I Know I Can't Take One More Step Towards You...
They've had the good times...
"So, yeah." Sonny said, hesistantly, risking a lot.
"Yeah, what?" Chad raised a blonde eyebrow.
"Yeah, I'll go out with you," she smiled.
Cause All That's Waiting Is Regret..
And now the bad...
Sonny swung the dressing room door open to surprise Chad on his birthday, when she dropped everything in her arms shocked at the view on the other side of the door.
Chad and Portlyn.. were making out.. shirtless... On his birthday. While Sonny just wanted to surprise him.
A tear fell from her eye.
"How long?" she heaved out. "How long!" she screamed.
"Sonny..." Chad started, quickly pulling his jeans on. "It's not what..."
"It's not what it looks like? It looked like you were cheating on me!" she screamed, turning the other way.
"Sonny... we were rehearsing and we.. got carried away. I'm sorry."
"Me too, Chad. I'm sorry I fell in love with you. I should've known you weren't going to change."
"Sonny..."
"No more second chances, Chad."
Don't You Know I'm Not Your Ghost Anymore
Now see them in the test of thier relationship...
Sonny wiped a tear, "Chad, I'm sorry. I can't do this anymore."
"Do what?" Chad ran a hand through his perfectly quaffed hair.
"Be your friend..." she sobbed heavily, "
"What? Sonny? Why?"
"Because.. I love you too much. Even after what you did. I can't believe I agreed to being friends..."
"Sonny.."
"I'm so sorry," she cried, running in the opposite direction.
You Lost The Love I Loved The Most
She tries to distract herself... but it always comes back to the boy who stole her heart 2 years ago...
"Hey, guys," Sonny plastered a fake smile over her face while entering the Prop House, "Guess what? You know that girl, Nora, down at the coffee shop?"
Grady nodded eagerly glad to have an excuse to speak about his new girlfriend, "Nora.." he sighed, with a loopy look on his face.
Sonny smiled a little, giggling with the others, "Anyways, she said I could sing another song at the shop!" she clapped giddily.
"Another song about Chad?" Tawni laughed insensitively.
"Tawni!" Nico whisper-hissed at the clueless blonde.
"Thanks a lot, Tawni," Sonny shook her head, and sauntered out the door.
I Learned To Live Half Alive...
Will he ever understand how she feels before it's too late?
"Who do you think you are, runnin' around leaving scars? Collecting your jar of hearts, tearing love apart. You're going to catch a cold... from the ice inside your soul... Don't come back for me... who do you think.. you are?" Sonny sang, until she spotted Chad in the crowd.
His eyes widened as he pondered, "Why'd she stop singing? That was beautiful."
"Chad..." she whispered, just as everything they once shared flashed through her mind.
"Crap," the blonde teen whispered, trying to get to the stage before Sonny lost it.
Her eyes flooded with tears, "Just stop!" she yelled over and over into the mic, shaking her head furiously.
"Sonny!" Nora yelled to her new friend.
"Sonny," Chad said, finally reaching Sonny on stage, "Sonny, stop," he whispered, trying to hug her.
"Just leave me alone! Why won't you just leave me alone!" she screamed more, kicking the mic stand down and throwing her guitar onto the floor.
"Sonny," Chad began, feeling a lump rise in his throat. Had he done this to her? Is this what his mistakes caused? He was so obsessed with winning and being the center of attention that he was causing the love of his life to drown in her own regrets. Had she regret the time they met? The time they held hands? Their first date? First kiss?
Then it hit him. The song... was about him. And his old ways taking over him.
"Sonny, please," he begged, "calm down..."
This is why she couldn't be friends. It tore her apart.
Now You Want Me Back One More Time...
Will she hit the edge before he can make it right again?
"I'll do it. I swear to God, I'll do it," she yelled at Chad, grabbing the knife laying next to her chair inside her dressing room.
"Sonny!" he yelled trying to stop her.
"I'm not crazy. You don't believe me. Nobody does. I swear to God I'll stab myself."
"Sonny," Chad felt a tear race down his cheek and he felt embarassed.
"If I do this it'll kill me, right? If I took this knife and stabbed me in the heart it would kill me."
"You don't want to do that, Sonny."
She threw the knife to the left of her, and stared at Chad. Where had they gone wrong? Why was the make out session he had with Portlyn replaying in her mind? Haunting her? Making fun of her? The stares she got at red carpet events.. They were all whispering about her.
"Why'd you do it, Chad?" she cried, sliding down the bright blue walls.
"I don't know, Sonny," he teared up, walking towards her, sliding down the wall, sitting next to her.
"I just want... an answer," she breathed in and out heavily.
"I don't have answer," he sighed, regretful.
"I wish you did."
"I do too... But, Sonny... I know you don't care or believe me.. But I love you. With all of my heart. And what happened with Portlyn... it was a mistake. My biggest one.. I'm so sorry."
"I just want it the way it was before..."
"Me too," he smiled weakly, resting his arm around her. "Do you think we could go back? You know, to the way we were?"
Sonny smiled, turning to face him, "I doubt it, Chad... I need some help... I want to fix the mess I made."
"I understand, Sunshine," Chad said, pulling Sonny closer, "Where you going? Therapy?"
"I'm going to enter myself into a treatment center... I need help and I'm going to take responsibility for what I did and who I hurt..."
"Good luck," Chad whispered, kissing the top of Sonny's head.
SEE IT ALL IN...
HALF ALIVE