Bridge to Nowhere

By Truth of Barricade

Disclaimer:

All characters from Lazytown, etc. are the property of the flipping elf we know as Sportacus, who is play by a real guy by the name of Magnus Scheving. The plot of this story is mine. I am in no way associated with the owners, creators, or producers of this awesome show or that of any media franchise … at the moment. No copyright infringement is intended.

Rating/Warning:

Mature Audiences ONLY! This will eventually be both slash and regular happy female/male pairings, but it is not the main focus. If you are looking for a romance there is some, but it is mainly geared towards dark themes so the M rating is mainly for that. Sorry if I totally ruin your life by making the blue perky elf have some of the more dark emotions. He isn't on happy drugs people so I came make his have angst it I want.

Authors Ramblings:

This is my first adventure in to the world of Lazytown. There will be adult themes, but I will try to keep it as clean as I can. If you see any huge mistakes please let me know. I haven't got a beta yet so I might have missed some and for some reason Word kept wanting to change my tenses so if it gets confusing sorry. Also, if I get names or ages wrong just let me know. I am only human and not a super being so I can and do make mistakes.

NOTE: I also make several references to elves, etc. and am going by what is in MY head. If you don't like my descriptions please don't jump all over me. This is a fanfiction not a paper discussing mythical creatures and their attributes. I will have my own idea of how I want Sportacus' kind to be like.

STORY NOTES: please read before the story!!!

Ages of most characters:

Stephanie: 18 years

Pixal: 18 years

Stingy: 18 years

Trixie: 18 years

Ziggy: 17 years

Robbie Rotten: Early 30s Something

Sportacus: Looks Late 20s/Early 30s, but is older. Is considered still to be very young in elf culture.

Font Index::

"Speaking"

Thinking


Chapter 1: Sleep Is What I Need

What is wrong with me! Sportacus thought in frustration as he trekked near the hill that overlooked Lazytown. It usually took a lot to get him even a little bit tense, but right now he was almost vibrating with anxiety. Shaking his head in frustration he had to admit (at least to himself) that what he had been going through lately was more then enough to get him upset.

Still, he was beginning to get more then irritated with himself and what he had been feeling, and also frustrated on how he had been handling his emotions in general. He usually had excellent control and kept upbeat and happy by looking at the bright side of things, but lately it didn't seem to be working.

Sighing Sportacus began to head back towards his air ship, which was still hovering quietly above the sleepy town. He had not been having a good day ... well ... he hadn't been having a good year really, but it wasn't like him to complain even to himself.

Well not usually, but lately...he thought shaking his head.

Walking slowing, he looked up towards where the stars shown brightly down upon the town he had called home for more then 10 years. Lazytown was laid out below the hillcrest and he got a view of the peacefully sleeping community. He had some good memories here, especially for someone who hadn't originally planned to stay.

He had been tossing and turning enough lately though that tonight he had finally gave up the pretense of sleeping and decided on taking a walk in the hopes of being able to clear his head and figure out what was causing his restlessness. The lack of sleep was getting bad enough that he was barely awake enough to keep everyone safe.

Not to mention, he thought frustrated, the others probably think I am a jerk or something with the way I have been reacting to some of the smallest things.

Lately it just seemed like too much work to give the usual smile, give some kind of world inspiring speech, and flip around until the next time he was needed to save the day. It seemed like as soon as he saved someone, other trouble would pop up to take its place. Then when he finally thought everything was okay and get a break, he would have to save the cat from the tree, or help some children eat healthy, or just be his happy usual self. All. The. Time.

Sighing he continued his trek back to his home where he hoped he might finally be able to get a full nights rest. Thinking about the events of the day though he found himself frustrated once again.

Why can't they LISTEN for a change, he thought.

