Desire roared like an endless fire buried deep within my very soul. I didn't understand, didn't understand why her wide eyes would stare at me as if death itself had appeared before her, like my very existence was the end of her beautiful natural world.
She lived inside her own head, surrounded by impenetrable cold stone walls. She would freeze up each time I got too close, it was like the cold winter wind was hidden inside, there for everyone to see and feel but impossible to catch and hold close.
The kitchen fire did little to warm your cold and distant emotions and I found myself wandering, as I often do, what I had done to deserve such an icy reception, did you blame me for taking you away from your family? Or for forcing this simple mundane life on you? Is the roof you sleep under simply a house that will never be home to you?
So many questions I feel compelled to ask, but each time I try I get lost in your eyes, in the deep unforgivable emotions that paint your sweet hazel eyes with black fear. The silent panic my presence brings is enough to get me to back away and I watch the familiar scene of you fleeing up the rotting wooden stairs.
My gaze slips away from the vast open space you left behind to the frozen window and I watch as a petal falters and slips to the cold ground, slowly dying, much like my hope. The forceful wind flings the broken door open and delicate flakes begin to descend to the floor.
I take my chance, grabbing a cloak and fleeing, intent on finding a few minutes peace with no worry or stress to suffocate me. The delicate flakes soon turn into a solid blanket of white, wrapping around me until there is only the crunch of ice and a vast eternity of nothing.
My feet continued to travel along the barren ground until it felt like ting shards of ice were trying to puncture my lungs, my breath coming in short puffs that were lost in the onslaught of deadly frozen water creating a tornado around my trembling form.
Memories of you attacked my mind, bringing my weak barriers of protection crashing down. My drained legs finally gave out and I collapsed just like the broken barriers. The ice seeping into every pore, freezing my bones, blood and eventually my heart.