Summary: Luke left after the break up between him and Lorelai. lorelai did not get a chance to tell him she was pregnant though. it has been a year since he left. what will happen on the anniversary of this heart breaking day?

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A/N: italics are used for past event, everything else is the present time.

Chapter 1. Some pink with a side order of loneliness

It had been a year to day now since he had left town; a year and two weeks since they had broken up. Lorelai didn't need reminding of these facts. These events had been forever implanted in her head. She hated remembering those few weeks. They had been hell for her. She recalled the last thing he said to her:

"Fine. You want to know what I'm thinking right now? That I can't be in this relationship. It's too much." Those were the last lines she heard out of his mouth. He had then turned around and walked away from her. Away from them; away from their future.

Just thinking about that moment in time made her want to cry as she stared out her window in her bedroom. It was snowing out.

The next thing she knew she was eating apples. Apples. That was a food that she had only eaten in one other time in her life; when she was pregnant with Rory. She first noticed it when Sookie pointed it out.

"Lorelai, why don't you take it slow?" She had said to her.

"What?" Lorelai asked not knowing what Sookie was talking about.

"This is you 4th, wait, no your 5th apple in the last 15 minutes! Since when do you eat healthy?" Sookie had asked her with a puzzled look upon her face. At that Lorelai stopped mid bite and told Sookie she would be right back. She had then sped out the door heading towards the jeep.

She knew what this meant. She was sure. She started to drive in the direction of Hartford; the one place that no one would know who she was. The one place she could go to get a pregnancy test without someone asking questions. Lorelai also decided to call up the one person who would know what to do. She dialed the number and waited for the answer.

"Hello?" that familiar voice asked.

"Hey babe it's me." Lorelai answered shakily.

"Mom what's wrong?" Rory asked with a concerned tone.

"Rory I…I think, I think I might be…um…" she stammered.

"Mom? You think you might be what?" she said anxious to hear what her mother was trying to tell her.

"Rory, I think I might be pregnant." She said in one quick breath.

"Wait, what?" Rory asked not thinking she heard her mother correctly.

"I'm pregnant Rory!" she yelled into the phone as tears streamed down her face.

"Are…are you sure?" Rory asked still trying to take the new information in.

"Not 100 percent, but all signed point to it. I mean, I am 2 days late and I am feeling a little moody, and I ate an apple today. Oh, wait, no. I ate FIVE apples today." Lorelai said as she dried her tears.

"apples?" Rory questioned.

"Well, you know me. Anything that is healthy taste like dog poo and the last time I ate an apple was while I was pregnant for you." She added.

"Oh. So, it is Luke's right?" Rory said know the answer to the question already.

"Oh, no it isn't. See me and Taylor, we kind of had something going on while me and Luke were, OF course it is Luke's! What made you think it wasn't!" she asked with a tone of astonishment in her voice.

"Nothing! Just making sure. So…" Rory started.

"So, what?" Lorelai asked.

"Are you going to tell Luke?" Rory finished.

"Well, I haven't really made sure I am pregnant yet. If it turns out I am, then I will talk to him, but for now, I don't want anyone but you and I to know. Ok?" she asked not wanting to get onto the subject of Luke.

"Ok. Well, I have to go now. I will talk to you later, so bye mom." Rory said.

"Bye sweets." Lorelai said before hanging up the phone as she pulled into the parking lot of a pharmacy.

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As Lorelai waited in the bathroom at work, she started humming to herself. She didn't realize what she was humming until she started to sing the words. At that point her eyes started to well up with tears and she tried to think of something else. The only problem was that no matter what other song she started to sing, it would always start to morph into that same song as before. She couldn't take it anymore. Those stupid lyrics, with that stupid tune! They reminded her of that night many months ago. That one night, where their eyes connected and Lorelai knew how she felt for Luke.

Now that I've worn out, I've worn out the world
I'm on my knees in fascination
Looking through the night
And the moons never seen me before
But I'm reflecting light

She had taken some time to splash some water on her face before looking down at the strip in front of her. She couldn't believe her eyes, but then again, she could. She checked the box again. It said pink if you are pregnant, blue if you are not. She looked from the box to the strip, the strip to the box, and back again. Pink. That was all there was; just pink.

Lorelai looked over at the crib in the corner of her room. She saw her baby sleeping peacefully clothed in a yellow sleeper, looking so helpless and pure. She sighed knowing the only two people she remembered seeing looking like this was Rory and Luke. Luke. She thought now as she glanced back out her bedroom window. Then she looked quickly at the clock near her bed. It was 5:45. She knew it was early for her to be up, but her dreams had been terrible that night. Come to think of it, all of her dreams since Luke and her had broken up a year previously, had been terrible, but these were by far, worse.

She kept picturing her with Luke and their child in her living room. Luke holding the baby, and Lorelai looking on with a smile plastered on her face. Then Luke would hand the baby over to her and then run off without a word. She would then place the baby in the bassinet and fall to her knees. In her dream she would cry and all of a sudden crowds of people would start to walk in and out removing every piece of furniture or any item that held some sacred, happy memory, until she was left only with an empty house and her child. The last part of the dream would always be Rory coming in and taking the baby. Rory would come into the house, remove the baby from the bassinet, and leave her mother sobbing on the wooden floor.

She had had this same dream 3 times already that night. It always ended the same way. Rory, Someone she loved, coming in and taking the one last piece of hope and happiness she had left. She then remembered the last time someone she loved had really taken the last piece of hope she had left.

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