She only went out to get coffee. And now she's never coming back. I finally realised she's the one I've been living for. And she realised it too... At least we had last night. At least I got to know her. At least. It shouldn't be that. We should have firsts and lasts. But our first shouldn't have been our last. I need her here. All those times that I've pushed her away. The times that I've really needed her. The times she's needed me! I was the worst friend to her! But she loved me. She was in love with me. That's why she stayed. Now she's gone. It will always come back to that. A drunken driver is all it takes to rid me of the one most important thing in my life. I valued her more than my job and that's saying something. She meant more to me than Casey! I thought he was the one for me. It was her though. It was always her. I buried my feelings and I was too stupid to notice she felt the same way! Some detective I am. God I miss her. I always will. She promised me always. And I her. We would always be there for each other. Always love each other. How can one word carry so much meaning? How can it be broken so quickly? There's so many questions. I know the answers to all of them. The worst is 'Is she ever coming back?' The answer, no. I've lost her. I've come so close so many times. But now it's really happened. And it's worse than I ever could have imagined.