A/N: I did change the title and summary but I hope people remember the story! Basically Sean got back with Ellie after he returns from the war. Emma has just finished collage, (never married Spinner) and is one of the last people still living around Degrassi. If Sean's not for her, then who is?! We all know who is... but she's a stubborn little thing sometimes.
Lets just begin the story by saying the place Emma thought she'd be in life right now, wasn't even close to where she sat right now..On her parents' couch, with a massive hangover, and now jobless.
Liberty was in New York, living her life to the fullest and showing off what her brain could really do. Toby? Off in Africa, doing the best he could with world hunger. Even MANNY was in Hollywood, living like a star she was. But Emma? The girl everyone thought would go further than them, she was eating a veggie burger next to Spinner Mason, and Jay Hogart was coming back with more alcohol.
How did she end up with these two guys? Who knew. Maybe she was as screwed up as they were. But even Spinner had a better life going here than she did. He was The Dots new Manager. And Jay, Jay Hogart, was a mechanic who practically owned Tony's shop. Everyone called him the #1 fix it guy.
Jay seemed to be doing good. Sure his 'fiance' left him high and dry two years ago but lets admit it, Manny was lust and not love. He got over it quick..or under it, lets say, it meaning 100 other girls. He was the same old Jay Hogart in other ways.
Manny was already dating some director guy in Hollywood. She visits now and then, but Emma had to admit she hung out with Jay and Spinner more now.
Emma glumly sat up and looked around with foggy eyes, "Who invited you here?"
Spinner turned from eating his burger, mouth stuffed. "You did." he replied with a mouth full, raising an eyebrow. He swallowed the burger and joked, "Well you had no choice. When you got drunk after finding Sean's invite to his wedding, you showed up at the Dot hammered.."
Right, Emma flushed a little, remembering that and looked on her coffee table, seeing Sean's wedding invitation sitting there for her. The same Sean Cameron who broke her heart at least a gazillion times and she kept going back to him, thinking that meant it was love. When Emma found out Sean returned from war and didn't come back to her? Finding who he did go back to was what really made her have a small breakdown.
FLASHBACK. . .
"..you are formally invited to Sean Camerons a-and.." Emma stopped reading, her vision blurry and she slapped the paper on the Dot's counter, "Does that look like Ellie's name to you?" she asked Spinner.
The Dot's door behind her opened, and Jay walked in, watching Spinner try to handle the intoxicated and delusional blonde on his hands.
A couple by the window even watched with baffled looks. Emma looked a mess, only wearing her black short shorts that Jay was sure she wouldn't of worn outside in her own right mind. She was too respected. Made her ass look great though. And above that, a white tank top with a thrown on blue plaid button up shirt (unbottoned, one side hanging off her shoulder. Her hair looked like it had been curled nicely but now was falling out and slightly damp from the rain outside).
"You're scaring the nice people, Emma." Jay taunted, walking behind her and trying to pull the back of her arm. He wore his signature smirk, but flickered his eyes to the other couple in the diner giving Emma a look.
Emma looked outraged someone was pulling her away from the counter but then looked back when she saw it was Jay.
"YOU!" She grabbed the paper back from Spinners hands who jumped, "Tell me if this-"
"It doesn't look like Ellie's name, Emma. It is." Emma was a little taken back by Jay's firm look, and hard voice. She looked away from his eyes, her own watering.
Jay frowned deeply, watching her try to sink that in. He hated to do it, but someone needed to make her understand. God, he thought she was over Sean a long time ago. Guess not.
She looked down and whispered, "I wanna go home."
Jay glanced at Spinner who spoke up after catching his glance, "She walked here.."
"Fuck Nelson, you walked in this weather?" Jay angered when she tried to get out of his grasp and held her to his side tighter. She wasn't going anywhere. It was storming tonight.
The other couple who was watching the scene, decided to get up and go. They gave Emma and Jay rude looks as they passed, "Would you like to take a picture?!" Emma snapped, until Jay's hand clapped over her mouth and tried to give the couple a plastered grin until they left.
"Let me get my keys and I can lock up." Spinner said, bending down by the counter to grab them.
Emma snickered and rolled her eyes, gazing back up at Jay though as she spoke with a glare, "I'm not going anywhere with you guys."
Spin followed Jay who followed Emma out the door. Spinner locked up as Jay shouted through the rain at Emma, "Get your stupid ass back here!" he waited on the Dots stairs for her. Spinner locked up.
The sky crackled with thunder and Emma did yelp a bit, and then frowned as she looked down at the puddle she stepped in with her now dirty white flip flops. Poor, poor puddle. She was this puddle, who everyone just walked on, and didn't notice anymore. She use to be Emma Nelson, girl of virtue, the crusader, so spirit filled and future ahead! Sean Cameron's pretty little girlfriend. What happened to that girl?
