1Title: My One Love

Rating: This chapter PG will go up to NC-17

Warnings: Angst ahead, I don't know why I have to torture my favorite characters...

Pairings: Shika/Neji (for now), one-sided Chouji/Shika & Lee/Sakura, pairings will change throughout

Disclaimer: I do not own Naruto.

"Speech"

'Thinking'

exaggeration

Part 1

Chouji smiled as Shikamaru lay on his back to look at the clouds.

"Hey Shika!" Shikamaru looked over to Chouji and smirked.

"Chouji" Chouji looked at his best friend and just knew something really good had happened. His lazy best friend would only smirk if he was extremely happy. Chouji couldn't help as his heart seemed to melt. It had been so long since he started feeling like this for his best friend. He loved him so much it hurt sometimes.

"Ok so what happened, I know you too well to know that you just naturally feel motivated enough to greet me and smile!." Shikamaru smiled softly and looked back up to the sky.

"I'm in love Chouji, can you imagine?" Chouji's smile dropped as his heart felt like it was twisting into knots.

"Really?" Chouji sat next to his best friend. It had felt as if a bulldozer had run over his heart, then decided it wasn't flat enough and backtracked just to do it again. So, Sikamaru was in love and apparently very much so to be smiling like that. Chouji took a deep breath and smiled, even though his lips wobbled lightly. Lucky for him Shikamaru was to busy watching the clouds.

"Yes, I noticed it yesterday, I don't know how I could have missed it, guess I was just being dumb hm?" Shikamaru grinned at his own joke. Chouji on the other hand was trying to get past the tearing feeling in his heart. How is it that someone he loved for so many years has finally fallen in love and it's someone other than him. Of course Chouji had guessed this would happen, why would Shika ever look at him as a potential lover when there were so many other beautiful people in Konoha. Shikamaru turned to Chouji and blinked, his smile falling from his lips. "Chouji?" Chouji looked at Shikamaru and smiled, and oh, what a fake smile it was. "C'mon Chouji, what is it?" Chouji shook his head and took a deep breath, he couldn't let Shika know how he felt, if he did, he knew Shika would only feel bad and that wasn't right. Shikamaru deserved to be happy plus Chouji didn't want pity not from Shikamaru, never from him...

"I'm great, just kind of surprised I guess. So who's the lucky person?" Shikamaru looked skeptical but didn't question it. He smiled slightly as he looked back at the clouds.

"Neji." Chouji felt the weight on his chest threaten to crush him as he thought of the Hyuuga. Of course it would be Neji, he was beautiful, and once you got past the total asshole shell he surrounded himself in, then yes of course Neji would be a great choice. Chouji held back his tears, he just kept promising he could cry later when he was alone.

"So...did you tell him?" Shikamaru turned and looked at his best friend. He nodded.

"Told him it was to troublesome to keep the secret. He agreed and kissed me." Chouji nodded, why was he torturing himself with finding out the details? But as he looked at the still smiling Shikamaru, he knew he couldn't stop asking.

"So you two are together now?" Shikamaru nodded as he stretched out.

"Yeah we decided to try the whole dating thing. You're alright with this right? I know Neji wasn't always the nicest person to you." Chouji looked at Shikamaru and swallowed the lump in his throat. 'Of course it's not alright I'm in love with you! Please love me instead, I'll do anything for you Shikamaru!'

"Are you happy?" Shikamaru sat up and looked over at Chouji who was looking at his hands. Shikamaru sighed and took one of Chouji's hands in his own.

"What's wrong Chouji, and don't say nothing, because I know you too well." Chouji blinked trying to block the tears from falling. He had to come up with a lie, something that Shikamaru would believe.

"I-I'm afraid that I'll loose you..." Shikamaru looked at his best friend with wide eyes. "It's just that...You've been with me since that day we played ninja's, I don't want our ...friendship to die..." Chouji closed his eyes and a tear struggled it's way through his closed eyelids. So maybe it wasn't a lie, but it wasn't the whole truth and as long as Shika didn't know of his love, everything would be ok...well it would be ok for Shika, and that's all that mattered.

"Chouji you idiot." Shikamaru leaned in and hugged the bigger man to his chest. "I could never, ever leave you. I'll always be your friend." Chouji nodded as a few more tears escaped and he wrapped his arms around his slim friend. Yeah, he'd always be there for Chouji, he would always be his friend. That's all Chouji would ever be...

