Jade Pov
Why did I date a guy again? Oh yeah because dating chicks is weird. Even if they are cuter, and hotter, and sexier. My appearance just wouldn't match me liking a girl, even one as such as my secret crush. Her beautiful brown hair, deep brown eyes, and soft skin that makes me melt every time she touches mine. What makes it the worst is that she is the girl I'm supposed to hate more than any other.
I had even stolen my coffee back from Trina so I could taste Tori's lips once. It was when I told her it was from the garbage. Trina only got one sip, and luckily it hadn't stained where Tori's lips had been. She tasted like sweet strawberries. Something is wrong with me, but I really don't care.
I have decided to break things off with Beck. I knew he wouldn't like it, but I just couldn't stand being with someone I don't love anymore. Even if I can't be with my real love, at least I wouldn't be pretending to love someone who I only think of as a good friend. It really made me sick everytime we kissed, but it was an image, and I am one hell of an actress.
I drove straight to Beck's RV, hoping he wouldn't take it the too badly. I took a deep breath, stepped out of my car, and approached the door of his RV. I heard some noise coming from inside, and i remembered Andre was hanging out with Beck tonight to right a new song since Tori was out of town, and he needed a male vocal anyway. It didn't change anything though. I knocked on the door loudly like always.
Andre came to the door.
"Hey Jade what's-"
"Where is Beck?" I interrupted him.
"He's inside." He showed me in where I saw Beck siting on his bed.
"Jade? What are you doing here? Not that I'm not happy to see you, but you knew we were working tonight." He told me.
"Beck we're done." I said and left, leaving them both speechless.
Beck Pov
"We both heard that right?" I asked Andre.
"You mean Jade dropping you like a rock?" He asked. I nodded. "Then yes."
"It's about time then." I told him. He looked at me like I was nuts.
"Beck, are you feeling okay, or did you not understand Jade broke up with you so fast, and for no given reason?" He asked. He was so clueless.
"You really don't know do you?" I asked.
"Know what?" He asked back cautiously.
"Jade has never actually been in love with me." I answered.
"Say what now?" he asked confused.
"Jade has had her eye on someone else since they first came to the school. Besides, she doesn't like guys, she was just with me for appearances." I told him. He got really confused.
"But-And you- but she-and- never mind." He said and we dropped the subject. I knew the whole time Jade liked Tori. She was a great actress, I'm just that good. I also knew she liked girls from the way she eyed girls she thought were eyeing me. It looked angry, unless you knew where to look. She was really checking them out.
That was until Tori came to the school. Anyone who knew anything, which other than myself did not include teenagers, could see that Jade had become infatuated with the girl immediately. The reason she had been so mad when Tori kissed me was because she felt betrayed. By Tori, not me.
She had always liked her, but she knew that lesbian and gay people weren't accepteed much at the Arts. It had been made clear when Sinjin made a confession to some dude, and had been mocked so bad, he had been forced to leave the Arts. That had really sucked, especially considering our group had been the only one not to mock him.
It had sucked, but that's how the school was. It had been a shame though, since he was the schools best tech crew member, and the guy you went to when you needed anything. I can only imagine that if they did that to a nobody likee Sinjin, what they would do to one of the most popular kids in school like Jade. Still, I was proud she had stopped trying to act like she loved me.
Tori Pov
Andre just sent me a text saying Jade broke up with Beck all of a sudden. I just helped them get back together. Again. Why would she suddenly break up with him again? She loved him, and she wouldn't break up without a reason right? I mean, Jade always had a reason. Whether or not it was a good reason, it was still a reason.
"Robbie you got Andre's text?" I asked him. He was staying over for the night since his place was being fumigated, and his parents had decided not to take him with them for their vacation.
"Yup, Jade breaking up with Beck isn't new though." He answered. "Queen B is always in a mood, so why are you so worried?" Rex added in.
"I just got another text from Andre saying Beck saw this coming, like he expected it to happen a while ago." I told him as I read the second text.
"Your right, We just got the same text. Well, I guess he knew it wouldn't last forever. I ust thought he would be the one to cut it off finally, not Jade." Robbie answered. He was right. I always thought Beck would end it, not Jade. Still, from the text, it sounded like Beck expected this for a while, not just recently.
The next day, we all met at lunch except Jade.
