Disclaimer:
I own nothing in the universe created by JK Rowling. This story is
strictly not-for-profit. The song is '3 Libras' by A
Perfect Circle, lyrics by Maynard J. Keenon --- Apologies in advance
for the fact that this song wasn't released until 2000, and
technically the story takes place in 1997. A/N: This story
disregards HPB Hogwarts' most infamous rivals since
Salazar and Godric came face-to-face outside the Great Hall, flanked
by the usual suspects. It was the first day back to their seventh,
and final, year. Draco Malfoy scrutinized his nemesis from head to
toe and smirked. "Potter," he greeted with his most
condescending sneer. "Kill many people this summer?" Might as
well throw down the gauntlet, put the Golden Boy off his game from
the start. Harry gave him an unfathomable look for his
troubles. "Thought I'd leave that to you," he said lightly.
"Good holiday?" he inquired cordially, as though their
interactions were habitually pleasant rather than habitually
explosive. The Slytherin Prince easily covered his flinch. "It
was lovely, thanks." Eying Potter, he added, "And yours was…
chock full of bondage fun?" Harry tilted his head, causing
his facial jewelry to glint. A slow, secretive smile crept across his
features, emerald eyes even brighter for the kohl that surrounded
them, paired with the mysterious disappearance of his trademark
spectacles. "Bondage fun," he repeated with obvious
amusement. "I like that." Draco was thrown, but he knew
better than to let it show. He wasn't a Malfoy for nothing, and his
poise was unbreakable. A well-placed Cruciatus by Lucius here and
there in the course of his training had seen to that. His
silvery-blond hair framed his face this year, and fell to just below
his chin. Wrapping himself in the conviction that his façade
was flawless, he turned his attention away from Potter's unnerving
stare to address Granger and Weasel. They looked reassuringly the
same, just older. "And what do you think of Potter's new
look?" he drawled. Pausing to let his gaze fall on his nemesis
again, he added, "Is the poor Golden Boy tired of being fawned over
and worshiped by everyone he meets?" "I think he looks
hot," Hermione said bluntly. "Mione!" Ron protested,
face going instantly purple with the force of his shock and
jealousy. She chuckled. "Oh, come off it, Ronald," she
ordered. "Just because I'm your girlfriend doesn't mean I can't
notice what a hottie Harry is. I'm sure you've noticed how good
Lavender looks in those backless shirts she wears." Draco
scoffed, turning his attention back to the Boy Who Lived. "I'm
sure it'll win you yet another article in the Harry's eyes burned into his own for a brief
moment, and then he turned away, murmuring something that sounded
like, " His friends followed, thus ending their first confrontation
of the year in a much less dramatic fashion than most would've
predicted. Draco watched his nemesis surreptitiously all
through the welcoming feast, as was his customary habit. Usually, he
spent the time cataloguing Potter's strengths and weaknesses,
waiting to see how the latest, inevitable death had affected the
Wizarding world's hero. No one outside Slytherin House wanted to
admit that said hero had been fighting the war - that suddenly loomed
over all of them - for Potter looked tired and thin tonight; then again, he
always came back to Hogwarts looking tired and thin. Draco had a
feeling that his Golden Boy status acted like a glamour, keeping most
wizards and witches from seeing his true appearance. He also seemed
weary of the deluge of questions he was receiving in regards to his
new look. His raven-colored hair had green tips, and was styled to
spike out in all directions. He sported silver loops, with balls, of
various gauges in his eyebrow, lip, and ear cartilage. There was a
silver chain choker around his neck. This, together with the black
kohl around his eyes, made him look like an exotic bird amongst his
housemates. The boy in question turned to look at him
suddenly, emerald eyes locking with silver, as though he'd felt
Draco's gaze. Maybe they were just used to taking each other's
measure whenever they found themselves in the same room. Potter
watched him carefully, weighing, and then had the nerve to let his
lips twitch in the barest of smiles. This was new. Draco
instinctively sneered and turned away, pleased that, once again, he
hadn't allowed the slightest hint of his thoughts to show. When he
dared to look again, Potter had turned back to his friends, but his
laughter at Finnigan's joke was hollow. Of course, while
all this was happening, Draco was holding court over the Slytherins
with his usual icy practice and ease. A Malfoy must know how to
multitask, after all. He sat in his usual spot, flanked by Crabbe and
Goyle, with Pansy and Blaise across from him. The rest of the
Slytherins ranged in order of descending rank around them. They
regaled him with stories about their holidays, and he flawlessly
reasserted his position as Prince. "I just love your hair
this year, Drakey," Pansy simpered, reaching across the table to
touch the loose, platinum locks. She started to, anyway,
until he treated her to the full force of his Malfoy glare,
effectively freezing her in place. Quickly, she withdrew her hand,
suddenly realizing how unseemly she'd been acting in public.
