He stares in the mirror at his reflection noting the lines around his eyes, it was only slightly noticeable but still they were there. he rubbed his eyes once before straightening his tie and tuxedo, he was perfect he knew that but it was only on the outside and on the inside he was a bundle of nerves and he was in inner turmoil.

He felt wrong being here and truthfully he didn't want to be here, he wasn't ready to face today or anyone at all. he tried to fight it but Esme was persistent and she really wanted him to come, he had to come after that. he was doing this for Esme and for Rosalie even after everything that happened he would do anything for her.

He turned from the mirror and took to pacing the room and glancing at the clock, in about ten minutes he would be facing his past and present. he would stand in the grand hall and watch two unions meet while he pretended he was okay. he would endure the whispers from both sides and accusations. he would endure the hate thrown his way and endure his own pain.

He would this for her and Esme because he owed it to them, he would do this for anyone but himself whether it was the wrong or right thing to do. he wouldn't apologize because in his mind he did no wrong , in his mind he was the victim and he would not feel guilty at all.

The door opened and Esme walked in with tears in her eyes, she said nothing but pulled him in for a hug and held on tightly. he allowed it hugging her back, this is one thing he missed and the only thing he missed. she pulled back and wiped her eyes taking a deep breath.

"I'm so happy you could come, i wasn't sure you would and afterwards i felt bad for making you come to endure this but i had to. i had to bring my family together again" she said tearfully.

He sighed he was angry and hurt at first, he didn't think she took his feelings into consideration but he missed his family and he always wanted to make his mother happy. although the main reason he was here was because she asked him to, he was surprised when he got in the invitation but he was glad.

"i know mom but don't get your hopes up, there will not be any reconciliation" he said firmly.

Her eyes flashed and she frowned " Edward this can't go on any longer, its hurting this family it won't take much for you to apologize and mean it, he might not accept it right away but give him time" she pleaded softly.

"For the last time please drop it, it won't happen anytime soon" he said.

She watched him for a moment and he shifted under her gaze, he heated when she watched him like she was judging him. she had a way to make him feel small and feel chastised but not this time.

"i guess i did get my hopes up, i'm not angry just disappointed" she said finally.

She kissed him once on the forehead and left the room leaving him standing still frozen and a feeling of unsettlement in his gut. it would be better for her to be angry because he could take her anger but her disappointment was much worse.

He was still frozen from the unexpected kiss, she knew how he felt about touch and any other emotion. he still didn't feel right accepting kisses from her, not like when his mother did it. he shook away the feeling of sadness at the thought of his mother before walking out the room.

People were filing into the grand hall and he followed the crowd, he was on the lookout in case he was caught by surprise. he still wasn't ready to see any of them but he spotted Carlisle and made his way forward. Carlisle didn't change at all except for wisps of grey in his hair, he smiled warmly when he came near.

"Its good to see you son" He said pulling him in for a hug.

He was getting used to Carlisle calling him son but he thought it was time for change and he allowed it.

"You too" he replied.

there was an awkward silence before Carlisle broke it.

"How are you feeling?" he asked.

He looked him in the eye, he knew how he felt betrayed and hurt. he knew he didn't approve of this day.

"How are you?" he answered ignoring his question.

Carlisle smiled " Happy to see my family together again no matter the circumstances but somewhat nervous at how it will turn out" he said honestly.

"I'll be on my best behavior" he said teasingly.

They stood aside and watched people file in the hall, there were many stares and whispers as they passed him but he ignored it. some recognized him and the women smiled at him, he ignored the attention his eyes looking for someone else.

When he saw Emmett enter the hall he knew the time was near, a few minutes later the music started and Rosalie came into view holding onto her fathers arm. she was surprised to see him and gave him a small smile, she was still a sight to see with her long golden hair and bright blue eyes. she was wearing a knee light gown that accentuated her curves, he swallowed his eyes roaming all over. she still had an effect on him.

she spared him one more glance before she kept walking on, he was hurt he thought she would have stopped to talk to him at least. she only had eyes for Emmett and he was smiling widely but when he caught sight of Edward his smile faded and he looked angry.

He thought he could handle this, he thought he could be happy for her but he couldn't. this could have been them but Emmett ruined it. they had reached each other looking happy in love and he felt like he would be sick. he took one look at Carlisle who nodded before sprinting from the hall never looking back.

So it's been a while, still in a writing slump but i want to try and write something. I've found this in my documents and wanted to try something. I'm going to post some half written stories and i want you guys to tell me which i should finish.

Thanks so much