"Anyone seen Jade?" I asked.
"She's crying in the janitor's closet." Beck answer nonchalontly like it was normal. I rushed there, hoping she wasn't crying over her break up.
I found here crying her eyes out, cutting the hell out of a trash can with her favorite scissors.
"Jade are you alright?" I asked.
"No." She said weakly as she cut the can completely half with one final slice of the scissors.
"If you want Beck so bad, why did you break up with him so suddenly?" I asked.
"I don't want him back. I want... I... want..." she tried to say something, but just continuedd crying even worse than before. I tried to embrace her, but she ran off before I could even touch her, like my touch would make things even worse. I stared in amazement. She didn't want him back, but was still crying her eyes out? This was getting strange.
Beck Pov
"Come on Beck, tell us. Why'd she break up with ya for good this time?" Andre asked. He was so clueless. can't blame him.
"I told you, she has had her eye on someone since they came to the school. Besides, she was just with me for stature. It was never love. She's just that good of an actress." I told him. The others were listening intently as well. Cat wasn't only because she knew since Jade had confessed to her the night Tori came to the school.
"Well who is it?" Robbie asked. "Yeah, who'd Queen B dumped a high ranked man like yourself for?" Rex added.
"Not allowed to say. I figured it out immediately, but she doesn't know I know. Besides, she'll tell you whether she wants to or not." I answered.
"Great, I just found Jade, but i think I made it worse." Tori said coming back. Of course she did. Everytime Jade sees Tori now, she'll feel worse and worse until she explodes.
"Maybe you should try and get her to open up by inviting her over. You are the only one she goes to for help." Robbie told her. He had no idea.
"I guess you're right." Tori said. We all got up and headed to our next classes.
After school, I headed over with Cat to the stage room. We needed to talk about how to approach this. Now that it was happening, we needed to be sure about our plans.
"So how we gonna do this?" Cat asked sternly. Around just me, Cat acts like her real self, the girl trained and raised by her still active FBI mother, CIA father, and her actually older NCIS brother. She was actually trained in multiple martial arts, torture methods, and was the reason she was an incredible actress, being taught to take on a different personality at the drop of a hat.
"I think we should convince Jade to admit her feelings, yet keep it a secret until after school. We don't want a repeat of the Sinjin incident." I told her.
"Maybe, but we need to be subtle. If she's going to confess, she needs to do it alone, and think noone knows other than us. We are going to have to inform her of your knowing of course." Cat told me.
"Of course." We formulated a plan, agreed on the time span, about three monthes so it would end before Jade went over the deep end, and headed out for phase one. The friendship
Cat would head to see them and pretend to act like she was helping consol Jade. She didn't have any idea of our plan, and would think Cat was just trying to help.
Cat Pov
I arrived at Tori's house to find Jade walking in the door. I rushed over to meet her.
"Hey Jade. You okay?" I asked giving my best acting job on. She didn't know the real me, and thought when she confided in me, she was just talking to someone who would either not understand, or just forget. When Beck told me he knew, I figured he would have to know the real me if we were ever going to get jade with someone she actually liked.
"Hi Cat. (sniff) What are you doing here?" She asked through sobs.
"Just trying to help my best friend is all. Here try a smoothie. I made your favorite, coffee flavored." I told her handing her the dark brown smoothie. She perked up a little, since it wuld help calm her down. Jade's funny that way. Caffeine actually calms her instead of hyping her up.
"Okay." she answered between sips. "Say how'd ya make this?"
"With the world's fastest smoothie maker that I got from..." I paused from her star." from the store at the mall." she seemed to accept that. I had gotten the waterworks to stop, and then Tori came back to the doorway.
"Hey guys." she said, and the waterworks continued. "Come on Jade, you'll feel better inside." she said as she guided us both inside. It was pretty cold. We followed her inside.
She had the tv on to a horror movie marathon, comfort food layed out all over, and the lights turned off. Good job Tori, I really was quite impressed. We all sat down on the couch, and started diving in to the assortment of candy, soda, popcorn types, and chips and dip lying on the table. We must have eaten twice each of our own weights each by the end of the night.
"So Jade, you wanna talk about it?" Tori asked. Bad move, but she didn't know.
"I left him because I never loved him. (Sniff) I do love someone else, but I don't wanna talk about it." She answered. Okay this was moving faster than expected.
