Cryin'


Author: Lady Mercury

Summary: Angels thoughts on Cordy's affair with Connor

Notes: Lyrics from Aerosmith's cryin'. I wrote this story to express how I think Angel felt after he saw Cordelia with Connor. If you don't feel the same..big deal. I honestly think that was really cruel thing for Cordelia to do...


I was cryin' when I met you
Now I'm tryin' to forget you
Love is sweet misery
I was cryin' just to get you
Now I'm dyin' 'cause I let you
Do what you do down on me... yeah


Betrayed!
That's how I feel. Like I knife has been thrown into my back. And not by an enemy but by my own son and a woman that I thought I loved. Now I wonder if I really ever truly loved her. Did I ever love her? Perhaps I didonce. Perhaps I could have been happy with her. But that was before she slept with my son. My own son. Almost her son. That thought is sickening. Connor is still my son. I can't stop loving him. Although he has hurt me deep I will try to men the wound between us. But Cordelia

Let her burn in hell.I don't want to see her again. I don't want to see her face before me again. Sometimes I wish that I never left Sunnydale. Never left Buffy. But then Connor would never have been born.

Connor.why did you do this to me? Do you hate me this much? I thought that we finally would be able to forget the past and move on with our lives.

And the strange part is that the worst pain wasn't seeing Cordelia and Connor together but the fact that Cordelia wouldn't tell me about. She thought that she could sleep with my son and still be in love with me. She looked at me and smiled her ever-charming smile. Damn her. She would know better than to make a vampire angry. But I will not hurt her. I will not hurt a single hair on her body. But I will never trust her again. Never will I for a moment let her think that I will ever love her again.

Never will I let her into my heart.

Never

I was cryin' when I met you
Now I'm dyin' to forget you
Your love is sweet misery...

The End

Well it's wasn't a long story. Writing a story about hurt and pain is kind of depressing, so I ended it before I started to cry...