Hey everybody, it's me again! Yeah it's been a while I know but I have good news, I have re-written five chapters of this story and am working on the sixth right now. I know I'm not to great at updating but I figured that as long as I gave myself a head start it might not be too bad. I wanted to just pre-write the whole story but that would take way to long so I figured five chapters is as good as it's going to get. After I finish all of my stories I'm not going to post anything for a while. I have a lot of new stories I've been working on pre-writing so I don't have as many update problems which is also part of the reason updating is proving to be very hard. Sorry for saying so much but I just wanted to let you guys know. So I hope you enjoy the steady flow of updates for five chapters and hopefully I can keep it going! By the way these long notes will be at the end of the chapter now unless I need to tell you guys something before you read. All right enjoy!

Disclaimer: I really don't want to put this in every chapter so this goes for the whole story; I do not own the Twilight Saga or the characters in it.

Coming Back

Bella's POV

My heart was racing in my chest as I drove down the familiar road. What would he think? I know I shouldn't have left when I did, but I had to, or that's what it felt like at least. I knew in my heart that I couldn't stay there with him, with Edward. I needed some time to think and he wasn't giving it to me by having our wedding only two months after he proposed. I pulled into the driveway and got out of my old truck. I walked slowly up to the front door and then reached out to knock, but I hesitated.

What if he yelled? What if he didn't want me back into his life? No, he couldn't do that to me, he loves me. But I hurt him; I hurt everyone when I left. How could I ever make it up to them? Well you're never gonna know unless you knock on the door. I thought. Before I could change my mind I reached out and knocked four times on the wooden door.

I heard the television turn down and the squeak of the couch indicating that he was coming to the door. I should leave.I thought. I should really leave. I took a step back, but as I was turning the door opened behind me.

"Bella." I heard my father's voice behind me and turned. His facial features had hardened since I saw him last. I could see the stress that had been etched into his face and couldn't help but feel responsible. I looked into his eyes and saw tears in them. His hand was still on the edge of the door and for a moment I thought he was going to close it. Instead he let go of the door and pulled me into his arms.

"I thought I would never see you again," he whispered.

"I'm right here dad." I whispered back. I squeezed my eyes shut to keep from crying.

"Where have you been Bella?" he asked. Trust me dad, you don't want to know.I thought.

"I thought you were dead!" he said.I could tell that me leaving was something that had hurt him deeply. I didn't want to tell him that sometimes I wish I were dead because of what had happened. Anyway, I put on my happy face for him; I didn't want him to know what really happened while I was gone.

"I went back to Phoenix, got an apartment and my degree in literature online, and got a job at a local restaurant. I know I should have called or something but I really just needed to be away from everyone." That's a load of bullshit.

"Well I'm glad you're home and happy you're not hurt. And quite frankly I happy that you're still a Swan." he said. That was a sensitive spot with me. I had thought that Edward and I were meant to be, but on the day of the wedding I felt uneasy. A rush of memories came flooding back to me. I remembered the different times he had treated me like a child and lied to me for "my own good". I remembered when he left me and broke my heart because he thought it was what I needed. I remembered how controlling and manipulative he was and came to realize that Jake was right. He wasn't the perfect man I thought he was. When Jake came into the picture he treated my life like some game and then had the nerve to cheat. Him dazzling me was in no way romantic, it was a way for him to control me, and I didn't want to be controlled any more.

Unfortunately for me I discovered all of this at the alter. I ran out of the Cullens house and jumped in my truck. I went back to my house and packed a suitcase of stuff and most of my money before hightailing it to Arizona. It was sunny that day, thank god, other wise the Cullens could have caught me before I left. It was the reason we had the wedding at the Cullens house and made sure the light from the windows was not on them.

I went to a few different locations and never made up my mind on where I would stay so they couldn't find me before settling in Phoenix. It was sunny almost all the time and I thought it would be a good place to hide out if they were searching for me. I was scared that they would bring me back to face the consequences of my decisions, and that was something I wasn't ready for. Instead Alice called me and in a teary message she said that she knew I needed some space so she would stop looking for me in her visions and let me be independent for a while. She told me that the whole family would stop tracking me and just give me the time I needed. I was thankful at the time, but now I wish she had kept looking.

Charlie noticed my discomfort and quickly changed the subject.

