacefully beside him. He softly caressed Harry's cheeks when he received no answer.
A soft hand took his hand away from the soft skin.
"What is it Malfoy?" Harry sleepily asked.
Malfoy.
Draco's heart clenched at the use of his last name. Harry never called him Draco, never even once had he said his first name.
Draco stops whatever he was going to say and just stared at Harry's face. They kept silent for a while until Harry lost his patient "Geez… what is it already!" he threw the sheets and got off of the bed.
Draco just kept silent and stared at Harry.
What I want to know is something I most certainly shouldn't ask.
He watched Harry as he picked up his clothes from the floor.
Something that might reopen your wounds.
He didn't tare his gaze from Harry as he got his shirt on.
Even so, there's something I want to know.
He put a hand over Harry's causing him to look up at him. A questioning look on his face.
"Malfoy?" he asked.
"I know that this isn't something I should be saying right now." Draco told him.
"What? What is it with you? If you have something to say, just…" Draco silenced him with a kiss.
A sweet ache runs through my body even when I just touch you.
"Malfoy…?"
What can I say to convey my feelings to you…?
He cupped Harry's chin, forcing him to look at his eyes.
"You know…" he began "I can think of you as mine, right?" his tone serious.
Harry turned his head as a blush appeared on his face "…Th, that's fine! I told you, you could! Before!"
"Yes" Draco held him closer, afraid that Harry might disappear if he didn't do so.
When I touch you I feel warm.
"…Then… What about me?" he whispered in the raven haired boy's ear.
I'm so warm I feel like I'm going to cry.
"…Huh… What do you mean?" Harry asked confused.
Draco was silent, Harry thought he was not going to answer. "Malfoy?"
"…Harry… Am I yours…?" Draco's voice was so soft Harry barely heard him.
When I touch you as you stiffen, all sounds disappeared.
"…What… Malfoy…?" Harry's eyes became wide at Draco's question.
An anxiety I can't express.
An explicable uneasiness.
"I've been thinking about it for long time" Draco said as he leaned down to kiss Harry.
Harry's eyes fluttered closed as Draco softly kissed him.
"You've accepted me… And I can touch you like this… But…" he stoped and gazed at Harry's eyes.
"It's strange isn't it?" he gave him a tiny smile.
What words can I say
"The more I have you, the more distant you feel."
So how can this hurt be conveyed to you?
"… Why are you saying stuff like this all of a sudden?" Harry muttered to him.
Draco pushed Harry onto the bed. Harry fall on his back. He stared at Draco "Why?" he asked him.
Draco shook his head lightly "It's not all of a sudden. I've been thinking about it for a long time."
Harry titled his head up to kiss Draco but he put a hand on Harry's lips, stopping him. "…No Harry. Even if we have sex, this still won't resolved, right?"
Harry clutched the sheets tightly at Draco's words.
"Please answer Harry"
I want your words…
"Am I…" Draco's words were cut off as Harry shoved him hard. He stood on his feet, face blank.
Harry seemed surprised at his own actions but before he could say anything, Draco pushed him back to the mattress. He pinned Harry's hand above his head.
"Mal… foy… It hurts…" he tried to wriggle free.
"ANSWER ME!" Draco screamed at him, his face turning scary.
Harry turned his head, avoiding the way Draco was looking at him. "… You… It has nothing to do with you!"
Draco seemed mad at Harry's comment and grabbed his chin, forcing him to look at him. "It does have something to do with me! It's about ME!" he hissed angrily at him.
Harry closed his eyes and waited to be hit or something. Draco softened at this and let go of his chin and his hand. He swooped Harry into his arms, holding him tightly.
"I understand you more than anyone else"
But…
"…What are you so afraid of…?"
Harry shoved him again and Draco fell off the bed this time. He ran out of the room and slammed the door behind him.
The room filled with silenced for a long time before Draco began to laugh "You do as you please, don't you, Harry…"
The laugh died and he brought his knees up to his chest and burrowed his face in his arms.
I never knew of such feelings before I met you…
If I had never met you, I wouldn't have had to know such pain
If I hadn't fallen for you…
I could have been spared this anguish…
Do I have to let you go?
Can I even do that?
I love you to much to letting you go…..
This pain I feel in my heart whenever I see your tears.
But you never let me ease your pain.
You never let me into your heart.
A Malfoy never cries, he had always been told that by his father. But he didn't care. He cried, for the one he loved had walked out on him, again
"Why is it so hard to let me loved you Harry…"
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