Alone. That's how I always feel.
No one to talk to and the people I can talk to wouldn't understand, or at least I think they won't.
Plus I'm not that close to them, but the one I'm closest to is where the problem arises.
It's dark now, probably around midnight. This problem has been with me for a while and I'm the only one who knows it's there.
I sit on the rooftop looking at the stars somewhat hoping I'll find an answer in them.
But they just stay still and sparkle, beautifully.
"What're you doing up here?" His voice broke me out of my thoughts.
"I could ask you the same thing" I retorted.
I could sense him coming closer; it made me tremble but not through fear, something else.
He dropped down and threw his legs over the side of the building.
I glanced for a second and no more.
In that second he had looked so calm so collected, like nothing in the world could stop him and his hair was gently blowing in the wind giving off an air of freedom.
"You Okay?" He almost whispered, gently touching my shoulder.
Even for that brief moment of contact which seemed so meaningless it made me feel so important, like I was the only thing in the world he cared for.
"Yeah, I just couldn't sleep." Smiling I found myself lost in his eyes.
He threw his head backwards and turned to face me.
"I know you've been coming up here for weeks now" he pointed out.
"If there is anything wrong you can tell me. I won't judge" His voice had gone low and serious but it was still soft and caring.
I felt myself staring again, blushing I looked away.
"You…wouldn't understand..." My hair fell in my eyes.
He grabbed my shoulders tightly and turned me so I was facing him.
"Don't ever say that. I understand you perfectly, better than anyone else. So just tell me" His expression was full of worry.
He was so worried, maybe even a little scared just over me.
Saying it now was as good as time as any.
"Eric..." I leant in.
"Yes?" He stared me in the eyes.
"I love you"
There was silence before I started moving without even thinking, I grabbed him by both shoulders and pulled him into a kiss.
His lips locked into mine, it was pure bliss. It was everything I had imagined and more. I closed my eyes and felt him grab me. He gently pushed me away.
"I'm sorry, I don't feel the same way"
My heart broke.