Three Days Grace song lyrics, everything but the theory is disclaimed.
Alec gasps for breath, his vision dotted with black and swirls of his life. He can barely breathe with the slashes across his chest, damn vampire, and the lost blood she consumed. He can't move, but he can feel a burning throughout his entire body, the effect numbed as moments of his life play across his mind, allowing him to see two worlds at once. He can see Magnus, he can see himself with Magnus, happy.
They're at the park, in New York, they're kissing...
Did I fall asleep?
Is this all a dream?
Wake me up, I'm living a nightmare
Alec's breath comes in harsher and harsher pants, he's not getting the oxygen he needs… He wants Magnus to be here with him.
He doesn't want to be alone as he dies, but he's burned that bridge… He wants Magnus, so, so much.
He wants them to be lost in each other again, like they were in Paris…
I will not die, I'll wait here for you
I feel alive,when you're beside me
He wants them to be together, he doesn't want to die… He wants Magnus, but this is his fault, Magnus isn't coming for him… He's not coming for him.
Alec's going to die in the subway tunnels of New York, the damp ground making his back void of heat as his skin is soaked. He can barely see through the haze of his own blood, the rushing noise in his ears that makes it so he can just barely hear the steady drip of water. God, he needs Magnus here, to calm him down, to distract him like he always does.
I will not die, I'll wait here for you
In my time of dying
But he's not going to be able to wait for him…
With what strength Alec has left, he writes what he could call his final wish in his own spilt blood.
Smile, don't cry, I lov….
Blood smears across the end of it as Alec's limbs go limp and the erratic breathing stops.
It's later, a week, when they find Alec's body. The rats are eating him, but the note is still intact. Those are his last words, and maybe they'll become just a little famous.