Draco's eyes were cold and unforgiving. "Did you forget
your manners over the holiday, Parkinson?" he questioned
archly. She winced. "Of course not, Draco." He
nodded curtly, allowing the tension to drain from his features, and
conversation at the table started up again. Draco liked
to roam the halls of Hogwarts when he couldn't sleep. The older he
got, the more intimate he became with that elusive plague called
Insomnia. His life had been much easier back when he was an
eleven-year-old boy just itching for the chance to make his father
proud. He'd handled his Hogwarts career in perfect keeping with
Lucius' impossible standards, save only for the fact that Potter
always beat him to the Snitch. But war was upon them, and the
more he learned about how certain political ideals played out in
practice, the more he questioned his loyalty to the cause. He might
be a superior, prejudiced pure-blood, but he didn't think he could
ever be a murderer. This realization proved to Draco that,
despite patterning his entire life up 'til now in Lucius' image,
he'd never live up to his expectations. Which led to his present,
unhealthy relationship with sleep. Luckily, he was Head Boy, so no
one would question him for being out after curfew. On nights such as
this, when he was out wandering because sleep had eluded him, he
didn't seek out wayward students to punish for breaking the rules.
Instead, he allowed Hogwarts to take him where she would. Tonight,
she seemed to be leading him down, down, down, through underground
passageways that he'd never seen before. Somehow he doubted even
Filch extended his patrols down here, and he wondered why the castle
was showing him this seemingly secret wing. 'Maybe not so secret
after all,' he mused, as he heard a faint plucking of guitar
strings nearby. He'd planned on avoiding contact with other
students tonight, but Hogwarts seemed to want him to find the
mysterious guitar player. As he followed the sound, he realized it
was an acoustic, played seemingly effortlessly by skilled hands. He
was intrigued in spite of himself. Finding the abandoned classroom
that the music emanated from, Draco cautiously peeked in, blinking at
the light cast by When his eyes had adjusted, he saw a
figure, seated cross-legged against the wall on his robes. He was
wearing faded, low-riding jeans and a tight, black t-shirt that
revealed Muggle tattoos on his arms. The green-tipped, raven hair
gave away his identity immediately. Draco was about to speak, when
Potter's random plucking coalesced into the opening bars of a song,
and he froze, listening. The chords were haunting and lovely. Then,
the Boy Who Lived started to sing, and the Slytherin Prince was
paralyzed, chills chasing themselves up and down his spine as he
listened. Potter
had a lovely voice, soft and edgy. By the way his mouth caressed each
word and his fingers caressed each chord, it was clear that the song
touched him deeply. His beautiful green eyes were filled with such
longing that Draco's heart clenched. Any urge he might've had to
take this newfound vulnerability in his hands and crush it was
nullified by the need to hear more, the need to work out the cause
for Potter's elemental sorrow. Draco
was caught up in a melancholy web of sound much greater than himself.
He felt like he was being told something important, but Potter hadn't
given any indication that his presence was noticed. Maybe anyone that
witnessed this would've felt the same way. This was the real Harry
Potter, not the Boy Who Lived. It was a frightening concept that he
now had a reason to separate the two in his mind. Potter continued
on, seemingly unaware that he had an audience. Draco
was absolutely floored. As the beautiful, eerie song ended, he was
suddenly transported back to their confrontation earlier that
evening. Hadn't Potter said the last line of the song to him? "Are you going to come in, or just stand there?"
The question shocked Draco from his reverie. Potter still
hadn't looked at him, but clearly he'd been caught. Almost
against his will, he stepped further into the room to get a better
look at his supposed nemesis. The raven-haired wizard met his eyes,
and didn't seem surprised at who he found standing before him.
"That song…" Draco stammered, absolutely hating himself
for doing something so plebian as stammering, but completely unable
to sort out his whirlwind of thoughts. Harry smiled a little.
"'3 Libras,'" he said. "It's by a Muggle band called A
Perfect Circle." When Draco just kept staring at him, he added,
"Sounds much better when they perform it. There's a full band,
and strings. Plus Maynard Keenan's voice is bloody
incredible." "It's beautiful," Draco confessed before
he could stop himself. "I didn't know you could play the
guitar." Harry fiddled with the pic in his fingers. "No
one here does," he replied equably, and then asked, "Do you play
an instrument?" "Piano." Potter nodded as though that
answer made perfect sense to him. "How'd you wind up all
the way down here?" Harry asked curiously after a moment of
protracted silence. He watched Draco intently as though trying to fit
together the pieces of a puzzle. When he was caught, a faint, pink
blush colored his cheeks. Draco was about to smirk, having
regained a bit of his composure, when he caught sight of that damning
blush. "The sodding castle brought me," he revealed finally,
hoping his own face didn't betray him and grow pink. "Figures,"
Harry chuckled, and then, "Insomnia, or having a bit too much fun
being Head Boy?" "Insomnia," the Slytherin replied
shortly, feeling winded by their oddly pleasant conversation.