Over the years the newer generation of children were harder to inspire and just didn't seem to care. They just didn't want to listen to his words of warning or advice at all. They either said he was too old (even though he still looked like he did when he first came to Lazytown) or they said he had too much energy for them (which was irritating as all they wanted to do was eat candy all the time which ended with them being super hyper. All they wanted to do was stay inside and play video games or watch television all day. Not to mention how they like to pull some of the most dangerous stunts just for the thrill of it.

Thinking back to the incident of earlier in the day he go angry once again. Honestly! Does the sign "DANGER: Do not touch. High Electricity" not mean anything to them. They could have been killed!! It made him sick just thinking about how close they had been to getting hurt. I really lost my temper on them, but I just haven't been getting through! I didn't mean to make them cry, but goodness can they at least try to act a little more mature. Are they trying to go to an early grave? I swear it didn't used to be this hard!

Sportacus sighed again. Or maybe it had, he thought. If he was honest with himself it hadn't been easy in the past either. Between Robbie's various plans to make me leave Lazytown or Ziggy's never ending supply of candy there had never been a dull moment back then. But then again, he thought, I didn't feel this.... dark ... almost discontent feeling then either. Now it seemed he felt this way anytime he was alone. He just couldn't escape it. It was they're dragging him down and making him feel more worthless by the day.

Huffing in frustration he continued to watch the sky as a few thin clouds made their presence known overhead. A light breeze blew sending a small chill throughout him. He really didn't understand what his problem was. Not much had really changed over the years. Ok that isn't true he thought, grimacing. Things had changed… Or maybe it was just him. When did he start feeling like this, he wondered numbly. Thinking about it he could distinctly remember when actually.

A year ... 1 year since I started feeling like this. He thought. Ever since they...

Stopping he closed his eyes and tried to push back some of his more bitter memories.

He had never regretted choosing to keep Lazytown safe instead of returning to his people, but it still sent a sharp pang of longing when he thought of his banishment.

Sitting down on the hill he gazed up to the familiar yet out of place constellations above him. He missed so many things that he had no right too anymore. His body jerked as he suppressed a deep pang of heartache that made his whole body feel cold.

I can't think like this he thought. I made my decision and there is no going back. This has been more a home to me then where I grew up ever was. Still he had to wonder when this place and its people stated feeling like the family he always wanted. When did I truly start wishing I could stay here forever?

He felt he should be thinking harder but the fact was he knew when he felt the change in him. From the first time he got the letter from that tiny pink-haired little girl who asked him to stay and be her friend. That was the beginning. He knew then that his heart and soul belonged to this town and its people and in their need to find someone to guide them and rescue them he had found his place and his sense of belonging.

That didn't make it any easier when the time for me to choose actually did come though.

As one of the hidden people there had always been laws to follow to protect the secrets of his kind. Laws set to protect those that would use his magic and being in a way that could imbalance the very fabric of nature. Laws set that should never ever be broken. So many laws from not using magic in the presence of humans, to never using magic for evil things. Laws of not lying and not stealing, and never killing. Laws of truth and justice that were rooted in all peoples around the world. But there was also the most important law that guided his people for centuries: the law of bonding with those of non-magic nature, especially human kind. Basically, don't become friends with humans, he thought sardonically, it's bad.

He still remembered his lessons when he was young about what humans were supposed to be like. He remembered reading of war and famine and pain and death and so many other horrible things that surrounded them. Humans were known to be selfish, cruel, unchanging creatures. To bond through friendship was seen as one of the worst sins of his kind.

But even though he learned these things he also remembered the stories both his father and grandfather used to tell when he was younger. Of the adventures they had and the people with good and innocents intentions, especially those of young children. Those that while sometimes were bad or did bad thing, could at times be counted on to do what was right.

So although he had listened to what his teachers said, he didn't right the humans off as being a lost cause. Still, he wondered what they were like and if he would ever get to meet them and see what was true and what was just a simple story to keep him entertained. So when he got that first letter from Lazytown, the same town his family always gravitated towards he realized he would get his chance. And he learned more then any lesson he had ever learned from his teachers or the elders who spoke ill of all human kind. And realized one thing in the fact that as they were complex, they were also brave with the same kinds of values his people shared.