"It's alright Jade. Cat and I will be here when you're ready to talk. Just want you to always know that." Tori commented. That comment will either go really well, or end with Jade crying harder.
"You don't know how much that means to me Vega, you really don't. Thank you. (Sniff)" Jade answred. Score for Jori.
"So what's movie's next?" I asked hoping to change the subject before it went sour.
"Um something called Saw VI." Tori answered. SO far they had been just b grade flicks, but that was a serious movie. I knew Tori was going to freak, but hopefully she would control herself for Jade's sake.
"I've never seen past V, so this should be nice." Jade said. As the movie began, I could tell immediately that Tori was horrified, but she was staying strong for Jade thankfully. At one point though, she noticeably yelped, and Jade gave looked of pure worry for a moment. Tori didn't seem to notice, to busy trying to stay strong for Jade and just watch the movie.
During one particularly scary scene though, she lost it. She fell into Jade's, trying to hide. I played like I didn't notice, but I watched as Jade began to stroke tori's hair comfortingly. I knew she had always wanted to do that, just never got the chance. The brunnete cowarded fully into the black haired girl as the sound of a person being ripped open made her jump. She was now fully in Jade's arms and held on for dear life. jade began to perk up alot now, holding the girl in a fashion akin to both maternal and loving embraces. She had always felt the one who ccould keep Tori from her fears, and now she could prove it.
When the movie finished, Tori came to her senses, but still failed to notice Jade Stroking her hair. The girl was smart, but wasn't to observant.
"I'm sorry Jade. We were here to comfort you, not me." she told her, letting go of Jade.
"It's alright. It got me out of my funk to see you do scared. Makes me feel better to see someone more terrified than me." Jade told her.
"So you guys wanna go ta bed now, or watch another movie?" I asked.
Jade Pov
She was so warm to touch. I had always known that from those hugs she was always trying to give me. I wouldn't have fought them so much, if I wasn't afraid I would lose control and kiss her. I lusted for those sweet strawberry lips so much, that it almost hurt. Hell, it did hurt. Very much. Espescially with her in my arms now, but I knew this would be the most I could ever hope for, since she would take any confession of love as either a joke, or a setup to get her driven out of school by mockery.
I would enjoy each moment that I got to hold her, letting her think I was doing it to enjoy her fear, when I was really just enjoying her company. Her skin was so soft, yet for such a small girl, she was amazingly strong. I felt like she was slowly crushing me, and I would enjoy every second of it.
Beck had always been gentle, but he was a guy and had moments where even a guy like him lost control. I was still a virgin, not willing to take that step to prove it, but had shared some pretty intimate moments. If we had had sex, I know I would have yelled Tori's name at one point or another, so I really didn't feel like taking that risk anyway, even if I had wanted it, which I never did. He had never really pushed the matter anyway.
The movie ended with Tori in tears, just from the sounds of the movie since she was face deep in my chest. I could feel her tears staining my shirt, and prayed they would go deep enough to go through my thin bra. I held her little tighter, and released as she pulled away as the credits finished rolling. It was two in the morning. We didn't have school, and since noone protested, I put on Saw IV, which led to her falling back into my chest within four minutes.
I would treasure these moments. The moments that I had where I was so close to my dream. A dream that would never come true because of my own actions. The actions that made this girl believe I hated her. The one who thought I hated them actually had my greatest love. He voice had been the reason for my captivation at first, which was followed by her bubbly attitude, and great looks. It took one day for mee to fall for her. Just one day for me to feel an emotion I had previously been blind to. Sure I had felt lust before, but never actual love.
I knew she threw herself at me because Cat was not one you ran to when in fear. She was a bit of a coward when it came to confrontations, but when it came to horror movies, she was always surprisingly calm. I was also a figure of power and bravery in her mind. I was one to run to when you were afraid, usually because I would help you, or more likely slap the fear out of you. It made me feel good to know I was the one she felt safest near, even if it was just because I was strong and fearless in her eyes, not because I was someone she cared for more than a friend.
I felt her go slump in my arms at one point. I looked down to see her comfortably asleep in my arms. She was even more beautiful asleep than awake. She looked so innocent, and she truly was. She had no idea of the evils that exist in this world. My experience had expanded far away than anyone other than Cat knew. I had traveled far and wide since my adopted parents had taken me in. My 'father' who had visited Hollywood Arts was actually a relative of my adopted parents who thought it would be funny to go along with my plan. My real parents have been dead for years. I just never told anyone, not even Beck. He had never actually visiteed my house, so he wouldn't know any better.
