Hey guys, I know that I have been a total fail at updates and stuff, but college is killing me :'( Save me? So, I decided to repost this because I feel that I have a better grasp of where I am going with this, so, let the ride begin… AGAIN!
P.S: I am going to try to post small chapters, maybe 1000 words or even less, I hope you guys understand, but I will try to make this much more frequent.
From the diary of Bella Swan:
The first semester of my freshman year was great. I made friends, I had a good time, but I guess it was too good to be true. I realize how stupid I actually was. I trusted the wrong people, I gave myself entirely, never holding back, only to be stabbed repeatedly. Is there a way to remedy this? Can I actually rise above this? Only one way to find out.
Chapter 1
August
Being in a new environment is always intimidating, especially when you don't know a single soul. Have you ever felt so alone in a public place? Hearing all the noise, hearing the laughter and giggles, seeing people having a good time while slowly you are dying inside? Yeah, that's my life, poor old Isabella Swan's life.
As I was brooding into my own thoughts and cursing myself for picking a school that has a substantial amount of people, I suddenly bumped into some girl.
"I am so sorry, I should have paid better attention to where I was walking," I manage to speak out when the girl just looked at me intently. She fixed her glasses and gave me a smile.
"No worries, I was paying attention to my surroundings either, so we are both to blame." The mystery girl told me. "By the way, I'm Lauren, incoming freshman and scared to death, you?"
"Isabella, but I go by Bella." Better to keep it short and sweet, my father always said.
"So Bella, want to grab some lunch before we go on a campus tour? I swear, if I don't go to one, when the semester starts I am going to be late to every one of my classes!" The girl named Lauren said excitedly. Did I just make my first college friend?
"Let's do it! I saw a fantastic Mexican place not too far from campus where we can go," I offered and Lauren just smiled and put her arm through mine.
I think I just made my first college friend. I smiled internally and let Lauren pull me along with her.
September
It's been a month since the semester started, well, a bit less than that if you count the holidays, but still, a month into college! It has been interesting, the classes I am taking are specifically for freshman, so Lauren and I combined our schedules to have at least a few classes together.
Lauren was one of the first few friends I made in college. She was always with me and I with her. I even introduced her to one of my best friends from high school that happened to go to the same college as us. It was a great idea, and it seemed we were the three muskeeteers. College life was awesome.
Flashback
"Hey Lauren, I want you to meet someone special," I could hardly hold my excitement, I didn't know that Rosalie went to school here. It was such a surprise, but it was reassuring and comforting. I smiled and jumped in place while Lauren looked at me and laughed.
"From the looks of it, it must be a special someone," she wiggled her eyebrows in a goofy movement and pushed her black hair behind her ear. "Well come on, don't keep me waiting." She made a movement with her hand that meant to proceed. I instantly left her and looked for Rosalie in front of the cafeteria, just like we agreed.
"Hey Rose, come on! It's time for you to meet my first friend that I made in college." I grabbed Rosalie by the hand and pulled her towards where Lauren stood, captivated suddenly by her phone. She looked up and put her phone away with a smile in our direction.
"Lauren, this is Rosalie, one of my best friends from high school, she knows absolutely everything about me," I motioned with my hand and Rosalie let out a hearty laugh. I knew she thought I was exaggerating, but I really don't keep anything from my best friends.
"It's great to meet you Rosalie, Bell here wouldn't stop talking about what a coincidence it was that you ended up coming to our college." Lauren stated as she shook hands with Rose. She suddenly put herself in between us and put her arms around Rosalie and mine. Rosalie looked at me with a perfectly arched eyebrow and I just shrugged. I forgot to mention how touchy feely Lauren is.
"Coincidence indeed." Rosalie said and we all started walking towards what would later be our hang out spot on campus; the yard next to the administration building.
October
Lauren got mad at me for not mentioning my birthday was in September. I didn't think she was going to get that upset, until I realized we had the same birthday. We jokingly introduced ourselves as twins after finding out, always discussing wardrobe so we can actually look the part. It didn't really help that I had brown wavy hair, while she had black straight hair, but twins don't always look the same.
