Time
This poem is, quite obviously, dedicated for Sirius Black and Remus Lupin (don't get me started). I'd been reading a lot of fanfiction about them, and I wanted to write some of my own. I started this poem at work when it was incredibly slow, and finished it later at home. It's one of my best yet, I must admit...
It's been too long, the years gone by
Since I've seen the life in your eyes.
I told myself repeatedly
That you and I weren't meant to be.
But there you are, and here I stand
You force a smile and take my hand.
"I knew that I could trust in you
To hold that strength and still pull through.
The times are hard, the road is long,
The wind is bleak, the tide is strong.
But since I left and all along,
I wished for you, where I belong."
My heart it pounds, I realize
You see beyond my crude disguise.
In my eyes and to my heart,
Past my soul to where it starts.
I missed you so, my love, so much,
But feeble words are not enough.
I'd give it all, my life, my breath
To go back to the past we left.
Where innocence was common place
Into trouble with no trace.
Soft emotions crossed your face,
I lost myself to your embrace.
Curious and young, but free,
Everything you meant to me.
You were all I'd never be
Caution lost into the glee.
Differences combined make one,
As were we, for good and fun.
But things grow and people change
They all watched, we were strange.
Acceptance you simply received
But it always eluded me.
Over stars and under moon
From the past and through the gloom
Hand in hand and under tree
While together, we were free.
Exploration, love and lust
Lost in passion's burning thrust.
Holding you, I'd close my eyes
Replacing pain with pants and sighs.
Letting go of all I fear
Nothing matters, you are near.
Back again, taken through time
You are here and we're alive.
Wolf and dog, stare and dwell,
To life and death, the depths of hell.
Feelings here I can't let go,
And raising eyes to let you know
Consuming touch, you and I
Recall the past within your eyes.
"Nothing's changed" your words to me
Could fill my mind eternally.
"Moony, lover, hear me now
Let me prove to you, somehow
That even if I'm not nearby
I still don't want to see you cry.
I've thought of you with each long day
In hope you would not go astray.
Time has past and things go on,
Night will move into the dawn,
To lose your trust, do as you see
But I am still yours loyally."
Your words clenched at my dim heart,
Turning, lost in love's true art
The guilt that doubt had filled my mind
Love, forever, is never blind.
Facing you are memories
Young and romping through the trees.
Inside, you've not changed at all
And, smiling, I can stand tall.
"You have my trust, my love, my life.
You have my heart, my pain, my strife.
You have my form, what it may be
To guard, however easily.
You have my past, the sores and pain
You have my future, lost or sane.
You have me, however true,
The time will pass. I'll still love you."