My real parents had been killed in an unsolved murder right infront of me when I was four, which is the reason for all the dark clothing, and withheld nature. Cat was easy to talk to mainly because she would either not understand anything, or would simply be someone to talk to while she fantasized. She was sweet, and my best friend, but she was a real airhead. I knew she was one of the few innocents in this world along with the rest of our group. Proof of that had been when they had been the only ones not to mock Sinjin when that all happened. I hadn't because I knew exactly how he had felt, caught in feelings that seemed impossible to control, towards someone who would never accept you.
I looked over to find Cat unconscious as well. I moved to grab the remote, careful not to let Tori fall out of my arms, and turned off the tv. I placed Tori on the couch, ran over and grabbed two blankets. One for Cat, and one for me and Tori. I layed the first over Cat, and heard as she purred with joy subconsciously. I picked Tori back into my arms, layed the balket over us, and layed down with her still in my arms on the wide couch. It had been a long few days. She would need her rest.
Cat Pov
The next morning, I found Jade cuttled up with Tori under a thick, wool, had made blanket. I had a nice thick blanket on myself. Jade had fallen asleep last, and had gotten them for us. I looked, knowing that if Beck and my plan went right, in three monthes, those two would be doing that every night. I hope.
I got up, flew over to the kitchen, and started making breakfast for us. Jade loved coffee, eggs, and bacon, and Tori liked pancakes, so I got to work making them each a nice breakfast. The smell of fresh panccakes woke Tori up quickly, and she seemed ignorant of the girl she had been huddled up with last night as she walked over to the counter separating the kitchen and the living room.
"Cat, how did you learn to cook?" she asked dreamily.
"From my mom. She can cook anything." I told her.
It was completely true. She had learned how to cook everything from years of traveling and exploring. She had cooked everything from rats, to sheep, to bugs, even a dead rattle snake once. As long as you cut out the right things, it's easy. You can actually eat the venom glands. venom won't kill you unless it gets in the blood stream, so you could drink a whole vial of rattle snake venom, and feel fine.
"How many ccan ya make Cat?" she asked still half asleep.
"As many as you want. Just need to get Jade's... Where's Jade's coffee?" I asked. I turned to find Jade holding a cup in her hand and sipping slowly. I sighed, and continuedd cooking. After a few more minutes, I gave them botht their breakfasts, grabbed some cereal and we all enjoyed a nice breakfast.
"So do you feel any better Jade?" Tori asked.
"Very, espescially after those Saw movies." She answered, although she meant it in a different way than I knew Tori thought.
"Cool so I guess it worked out alright." Tori added.
"Great, now let's eenjoy our breakfast. In silence." Jade continued. At first, I thought she was being rude. Then we both noticed what she was motioning to with her head. Trina had woken up, and was coming down the stairs. If she didn't hear us, she wouldn't bother us since she had a sinus infection, and couldn't smell and her vision was blurred. I saw her sit down on the couch, grabbed both blankets, and fell back asleep. She seemed really sick.
I got up and pushed the already falling blankets tighter to her. She purred abit, and fell into a deeper sleep. I may have been raised to be cold and unforgiving to mean people like Trina, but when you're sick, you get free pass in my book. Espescially considering she looked extremely pale and weak. She was a rude, mean, manipulative bitch most of the time, and when she was sick, she was usually even worse. However, since she had gotten like this, she had gone quite silent, and very simple in anything she did actually ask for.
I moved back to the dining room to see Tori looking worriedly at Trina, and Jade undressing Tori with her eyes again. I knew it was love, very strong love that she felt for Tori, but there was definitely lust in there too. I sat back down to continue my cereal. I watched as Tori turned back, Jade looked away slowly like she had been surveying the room. Tori obviously didn't notice a thing, and turned back to her last pancake.
Phase one had gone quite well. It was to simply get Jade out of her funk, and get her and Tori to be closer. I had planned two weeks for that, but apparently it had happened much faster than planned. Beck would be happy to see the plan going much better than anticipated. I hoped the rest of the plan went as smoothly.