Chad's POV

It's been exactly a year today. A year since So Random, the goofy sketch comedy show on the next lot over was cancelled. Just thirteen months ago I would have been making fun of them in the prop house and now I haven't spoken to most of them in months. A year ago Sonny was happy. And mine.

About two years ago Sonny and I started dating. Needless to say, it shocked all of our cast mates and the media who knew we didn't exactly have a positive relationship. But we didn't do it for publicity like many speculated. Sonny and I really grew to love each other and knew we were meant to be together. Once we announced our relationship the rivalry between our two shows was forced to end and, believe it or not, our casts became the best of friends. Tawni and Portlyn bonded by gossiping and taking weekly trips to the spa. They guys played shitty practical jokes on each other and had movie marathons that consisted of Monkey Car 3D. Chastity and Marta took Zora under their wing and did everything together. Of course, we still had our fights but we were family and we always ended up coming back together. That was, until something horrible happened.

Sonny got pregnant.

Of course Sonny wanted to keep the baby, and I was an idiot for even suggesting otherwise. I probably wouldn't have even let her get the abortion when it came down to it. So we then had to tell our boss Marshall, who decided to cancel her show. Everyone that worked on the So Random set begged him to reconsider. They suggested getting a fill-in for the months that Sonny was unable to do the show and even firing her altogether. But Marshall had made up his mind and if you know him, you know that trying to change it was useless. He said he didn't think that having a pregnant teen on a tween show would be good for ratings, so he just cancelled the show before it had a chance to start going downhill. The cast began to resent Sonny for putting them out of a job and she fell into a deep depression during the month they filmed the final episodes of So Random.

She was unhappy. And then she was gone. And there isn't a day that I don't regret letting her go.

I walked into So Random's girl's dressing room moments after a screaming battle between Sonny and Tawni. Usually her fellow cast mates would try and diffuse their battles but ever since the show's cancellation they haven't done anything to stop them and Tawni's words just grew harsher. Sonny was sprawled out on the orange couch and there were tears streaming down her face. This wasn't the first time I've seen Sonny cry because of the situation she was in, but that didn't mean it hurt any less.

"Sonny. Please don't cry. They're just angry right now. This'll all blow over, I promise." I couldn't help but feel bad. Seeing her like this tore me up inside and I hated that I was the one responsible for her tears.

"It's not that," she said before choking out another sob. I scooted closer to her, placing my hand on her thigh. Why else could Sonny be crying? Was it something I did?

"Baby, what is it?" I was beginning to panic and recall everything I could have possibly done to hurt her in the past 24 hours.

"I-I'm leaving." The words sputtered out of her mouth and all I could do was stare at her. What the fuck was she talking about?

"What? Sonny, I don't understand."

"I'm moving back to Wisconsin." With those five words my whole world came crashing down. How could she just move back to cheese country and leave me? I need her here. We need each other.

"What?!" I raised my voice to her and I instantly regretted it when another wave of tears started streaming down her face. She could barely utter an apology as she continued to choke on more sobs. "Sonny. Why are you leaving?" I tried to keep my voice calm while my insides were anything but. Tears stung the back of my eyes and I could feel my chest constricting. Why the fuck would she just decided to pack up and leave?

"My mom." Her voice was barely a whisper. It seemed like she could no longer look at my face so her vision was focused on her pants.

"What the hell does your mom have to do with anything?" I snapped at her, hearing the venom in my own voice.

"My mom said that there's no point in living here anymore since the show's been cancelled. So we're moving back to Wisconsin." Sonny's body curled up into a ball and she cried into her knees. It was all beginning to make sense now. Connie had never exactly been fond of my presence in her daughter's life and this was the perfect excuse to yank her out of it.

"What kind of wacked up logic is that?! Here's a reason to stay in Hollywood: the boy sitting right fucking next to you! We're having a baby for fucks sake!" By now I was fuming. Every ounce of sadness that was in my body just a few minutes ago had disappeared. My hands had balled into tight fists but when I looked up at Sonny's face they instantly slackened. She looked scared, like a deer in the headlights. I brought my hand up to cup her cheek and she flinched as if I was going to hit her. Of course I was mad but I would never even think about hurting like that. "Stay for me."

Her face showed that she was considering it for a moment but then she shook her head out of my hand. "I can't, Chad. Now that the show's cancelled I'm not going to be able to afford living in a house by myself."

"Move in with me. Move in with me, Sonny. We could stay together that way. Just move in with me." My arms slipped around her waist and I pulled her to my chest. I wasn't just clinging on to Sonny; I was clinging onto every last bit of hope out there. But that soon washed away when I realized that my statement only infuriated her.

Her hands immediately went to my chest, shoving me off of her. "And then what, Chad?! Tell the press that you got your sixteen year old girlfriend, the good girl Sonny Munroe, pregnant? And then I suppose you'll tell them that we plan on living happily ever after in your fucking mansion. We can raise the baby together, hey! While we're at it, why don't we have eight billion more kids?! I'm sure there's enough room!"

"Sonny—"

"Just forget it, Chad. I'm going home back to my family and there's nothing you can say that will stop me." She stood up, ready to walk out of her dressing room.

I didn't even need to reach out to stop her because, despite her previous words, what I said shocked her into a halt. "What if I told everyone right now? What if I went to the Tween Weekly office or Sharona and told them that you were pregnant?"

Don't you dare, Chad," she spat at me.

I couldn't help but roll my eyes. "Why? What could be so bad?"

"You would lose everything!" She spun around to look at me and I just stood there, shocked that she resorted back to screaming in order to get her point across. But she no longer looked angry any more, just like she'd finally given up on us. "You've worked for this since you were two! And you would lose everything. Don't you get how fast you would be D-listed in this town? You'd never get an acting job again." I began to protest, to tell her that I wouldn't care, but she shook her head and stopped me before I had the chance to finish. "Don't even start. I know how much it would hurt you. You love acting so much and I would never take that away from you."

"I would give it all up for you." I wasn't lying. I knew what I wanted and that was Sonny. I desperately wanted to spend the rest of my life with her.

This brought her tears back, and they were now coming harder than ever. "Please don't do that. Please. I can't have you give up everything because of me. I couldn't live with myself knowing that…. God, this is my entire fault. If I never came here from Wisconsin…" There she goes again, blaming herself for everything that went wrong in everyone else's lives. "It's true; if I never came here from Wisconsin everything would be perfectly fine. So Random wouldn't be cancelled. Your job would be safe."

"And I never would have fallen in love with the beautiful actress from the show being filmed across the lot who was a beautiful ball of sunshine and had the ability to make me laugh every time I saw her. Did I mention she's beautiful?"

I smiled at the familiar memory. It wasn't exactly a happy memory but I always smiled at and memory of Sonny. Like I said, she had the ability to do that to me.

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