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Author's Note: First off let me say - I'm alive. I have a few things going on in my life and it's all out of balence but I've managed to get some time to write this TWO PART fic. It is inspired by rain1940's picture 'We Belong Together' at DeviantArt - http: /rain1940. deviantart. com/#/d3hhpth - Just remember to take out the spaces.
So yes, like I said, it's a part two fic, so the next part will probably be up by next week.
And if you're wondering about my other stories, they will be updated but please be patcient. Good things come to those who wait. :)
Well, I hope you enjoy part 1 and don't forget to leave a review.
Reeves3.
We Belong Together: Part 1
The world outside Bonnie's bedroom window almost seemed frozen if it wasn't for the breeze swaying the trees, detaching leaves to get caught up in the swirl before landing in a garden or on the road. Clouds lazily floated by in the blue sky and the sun dipped in and out of them, casting shadows upon the Earth. There was barely a sound, no cars rushing up and down the roads, no rumble of motorbikes, and no voices to be heard. It was just nature's music.
Standing on the windowsill in the young girl's bedroom was a solitary cowgirl. Jessie gazed with sad green eyes at the still world. On gorgeous days like this she would usually be trying to sneak out into the back garden to bask in the sun, breathe in the fresh air, roll around in the grass, and avoid being spotted by Woody at all costs, but not today. Her thoughts were jumbled, confused and miserable. The last time she felt as low as this was forty two years ago when Emily put her in the charity box and left her life forever.
Jessie smiled sadly to her reflection in the window as she recalled back to those fond memories of herself and her first owner all those years ago. Like any child growing up, there was always a favourite toy to hold at night, someone to talk to when you had no one else and a companion to go on adventures with. Jessie was all of those to Emily. All the care and devotion Emily gave to Jessie as a child filled Jessie with so much love, it was impossible for the cowgirl to ever imagine for them not to be together.
Plastic hands squeezed tightly at the end of her braid and Jessie closed her eyes tight shut. The memory of staring out of the cardboard box and watching the car, with her owner in it, drive away summoned up a painful feeling in her chest. 'How could the person I trusted most give me away so easily? Didn't our years together mean anything to her?' Jessie had thought. She made a promise to herself in the back of the charity lorry to never feel that kind of love again in the fear of being discarded like a chewed out piece of gum.
Voices from downstairs brought Jessie back to a little bit of normality and she shook her head to clear her thoughts. From nine o'clock this morning when Bonnie and her mother left for Sunnyside, the toys had travelled downstairs to watch some DVD's. Judging by what was being said downstairs, the triplet pea's wanted to re-watch Tangled but the triplet aliens wanted to watch Star Trek. Jessie soon heard Woody's voice trying to settle things, which only got the other toy's riled up and started arguing over films, until Buzz spoke up and came up with a suitable compromise.
A sigh escaped her lips and unable to stop Jessie found herself smiling slightly as she thought about the Space Ranger who had taken down the well built walls around her heart and captured it with his kindness, bravery, sensitivity and honesty.
But this was the problem Jessie was distressed about. Andy donating his toy's to Bonnie had happened two months ago and after their Spanish dance, Buzz and Jessie came to the conclusion after all the recent events that had happened at Sunnyside, they liked each other more than 'just friends' should and agreed to start seeing each other.
So far they had been on five dates together. Each one went smoothly and ended well with a shy kiss on the cheek from Buzz. Every night they lay down closer together when Bonnie goes to bed, before at Andy's Buzz would keep his distance and Jessie would end up sleeping next to Bullseye. The other evening Buzz even sneaked her outside to stargaze on the roof. Jessie could tell she was in love with Buzz and trusted him most out of all the toys she lived with.
Things between them were going fine and Jessie didn't have any doubts about their relationship until she saw the date on the calendar this morning. The feelings of abandonment, alone in the darkness and enclosed spaces caused by Emily, came forth like an incoming wave and started to drown her in bleak emotions. It made her start thinking how long would it be until Buzz gets tired of her and moves on? When will she feel the heartbreak and the pain again? When will he get bored of her and end it?
'I've been abandoned once and I don't want it to happen again,' she thought. 'Buzz has got my trust and he's got my love – not that I've told him I do – but sooner or later it'll come to an end and I'll be on my own again.'
Jessie walked away from the window and leaped down on to the bedside table. She steadied her landing by putting a hand forward then stood up straight and climbed down to the floor while clinging on to the bed sheets. When her boots touched the floorboards Jessie slowly walked over to Bonnie's tea table below the window and lifted herself up onto a stool. She sat there for ten minutes, swinging her legs back and forth off the edge of the peach coloured stool until she heard someone heading towards Bonnie's bedroom, and she glanced towards open door.
Buzz slowly rounded the corner and his troublesome expression immediately brightened at the sight of Jessie.
"There you are! I've been looking for you everywhere," said Buzz, walking over to her. "I was starting to get worried," he admitted, bashfully. Jessie briefly stared into his eyes, and she could see the wave of concern pass over him as he noticed how sad her eyes were.
"What's wrong?" Buzz asked, running over. He reached her in a matter of seconds and stood in front of Jessie. He attentively placed his hands on her shoulders, trying to comfort her, but Jessie kept her head down.
"M'fine," she mumbled.
"Jessie, please, what's wrong? Something has upset you," said Buzz. Jessie shook her head from side to side, refusing to look up at him. She had to do this, she wouldn't let herself be hurt again, but the strangest thing was the idea of breaking up with Buzz, was already giving her an ache in her heart.
She felt Buzz place two plastic fingers under her chin and he gently tilted her head up and their eyes locked. His blue eyes gazed into hers. Searching them hungrily as though he was trying to read her mind to figure out what was upsetting her. Pleadingly, and with a hint of desperation in his voice, Buzz asked.
"Please Jess. Let me know what's wrong."
Faintly Jessie whispered. "I can't do this."
Buzz knitted his eyebrows together and blinked. "Can't do what?" He asked.
Jessie bit down on her lower lip and stared at the Space Ranger logo on his chest. She couldn't bear to see his face as she choked out.
"I can't do us."
Buzz's hands lifted from her shoulders as he inhaled a sharp breath. 'Had that really just come out of Jessie's mouth?' He thought, hoping he was having a nightmare. He stood, frozen in place, not believing what Jessie had said. Had he done something wrong? Why did she want to break up with him?
"Why?" was all Buzz asked. Jessie mumbled something incoherent and Buzz raised his voice slightly. "I can't hear you Jessie."
Jessie glanced up and looked at Buzz squarely in the eyes. Her voice was now raised too. "I'm afraid of being neglected! I can't-I won't let it happen."
Buzz's eyebrows shot up from being in a frown and he gaped at Jessie ludicrously.
"I won't ever do that! How could you think I would ever-" he protested. Jessie shook her head, trying to ignore what Buzz was saying.
"Buzz, it's happened to me before. Forty two years ago today, Emily put me in the charity box and abandoned me. I don't want to experience my heart breaking in two again," cried Jessie. With that, she shifted off the stool, turned her back on Buzz and quickly walked out the room.
"But what about my heart?" Buzz murmured, watching his cowgirl walk away.
And I bet I've just broken all your hearts.
Also sorry if Jessie seemed out of character, I was really trying to come up with a idea on how she would break up Buzz, because we all know, she really wouldn't and Emily seemed to be the best way to go about that.
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Reeves3.