October wasn't so bad. Rosalie started spending more time with us, and we each had our own individual friends. Well I thought it was individual friends until Lauren one day told me to meet her in the cafeteria. I realized there were a whole group of people there, and I oddly felt jealous.
"Bell, I want to introduce to you the friends I made in biology lab," She gestured to the table with a flourish and a smile. I smiled back, just because it seemed the polite thing to do. I guess I stood there awkwardly because the next thing I know, I am feeling a sudden ache on my arm. Lauren pinched me and I introduced myself.
"Hi, I'm Bella." There, that wasn't so hard. Straight to the point. Everybody in the circular table looked at me strangely until Lauren spoke up and introduced everybody to me.
"Bell, this is Tanya," she said pointing to the blonde with blue eyes. Tanya wiggled her fingers and flipped her hair, well okay then. "This is Jessica," Lauren introduced the brown hair girl, and Jessica gave a genuine smile, I can see myself being friends with her. "And this is Leah," Lauren finished and Leah locked eyes with me and gave me a tight smile.
Suddenly, I had a feeling that everything Lauren and I had been through would be worth absolutely nothing if these girls, with the exception of Jessica, had anything to do with it.
November
Lauren and I started to hang out less and less and her absence made me think the worst things possible.
Was Lauren leaving me for her new group of friends?
Was Tanya and Leah going to give her a hard time if she wanted to hang out with me? It wouldn't be the first time it happened. My blood boiled when I thought to the first time she ditched me to hang out with them.
"Hey Lauren, wanna head to the movies? There is this awesome comedy that just came out and I am dying to see it!" I asked her and she looked nervous, I wonder why.
"Listen Bell, I would love to but-" She was interrupted by a voice that sounded oddly familiar.
"She won't hang out with you Bella, because she is going to hang out with Jessica, Leah and myself. We already made plans in bio lab and since it's too much of a short notice to invite you, well, let's just say that you can be there next time." If there is a next time, I thought.
"Well, uh, okay. Lauren call me when you get home?" I asked and she nodded. My stomach sunk when I came to the sudden realization that my once best friend in college abandoned me.
December
By far the worst month in the world for me. My father Charlie went to Atlanta, where he is originally from,because my grandfather was very sick. The doctor told my dad that he only had a few weeks left and to make it out as soon as possible. With that being said, my dad left me in New York with my cousin Emmett, and went to Atlanta.
A few weeks later, just as the doctor had said, my grandfather had passed away in his sleep. I was a zombie, I couldn't and wouldn't do anything for myself. Emmett stayed with me and I know he was hurt as well, but he put on a brave face.
I was walking home from class one day and I happened to see Rosalie and Emmett standing in front of my door, blocking the entrance. And blocking someone? They move slightly and I see a patch of dark, spiky hair. Alice?
"Isabella Marie Swan, you will stop this zombie appearance and act like a human being, or I swear by everything that I love, you will regret it." Rosalie said between clenched teeth and Alice was tugging on her arm. Rose looked at her and shook her head, "she needs to understand that these things happen and will continue happening, but life moves on." I glared at her, how dare she?
"How dare you talk to me like that? I lost my grandfather and you expect me to be all fine and dandy? Well guess what princess, it doesn't happen that way. I feel, I hurt, I-I-I," I hiccuped as the tears enveloped me, as well as Rose's arms and Alice's arms.
"Bella, I am only doing this because I love you, you have to understand, it's hard on me seeing you like this. You know how wary I am when someone I care about gets depressed, something bad always seems to happen." Rosalie has had bad experiences when someone is depressed, they always seemed to do something unintelligent.
I sob into the arms of my best friends and they cry as well, but they both try their best to console me. I feel one of them caressing my hair, while the other one pulls me inside. As I step in, I falter and all three of them, Alice, Emmett and Rosalie are there, preventing me from falling.
My only thought was that they really do love me. And suddenly, losing Lauren wasn't that even important in my mind.
Well guys, Broken by Choice, take 2. I am really going to try to update as much as possible, but please keep in mind that I have class and a bunch of stuff to do. I love you guys for sticking with me this long. See you guys soon!