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Chouji walked quickly to his destination. There was one person he knew he could talk to and while it hurt him to actually have to do this, he didn't know who else to turn to.

He had cried when he left Shikamaru that day three weeks ago. He had been living with his secret and he had dealt with Shikamaru and Neji's affection. Neji hadn't said much to Chouji in that time but there was still slight friction from childhood. Shikamaru if he noticed decided not to ask. The time with Shikamaru hurt just as much as when they were separated. He needed to know how to get over this, he needed help. That is why he came here.

Lee was kicking his stump with a certain precision that comes from years of practice. Chouji felt horrible as he walked up to his friend.

"Hello Lee." Lee turned around and smiled.

"Oh hello Chouji, how can I help you on this wonderful day?" Chouji swallowed the tears that threatened once again.

"I-I need some advice Lee, and it's...it's horrible to ask but I need help..." Lee frowned at his friend then smiled and saluted.

"I am here to help you Chouji! Ask away!" Chouji frowned then sat down next to the beaten stump. Lee looked at him and frowned sitting next to him. "Chouji?" Chouji felt like the worst person in the world as the words fell from his lips.

"I know that Sakura...well she always turned you down and...Lee I'm sorry but you were the only one...how do you get over the people you love when they couldn't possibly love you in return." Chouji looked at Lee and felt worse then he had in his whole life. Lee's whole demeanor had changed, he now looked as depressed as Chouji felt. "Oh Lee I'm so sorry I didn't mean it like that, it's just Shikamaru...I need to get over him..." Lee shook his head looking oddly serious.

"No it's ok Chouji, you're right, I am the only person who has been rejected, Naruto was at one time but Hinata-sama always loved him, everyone else always had someone they admired and they were usually admired in return or just didn't care. You're right, I've been turned down more then being approached..." Lee shook his head slightly. "So Shikamaru?" Chouji nodded then looked at his hands. "Neji said he and Shika...oh... how long Chouji?" Chouji shook his head.

"Years now, and I know he'll never love me, I know it with every fibre of my being, but I can't help but hope that one day he'll love me..." Lee smiled sympathetically at the bigger man.

"I don't think that you'll stop hoping for a long time Chouji. I think what happens is you move on but your first love will always be with you in some way. You and Shikamaru have been friends for so long, I don't think you'll stop being friends but you'll try to pull away for a while. Then once you heal slightly and the dream of the two of you shrinks to a little bubble you can push to the back of your mind, then you two can be closer than ever without hurting so much. Well that's what Gai-Sensei told me, so I know it is right!" Chouji looked at Lee and sighed.

"Do you really believe that? Do you really think that life will get better? I keep feeling that this will never change. I'll fall in love with someone else years from now after I get over Shika and then the same thing will happen, because I will always finish last." When Chouji looked up he saw that Lee was crying, not the dramatic river of tears, but real tears.

"I never thought that another person felt the same way I did. I try to be a good person but that never seems to matter, Sakura will always love Sasuke, and I'll always respect that, but it hurts to love and not be loved in return. Especially if it is because no one will look past the outside." Chouji shifted slightly and threw an arm over Lee's shoulders.

"I know how you feel Lee, but this time it is not just my looks. Shikamaru will never love me because I'm me, and that's even worse..." Lee nodded as he and Chouji tried to calm down. Chouji felt even worse then when he got there, now he gave Lee a reason to cry too. Chouji sighed as Lee's tears stopped. "Maybe we should go out Lee." Lee looked at Chouji and laughed softly. Chouji smiled as he squeezed Lee's shoulders slightly. "Maybe one day we'll both be able to find someone who will love us, then we can rub it in everyone's face." Lee smiled up at Chouji and nodded even though both of them knew it to be a lie. Both boys got comfortable against the stump, they new they wouldn't be moving for a while.

Neither boy happened to see someone spying on them with sad eyes. Why did good people, with the biggest hearts get thrown away so quickly. With a nod of their head, they walked away from the two sad boys. 'I'll help you both, I promise.'

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TBC...

A/N: ok so this won't be a Chouji/Lee though I'm not against the idea. Oh and I absolutely adore Chouji and Lee to pieces so things will get better. V

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