Underlying Hurt
Bella.
Next week was going to be absolutely dreadful; this would make it a year since it happened. The first anniversary of his death, my heart still ached as though it had only happened today.
It had been a complete shock when my father, Charlie Swan had passed away. My mother refused to tell me why he died but after a few months of digging I found the cause.
I was angry at first when it happened but once I learned why there was no way of knowing what was coming and there was no way of stopping it.
My Mother Renee and I had stayed in the house we had lived in since they had married all those years ago, I found myself cuddling into his pillow which still smelled like him.
The hurt I feel is absolute and never ending, I miss my dad so much.
It is not fair that he was taken from us so soon but why my mother hadn't told me why he had passed was because it had hidden complications.
Charlie's condition was passed down through genes, which means I could have it. The thought that it could be happening to me terrified me, not only am I terrified for myself but I'm scared. My mother would be all alone and I couldn't bear to leave her, not after what had happened last year.
My boyfriend Edward Cullen was always there for me, though I couldn't tell him what I was doing or what had truly happened to Charlie yet. Carlisle knows exactly what happened and he was the one who told me.
I couldn't tell anyone, I felt so alone.
I don't want to scare people and I don't want to be treated differently. Tomorrow I have a appointment with Carlisle Cullen.
I am going to have some tests done to see if I have what killed Charlie.
Renee thinks I will be at school and Edward thinks I'm staying home.
All I could do was hope and try to push the fear to the back of my mind.
This is a very delicate story to me, very personal. This is what happened to me and is still happening. If you are going to leave hateful reviews don't bother writing one at all.
I am definitely continuing this fanfiction.
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