(I don't own anything. Just love True Blood and the movie "You've got mail" and decided they could work together in my never ending quest to bring Bill and Sookie back together."
Dear Night Dreamer,
I was sitting on my front porch today watching as my daughter played in the sprinklers and I found myself happy…truly happy for a moment. I haven't been truly happy in a while, as I am sure you are aware, since I tend to vent to you a lot.
My soon to be ex-husband came by today to try and apology once again. I try and listen and forgive as you have often urged me, but I cannot forget what I overheard and saw. I know it isn't fair that I am able to hear peoples' thoughts and I do try my best to stay out of peoples' head, but I cannot always stop from hearing their thoughts. I knew it would be difficult having a relationship with Matthew because I could hear his thoughts, but I wanted to move on and love again so badly I choose to ignore my gut and I leaped in. I had a…friend once tell me I could never be myself with a human man and turns out he was right. In this instant he was completely right. I try and remember what my Grandmother Adele said once to me, "That it's alright to be alone…after all we all end up alone in the end." She is right…he was right. I have my daughter and that I am finding is enough...well almost enough.
With those words Sookie ended her message to her mysterious online friend and sat back with a sigh. It was now a nightly ritual…emailing this friend of hers and telling him all her problems. They had developed a friendship over the last year and half completely out of the blue. One day Arlene had told Sookie about this internet chat room she had joined a while back and suggested Sookie take a look. She had suggested it right after Sookie had found Matthew in bed with another woman. Needing a distraction from her troubles Sookie jumped at something new. On her first night she had met Night Dreamer a man who just seemed to get her. They had asked each other so many questions and the words just flowed between them that night with such ease that what seemed liked minutes was actually hours. By dawn her fingers were numb from so much typing, but her heart had felt lighter. They had ended the conversation only to have a million more since then. This man had touched something within her that reminded her of another. Sookie longed and had longed for this feeling since she had felt she had lost it forever. Sighing Sookie pushed the thought of Bill out of her mind something she has continued to have to do since the moment he left her and Jessica. Getting up from her desk Sookie looked out her bedroom window toward Bill's house, or now Jessica's and Hoyt's house, and resisted the urge to cry. Bill may have been right about her not being able to be herself with a human man, but he had been terrible wrong about leaving her for what he thought she deserved.