"You?" "Well, I'm certainly not Head Boy," the
raven-haired wizard drawled. Draco's lips twitched in spite
of himself. "Insomnia for two, then," he announced grandly, as
though ordering from a menu. "Why can't Perfect Potter fall
asleep?" he questioned, raising a brow at his nemesis. A
slight flinch was the only indication that his moniker had gotten
under the Gryffindor's skin. "It's not so much that I can't
fall asleep, it's more that I'm afraid to," Harry offered
vaguely. "Why is that?" he questioned, floored that Harry
Potter was admitting fear to Draco Malfoy. Harry sighed
wearily, and said, "Nightmares." Absently, he rubbed at his
scar. "Nightmares?" Draco repeated, his smirk once again
trumped by the expression on Potter's face. Only this time it was
bone-deep distress rather than the earth-shattering blush of just
moments ago. Draco felt a sinister sense of foreboding. Emerald
eyes solemnly met silvery-gray. "Usually from Tom." The
Slytherin was perplexed. "Tom?" he repeated, wondering why Potter
would assume he knew what he meant. "Tom Riddle," Harry
elaborated, and at Draco's continued confusion, he let out a
jagged, bitter laugh. "Also known as He Who Must Not Be Named, You
Know Who, and Lord Voldemort. As in, the psychotic, half-blooded,
racial supremacist that's got me at the top of his hit
list?" Draco paused to process this, unable to fully
suppress his shiver. "I didn't know his name was Tom Riddle."
Then it hit him. "And what do you mean by "It's
pretty self explanatory," Harry replied, seeming impervious to his
threatening gaze. "Tom Marvolo Riddle, son of one pure-blooded
witch and one Muggle, who, it turned out, just couldn't handle the
wacky world of magic and abandoned them. She died, and Tom grew up in
the Muggle foster care system until he got his Hogwarts
letter." Draco felt his newly regained self-control crumble
from the inside. Surely, Potter was messing with him. He pinned his
nemesis with his eyes, demanding to know the truth. Harry just stared
back calmly, no hint of deception in his gaze. There was no reason
for him to lie, anyway, since Draco could easily check his claims.
His carefully orchestrated world began to shatter. "Oh
Merlin," he exhaled softly, backing into the wall behind him and
sliding down to the floor. Then he began to laugh, a stilted,
terrible sound. "He's the most powerful Dark Lord of our time,
he's got pure-blooded witches and wizards worldwide kissing the hem
of his robes, and he's a sodding Harry
watched his nemesis with a mixture of amusement and concern. "He's
not the first supremacist that's tried to create a perfect race he
can't be part of." He paused thoughtfully. "Any chance he'll
go mad and shoot himself with a handgun?" At Draco's incredulous
look, he added, "Sorry. Muggle megalomaniac." Draco eyed
Potter's scar with morbid fascination, suddenly understanding the
implications. "The Dark Lord sends you nightmares?" Harry
nodded, running a loving hand over the body of his guitar for
comfort. "Mostly of our past encounters, but sometimes he sends
images of what he's doing." His eyes met Draco's. "Or who
he's torturing." Running a hand through his silky locks,
Draco tried to pull himself back together. "So yours is more of a
selective Insomnia." "Mmm," he agreed. "What about
you?" The Slytherin Prince winced, still hopelessly off
balance from the course his night of wandering had taken. "Not so
selective," he murmured. Harry's expression as he watched
him was intense. "Deep thoughts?" he asked finally. Draco
came to the sudden, and shocking, revelation that he didn't feel
alive unless those emerald eyes were burning into his flesh.
"Politics," he conceded. Harry's "Oh" was weighty.
He studied the raven-haired wizard, mesmerized by the way the
wand-light flickered and danced across his face, and wondering just
when up had begun to mean down. "I haven't worked out whom to
vote for," he revealed. His voice was low, but he could tell by the
slight widening of the Gryffindor's eyes that he'd heard. Harry
trapped him easily in his gaze, and after a long, tension-filled
moment, he murmured, "You don't look much like Lucius." His
hand twitched like he was suppressing the urge to touch the pale face
that he was currently caressing with his eyes. Instead of
answering directly, Draco whispered, "Everything will change when
we graduate." Harry nodded seriously, seeming to understand
the implications. "What happens when the bubble bursts?" "I
don't know." All Draco did know, and with perfect clarity in that
moment, was that he didn't want to lose Harry
sighed. "It'd be nice not to know. My course is set." His voice
was dark and defeated, and Draco tasted ashes. "Nothing's
ever set in stone," he murmured, feeling desperate to hear Harry
laugh wryly and agree. He didn't. "Some things are."
Draco saw the truth of Harry's fate in his emerald eyes.
They sat in subdued silence, listening to the night sounds of the
castle. Finally, Draco stood, straightened his robes and prepared to
leave. "Later, Harry," he offered hopefully from the
entryway of the classroom. "Night, Draco." After a pause,
"Good luck." As Draco moved away down the corridor, he
could hear the gentle plucking of Harry's fingers picking out the
chords to a new song. It sounded like Death.
A name in your
recollection, down among a million, say:
Difficult not to feel a
little bit disappointed, passed over.
When I look right through,
see you naked but oblivious
And you don't see me..."
Eyes of a fallen angel, eyes of a tragedy.
Here I am
expecting just a little bit too much from the wounded
But I see,
see through it all, see through, see you..."
Eyes of a
fallen angel, eyes of a tragedy
Oh well, oh well. Apparently
nothing. Apparently nothing at all."
You don't, you don't
see me…
You don't see me at all."
