One Life To Live
Marty
I look at her and my heart aches.
I want to be all things she sees in me.
But I am ruled by fear.
I have to make her love me because if she woke up and remembered
I wouldn't be able to stand her rejection.
If those beautiful eyes looked at me with hate again
I would want to die.
Blair, Tea, Evangeline all remind me of her.
Each one helping me along the way
but never fully able to recue me from myself
I loved them for trying.
I will always love them for trying.
But she is the only one who can heal me.
I know that now.
The only thing I can do is to set things right.
There's still time.
I can make her see that I was at last trying to do the right thing.
Somehow I have to convince her that it was all because of her.
She will see that I am not the same person.
I would do anything.
Oh, please, God. I would do anything.
It's not too late.
I will undo what I have done.
I will tell her everything
and wait for her judgement.
If I can't make her see something differrent in me
It will be no one's fault but my own.
And I will bear her punishment.
But if she can look past what I've done
and find something honest.
Then maybe
Maybe I can forgive myself too.