That is not to say they don't have their bad sides, but in all the time he had spent in this small town he had learned that even the worst of villains couldn't be written off as just evil or unchangeable. Stephanie may have been the one who caught his interest, but it was the inherit goodness of all the humans in Lazytown that made him stay in the end.

His family, over the generations, had always been drawn to the quiet sleepy little town and even as a slightly-above-average hero who followed the rules always, he had toed-the-line of that one law of his people until the day came when he crossed it so far he could never get back over. When Sportacus realized this he realized that some laws were meant to be broken and no matter how right his people were in some things, they were never more wrong then that in concerns and misconceptions of human kind.

Then came the day they ordered me to break all my ties to the people here and come home like a good boy, thought Sportacus. He still felt the anguish that had come when he got the summons to appear before the elders. He could still remember every detail of what they told him. They ordered me home like I was a teenage rebel who needed to grow up. They didn't even care that I protected people and saved lives everyday, they just made it seem like I was the one in the wrong because I am so young.

Pulling his knees towards his chest he remembered the decision that had tore his heart in two. They told him that he was to leave and never go back. Leave and never talk to his friends ever again. Leave and forget about the humans who were corrupting him. Let them take care of themselves, they didn't need him. After all humans were like rodents, a few die and a million more pop up to take their place. Come home and be with your people like you should, and stop playing with his toys. It was time to grow up.

He shivered. Suddenly feeling colder then ever. He had almost left then, too.

He had never told the others what had really happened. They hadn't known he almost abandoned them that day a year ago. Back to his people like a good little elf to be with his kind forever more. They were his people and at the time it had seemed that the town really hadn't needed him. The kids ... well his friends he should say, had grown into fine young teenagers nearing the age of adulthood. So why stay he had thought.

So with a heavy heart he had went to say goodbye to the people that had been his life for so long. He was ready to go and maybe even show how different humans were to his people. Show that even though humans sometimes did bad things, there were a lot more humans that did good as well. I didn't get the chance though, he thought. That was also the day that all my hopes of showing what humans really where went up in flames … literally. They didn't even give me a chance to explain. They heard what they wanted to hear then shut me out. I didn't even get to say good-bye to what was left of my family.

He didn't even know if his father knew what happened to him. His father and grandfather had been away when the elders gave him his choice. The mission they were on didn't have them getting back anytime soon. Since his people aged differently then humans it was hard to know how much time it would be until his family actually noticed he wasn't around.

That is if they even understand the decision I made. It was easy for them, they had a family they had to come back to. I couldn't just abandon Lazytown when it was in its greatest need. I still wonder if it had been a test to see where my loyalties lied from the very beginning and not just the elders' fear of corruption.

Sportacus glanced once more at the sky and pushed himself off the ground. In the end it didn't matter … they didn't like my decision and banished me to live with humans forever.

When he finally made it home and crashed in his bed his last thoughts of the night were if he would ever be able to truly enjoy protecting people again. Enjoy being a hero to people he considered his friends but didn't even know who he truly was. He wondered if this feeling of being alone would ever go away.

AN:

Not too bad I hope. This is my first fanfic … EVER, so don't get to angry if I have disappointed you in some way. I have to say I have some idea of where I want to take this, but overall this is going to be as much a surprise to me as it is to you. I do have a basic plot though with ending and everything so don't worry about that part.

R&R. I don't mind flames, but please try to keep it clean. I do know I need a beta-reader soon, but I wanted to get this out there before I lost my nerve to even post this. This may be my first ever fic, but I always have an abundance of bunnies on had for whatever I seem to be in the mood for.

Right now the Lazytown bug has hit so I actually mustered up the courage to write something out.

Hmm… this is going to get a whole lot darker before it gets better.