I hated him. I wanted him dead. But I loved so much.
I kicked myself for thinking the thoughts that I thought about him.
I cried but rarely let people see me do it.
I was just a teen with my family gone.
I was on my own.
I was hoping for just on more day with my brother. One more fun day.
Guess I forgot that I was staying at his 'secret' house for the night.
"Come on little brother. Wake up." My brother's voice echoed in my ears.
My eyes opened and my head snapped up. My forehead smacked right against Itachi's pointer and middle finger.
"Son of a bitch. What was that for?"
"Watch your mouth Otouto."
"I can't. It's under my nose. And my forehead hurts."
"I didn't think you would wake up as fast as you did. Sorry."
"No you're not. You never are."
Itachi walked away. "If mom ever hears you swear like that. Well lets just say its not gonna be pretty."
"Don't ever play that card on me. Unlike you, I actually miss mom."
"I miss her too."
"You were the one who killed her! Why would you care?" my eyes swelled with tears but I fought them back.
"Oh is my Otouto gonna cry now. How sad." He walked over to me and held me in his arms.
I pushed him away. "Get off me." I got up and walked over to the window. My tears silently poured out of my eyes. "I don't know how you can make fun of me Nii-san."
"Im truly sorry Otouto."
"I wish I could believe that." I pushed passed him.
He grabbed my wrist. "Wait Otouto."
"Whataya want from me!" I yelled, struggling to break his grip. "I believed in you. Believed that you were different. Believe that you loved me. I once loved you. I loved your red eyes. Loved the way you protected me from all dangers. I once had a perfect life. You stole that from me. You murdered them. You said that you loved me. That you would never harm me. But you broke my heart. Happiness is just a word to me."
"I would take away all of the pain if I could."
"You liar."
"Let's go to The point."
I looked at him as if I didn't know what in the hell he was talking about. "You mean... you wanna spend a day with me…? In public? Are you on crack? Do you know what people will say when they see me with you? What will happen to my reputation?"
"Are you a girl?"
"No."
"You're acting like one."
"Im not the one who's wearing the 'weapons of ASS destruction' shirt that you made after…" I trailed off.
"Good point. But im not the one who's going to be wearing a skirt."
"What are you talking about?"
He smiled. "You'll see."
"Whatever you're planning…-"
"Shut the fuck up Sasuke."
I went quiet. "Joy in death. With tears in blood."
"What are you babbling about now Sasuke?"
"Nothing."
Itachi got up and walked into his room.
He walked back out with a black skirt and a black shirt. "I hope this will do."
I grabbed it and walked into the bathroom.
I slipped on the black skirt and black shirt. I ran out of the bathroom and headed to my room. I had to add my own touch to it. Snooping through my dresser I pulled out a pair of black knee-hi socks.
"One more thing." I whispered to myself.
I grabbed one of my black shirts that no longer fit me, and cut it up. At that moment I thanked myself for having so called friends that just happened to be girls.
I sewed the shirt to make a pair of black arm warmers.
I walked out of my room. "How do I look?"
"Change the voice and leave off the headband and you'll be good."
"I-I'll try." I took off my headband. In doing so my neko ears popped up.
"I forgot about that. But it makes you look more girly so it's all good."
I glared at him. "Ass fucker."
"You know it."
"What are looking at?"
"Nothing." He laughed.
I gasped. "Damnit I'll kill you!"
"Dude its no big deal if I have baby pictures of you. You were just so cute."
I looked away. "Be my bad boi. Be my man. Be my weekend lover but don't be my friend. You can be my bad boi. But understand that I don't need you in my life again. Won't you be my bad boi? Be my man. Be my weekend lover but don't be my friend. You can be my bad boi. But understand that I don't need you again. No I don't need you again."
He just smiled. "I think you have the girly voice down. Do another one from her."
I nodded. "I need a miracle I wanna be your girl. Give me a chance to see that you are made for me. I need a miracle please let me be your girl. One day you'll see it can happen to me. I need a miracle I wanna be your girl. Give me a chance to see that you are made for me. I need a miracle please let me be your girl. One day you'll see it can happen to me. It can happen to me."
He smiled. "Never knew you knew her songs. Cascada is like…" he paused, seeing that he was getting too excited. "She's cool."
"One more night I wanna be with you. Where I wanna hold you tight it feels so right tonight. Don't leave it up to you. And I think the time is right to stop the fight. One more I wanna be with you where I wanna hold you tight it feels so right tonight. Don't leave it up to you. And I think the time is right to stop the fight."
"Okay I get it. She's an amazing chick and you want me to admit it to myself."
"Good boi." I said in a female voice.
"Im not sure how you can do that so well."
"Well when you know a hyperactive dobe…-"
"Whoa there. I don't need to know about your sex life."
"Hn…no. I have no sex life with him. He's just someone I happen to know that can use a sexy jutsu."
"That doesn't explain anything though."
"Do you have to make everything difficult?"
"why yes. Yes I do."
"you know you make me wanna cut myself sometimes."
"Haha I made you emo."
I looked at the ground. "Yes." I really didn't wanna cry cuz my mascara would run. Didn't care much about the eye liner cuz it was water proof.
"Come on my little angel. Don't cry."
"Im not going to." I walked away from him.
He grabbed my wrist and pulled me close to him.
I stared into his eyes, which was always a bad thing to do.
"Itachi…no…I…" I paused and kissed him.
He pulled away leaving me feeling like a total whore.
I sighed and walked out the door.
"what's wrong crazy angel?" Itachi asked me.
I looked at him. "So my name is Angel?"
He nodded. "It so totally fits you." He laughed in sarcasm.
My ears flattened against my head. "can we just go!"
"Sure thing."