Please Awake

written by Jesse Aarons

This is my first fan fic so be nice

Summary:This takes place 3 weeks after Jesses made May Belle princess of Terabithia and still hasnt come to tearms of what has happend whats worse is that he has gone back into his shell barely talking and if he does is to say 1 or 2 words,he barely goes back into his and Leslie's kingdom cause every inch holds her memories to him which has driven him to such dark and deep depression but something good will come of going in one more time.

Saddness chapter 1

~Jesses point of view~

I woke up like normal it was about 7am and not even a school day why was i waking up so early,well i can barely sleep i have "that day" running threw my head as always me driving with my music teacher and her looking at me and asking me "are you forgetting something?".

I should have yelled "YES iam sorry i am going to be with Leslie all day"

But I dont i pretend everything is ok and that we are going to have a great time well we do i mean i was learning and i had her undevided attention Leslie would be ok with out me if i wasnt there right?

WRONG so far away from right it wasnt even funny,I get back and my whole family is in the living room worried about me asking me "where have you been" I told mom i was going out well truthfully she was half asleep so more and likely she didnt hear me,my father stares at me and i can almost swear his eyes are softening to me he says in a calm and almost sad voice the words i hear every day and night in my head the cause of my pain to the point i wish for death just so i can be with her "your friend Leslie is dead".

It feels like i got punched in the stomach as i hear the details of how it has happend,I try calming myself "no no leslie couldnt be dead your lying".

I yell again at him making it seem like everything is ok if i just go over to her house and see her i know it was just a mean joke from my family to get back at me cause they might not know where i was.

I race outta the house to her house only to see 3 police cars,my mind snaps my heart is pounding like crazy no NO she isnt dead she cant be,i race back into the house and into my room slaming my dresser against the door blocking my self in i throw back my little cover curtain and rumage threw my trunk.

I grab my art book and flip threw the pages like crazy until i see that one page,its a picture of her i drew last night since i couldnt stop thinking of her I knew i had fallen in love and now she was gone,my heart was beating real fast and my chest hurt badly,i gripped it and held the book with her picture in my arms and cried to sleep.

I awoke the next morning with my cover on me someone must have put that on me i didnt even deserve that maybey it was all a bad dream i will just get a bit tidy uped and go down do my chores have breakfast and go meet up with my queen,i walked down and was ready to do my normal routine but my mom stopped me she told me that dad was doing it.

That was truly odd why would he but i wasnt going to complain,i sat down and grabbed a pancake my sisters were eyeing me and seemed annoyed i was eating well i didnt care my sisters were always being pest so i didnt let what they think bother me, as i ate i heard my parents say that we should go over and pay our respects but why? it didnt make any sense she had to be alive yesterday was a nightmare thats all no the truth was the nightmare i have lived with everyday since she was gone.

She was dead that rope snapped and she drowned and hit her head thats when my world became hell the one i loved the one who opend my heart up so much and taught me me to be myself and she accepted me as myself and i learned "close your eyes but leave your mind wide open" and to learn she loved me,it drove me insane my love was gone i made a memorial for her letting a small raft with her picture and a crown above her head go sailing down the creek and saying "she is in your hands now" the pain never left i thought it might when i made the bridge to terabithia and make May Belle princess but that was a temporary fix nothing more.

Rage chapter 2

I couldnt stand anything its been 3 weeks i hated being in the house with all the complaing and all my parents were at it yet again complaing about money or the anoying sister birgade,i left the house and headed off.

He didnt know why had back to Terabithia to him it didnt feel the same without his queen it was Leslie that made it special and it was their freindship and feelings for one another that made it grow but without her it was a lonely dead place to me,I walked he didnt run much anymore why it was like my queen was joing me sometimes May Belle and all but she went by herself mostly.

As I walked every step every little location reminded me of my Leslie. I never got to tell her how I felt which was hurting enough but the worst was she loved me for me and what did I do I left to go to the museum without her if I just took her things would have been difrent,I got to the creek and the frayed remanants of the rope and nerby the bridge I made for like a memorial to memory even her motto was used.

I truthfully didnt care anymore as I walked over the bridge the magic was gone when she left it left,I looked around I could rember her every feature which only added to my pain,it was all building up the pain of loss the anger the saddness everything and then it hit me I wanted to let me rage out and the best way would be to fight "the dark master" I yelled at the top of my lungs for him to show himself and bring back leslie to me but it was a vain attempt at best.

He wasnt the one who took her and then outta no where i was shoved hard on the ground i knew who could have done that and i was right,there he stood all in black a terrifying pressence he was the sum of Leslie and I fears and sorrow but she was gone and now he fed off of me,he laughed "what brings our king to his forgoten land?" he sneered.

I hated him i wanted to make him feel what i felt i truly did so i raced at him my arm instanly transfomerd to armor and i punched him hard knocking him into the tree,then i shoved my knee into his stomach and watched him cough and drop down my anger was fuiling me but it was going to do the same to him if i kept this up,I looked at him and yelled "you took her from me" he vanished infront of my eyes and said in the coldest voice i ever heard "you did that yourself your greed and and selfishness did all that not me so blame someone else for your sorrow former king" and then he was gone i couldnt say anything he was right it was my doing.

I walked a bit longer in the woods my temper was still boiling and then outta no where i heard my dad's voice "Jesse where are ya boy? we have to talk its important" i rolled my eyes and walked to the bridge i saw him ready to step on it but i wouldnt allow that i raced over to him and looked at him "what is it?"He couldnt belive my attitude was this way i mean i could get angry and all but not like ice not like this.

My dad held my shoulder and looked at me and then he said something i never thought he would tell me "its about Leslie" he said,i didnt get the joke what did he mean she was gone thats all there was to it why torture me and all,I stared at him and calmly but with a hint of anger said "what about her she is gone i understand this" he shook his head i couldnt belive what he was doing he was actually telling me she wasnt?

how dare he play with my heart like that that was cruel even for him "LIAR" i snapped at him backing up then another man's voice came in and out from the woods came Bill Burke Leslie's dad "No Jesse he isn't"

I stummbled and fell on my butt and looked at him wide eyed what did he mean why was he back,he came up to me and helped me up with a little smile,I looked dumbfounded for a bit he spoke calmly with a hint of gladness in his voice or was that hope "I have news for you about Leslie which you might wanna hear are you interested?"

I shouted "YES" and looked at him hoping something might help me heal myself and that might make my world better,he smiled and led me along with my dad back to the old Burke house his house there was his car and a U-haul in his drivway but why it didnt make any sense they left cause Leslie was gone but why come back to this place,I looked hard and saw movers moving tables and bed back into the house i couldnt grasp why and i saw PT come bounding up to me barking happily and jumping on my legs,i looked down and pat our little gurdain of Terabitha but i was still awe struck as into why.

I remeber when i gave PT to Leslie as a gift and she hugged me for him i felt hot in the cheeks when she held me like that but in a good way truth was i was already falling in love with her but that rainy day the last day i saw her was it the day i knew for sure she was my heart and soul,Bill smiled at me and said "now its time for that talk Jesse".

dum dee dumm dumm

to be continued

Iam sorry if the fic sucks iam new to doing fan fics and all so dont flame me to much ok?

Jesse Arrons