"Do you want to stay here until you find a place? I mean, you're staying in Forks right... for good?" he asked hopefully. I smiled and replied, "Yes dad, I am staying in Forks, and I would be so grateful if you let me stay here for a few weeks. I promise I won't be too much of a burden." He smiled and opened the door wide so I could come in. It looked like it had just as had two and a half years ago.

"You can have your old bedroom. It's all the same. When you're all settled we can talk," he said. He gave me a meaningful look before going back into the living room. I sighed and went back out to the car. I knew I was going to have to talk to my father, but I wasn't ready to tell him what happened yet.

I walked up the stairs and up to my room. Charlie wasn't lying when he said that it hadn't changed. The bedspread was the same color and a little wrinkled from me packing so hurriedly. The clothes in my closet were still there, my dirty clothes hamper was still half way filled, even the desk was filled with pictures of Edward and I as well as pictures of me with ... Jacob. I missed him so much. No doubt he would be mad at me. I knew I should stop by and see him, but I was too afraid of what he might say. Shaking my head and coming back to the present I left my room and went downstairs. Charlie was on the couch watching TV, but I could tell he wasn't paying attention.

I sat down next to him. "Well, I think you need to start Bells." Charlie said and turned to me. I took a deep breath before I started.

"I know I messed up dad, I do. I shouldn't have left that day. I was just a little uneasy about the weeding and then I realized I couldn't go through with it so I fled. I am so sorry I hurt you, you didn't deserve that and neither did mom or... well anyway I was wrong." I said.

"It's okay that you didn't want to get married, and I can understand you running, but you should have called me sweetheart." Charlie said. I hung me head. I wish I could have called.I thought.

"I know." I said. I could never apologize enough for the pain I caused him.

"Alright Bells, I guess there is nothing we can do about it seeing as I can't exactly ground you now. Just promise me that you won't go on any more trips without telling me first and calling me occasionally when you're there." he said after a moment of silence.

"I, Isabella Swan, promise not to go on any long trips without telling you and calling you while I am there." I said while holding my right hand up. He smiled and gave me a hug.

"Alright, it's getting late Bells. I'm going to catch some shut-eye. Goodnight." he said, giving me a kiss on the cheek and walking up the stairs.

"Night dad." I yelled after him before turning off all of the lights and TV and making my way to the bathroom. I wasted no time in turning the hot water on and jumping into the shower. I felt all the dirt and grime from the days travels wash away as the hot water fell on to my back. I stepped out of the shower after about ten minutes or so and wrapped a towel around me before heading to my room.

I fumbled around in the dark until I found my pj's, which were just sweats and a camisole and put them on. I got in my bed with every intention of falling asleep but I kept thinking about different things kept popping into my head. I wondered if Edward and the Cullens were still in Forks and if the knew I was here. I wondered how much the pack hates me now. I wonder how Jacob feels about me now.

Jacob. My best friend that I fell in love with. He was the main reason I fled the wedding. I couldn't marry Edward knowing that I could have a better life with another man. At the time I thought it was selfish of me, but now I realize that it was the right thing to do. I can't always live my life for other people. Edward wanted to get married, not me. I shouldn't have to feel pressured into marrying someone, we should have both felt like it was time for us to take that step and that wasn't the case with Edward and I.

Still it was wrong of me to flee. I showed such cowardice that day. What I should have done was stand there and face my consequences. Maybe Edward and his family would have screamed at me for leading him on, but I deserved it because I did lead him on. My father would no doubt be happy about the whole thing and once the embarrassment from saying that I didn't love the man I was about to marry was over everything would have been fine.

So why did I leave, what was I afraid of? Jacob Black. I was scared to death of facing him. I didn't know what he would think of everything. If I told him that I left Edward for him I wasn't sure if he would be happy and take me in his arms, or push me away for breaking his heart. But even if he had turned his back on me it was, once again, something I deserved. I broke his heart because I couldn't see past Edward's dazzling effects. I was stupid and naive and my stupidity hurt the person I love most.

I will right my wrongs. I will be brave and take all my consequences without running. I will try my best to make up for the things I have done.That was the last thought I had before I finally fell asleep.

This is about the shortest any chapter will be. The other chapters are a bit longer. If you would prefer shorter chapters just tell me and I can break some of the longer chapters up and post them a bit sooner. All right, leave me some love! MERRY CHRISTMAS!