19 October 2014 Draft 1 Literary G
Save a Life
You can choose to save me or you can walk away. The Earth will continue spinning, people will die and some will be born, some may mourn some may rejoice. You can save me or you can walk away; my life is in your hands now. The question lies not with how your choice will change the world, because honestly, it won't. The question to ask is how will it change you?
My life is both meaningful and ultimately meaningless, an amalgamation of contradictions. I thought, I believed that you dug this pit that you were the founder and author of my personal hell, that you were my devil incarnate, my own antichrist. I saw hands digging and building this hell, I thought that those hands belonged to you. Oh, how wrong I was. It's sad that I see this now, at the end when there is no way of filling the pit, that was constructed by my hands, no way of pulling myself over the cliff I'm hanging on. I am suspended here on the edge with no way of coming back. Only you can pull me over. The irony of this situation does not escape me; there you are, my devil now my only saviour, standing, deciding whether to save the man who wanted you dead; deciding whether to show me the mercy I, as a man of God, never did show you.
You've made me understand that.
I yearned for control; over you, over myself, over all. And now at the end do I realise that I have lost it all: I've lost you, myself and my soul. Through my need to have you I have commanded and condemned my soul to the fiery hell below. I alone renounced my Father, my Saviour and my Companion. I turned my back on them for something that I believed and felt was love: love for you. I took the step and there was no turning back.
There is no turning back for the both of us now. There is only a decision to be made, one that can only be made by you. Let me fall and my blood is on your hands but my soul in mine but if you save me you will be spotless, like an angel, and you will hold my soul.
"So what will it be, my dear Esmeralda? Will you save a Life?"