"Open my back door." was all Emma heard as she shrieked when being thrown over Jay's shoulder and carried to his famous orange civic. Spinner opened the door and Jay threw her in.
. . .END OF FLASHBACK
Emma snapped out of it as Jay came back into her house, carrying a half dranken bottle of vodka. He wore his usual black wind breaker and backwards hat, but he was older, sporting a short boxed beard and slightly longer hair that peaked out of his hat. He looked a bit more lean too.
"Well, this is all I got." he informed.
Out of all things, Emma remembered this: Telling Jay she needed more booze.
"Just give it to me." said Emma desperately. Her mouth than parted when he ignored her, sitting on the chair right next to her couch and the spot she sat in. He took the cap off, gulping it down himself as he narrowed his eyes at her.
"As much fun as last night was," joked Spinner, glancing between the two, "I got to go back to work."
With that, he nodded at Jay and left. Emma miserable leaned back, her lower pink lip pouting out a bit childishly but Jay still chuckled before sipping the bottle again. Emma shot him a glare, "If you're going to stay, then give me a shot."
"If you want me to stay, you should be nicer."
Emma just raised an eyebrow, wondering if he'd get the hint she didn't want him to. She then sighed and admitted to herself she didn't want to be alone. She looked down and her shoulders dropped, "I can't believe he's back with her. "
"Maybe she thought the same thing about you when Cameron returned the first time."
Emma rolled her eyes, "So if he loved her, wouldn't he of gone back to her when he returned to Degrassi?"
"Rumor has it he did, in the summer, and she told him to leave her alone." Jay said but didn't look her in the eye as she took this in, her eyes shimmering with tears.
Say that wasn't true...Was that true? Sean had saw Ellie before he blew back into Emma's life in highschool?
"What?!" Emma snapped, "I was second choice?!"
Sean had made such a mess when he did that! Claiming he wanted only her, wrecking her relationship with Peter, going to PRISON! He did all that just for shits and giggles or what? WHAT was Jay Hogart trying to say?
Emma gazed into his eyes with venom, "I really dislike you."
"Fine," Jay snapped, "I'll go."
Emma's mouth fell, her eyes looking bewildered as she watched him stand up and grab his bottle until he stopped when her hands wrapped around his wrist to stop him leaving, "No, wait."
Jay looked down at her, her eyes shimmering and he could never understand why the most beautiful girls were always the most vulnerable and the most afraid to be alone. Why couldn't Emma see she wasn't alone?
"I don't want you to go." A tear ran down her cheek. She looked down and tried to wipe them away. She couldn't even look at him as she spoke again, "My friends are gone. I broke up with Tom weeks ago, he won't care about this. And My family wouldn't understand because they like Sean."
Finally she looked up, a little hope in her eyes. "Don't go..just..stay."
"You hate me." he reminded, eyes flickering up and down her soft features but his hand reached out and brushed her tear away with his thumb and their eyes stayed locked on anothers. He clenched his jaw and looked away. He hated to admit he hated to see her hurt, but she helped him out too when he and Manny broke up. She just didn't know it. The time they spent together after Manny left helped him a lot. They were bickering again like normal, but that made him notice that they didn't do it as often as they use to, and Manny really did take up his time, and he lost some friends and everything in their relationship seemed to be about her. Manny tried to change him. He wasn't as happy with her as he made himself believe. Emma made him see that. He was better off without Manny...
..and then he was falling in love with Emma. Again.
"Only sometimes." she whispered helplessly and he had to chuckle softly.
Her body tensed with want when Jay touched her. Emma bit her lip and couldn't believe what was coming over her, but she always found Jay's touch or Jay's 'consoling' to always be so seductive and most comforting.. why was that?
Jay's eyes too filled with lust when he caught that look she gave him after she had a moment thought while glancing down and then back up at him and she stood up. She unbottoned that plaid shirt of hers and it slipped down her arms. In a trance, Jay watched it slide off her body and she stood in her tight tank top that swelled around those great globes of hers, and also wore those tiny shorts.
Her last ex, Tom, he was an idiot. Some med student who took Emma for granted, thought he was better than everyone, even her. Jay met him once, at the Dot with her, and he could tell he wasn't good enough for her.
Jay now stared into her eyes and she gasped when he grabbed her hard against his body, his large hands wrapped around her arms firmly and she looked up at him almost scared, but still willing as she leaned in when he did too to kiss her, but he leaned back as he warned her with a cold look, "This isn't highschool anymore.." he gazed down her body again, his eyes going stormy. "I won't be able to go just half way. I want the whole thing."
He wanted all this time, not just minor fooling around or teen blow jobs. He wanted the real deal.
Emma was taken back for a second. Her eyes scanned his beautiful features, the grey eyes, the full lips sketched by God, and the chest nut brown hair that brushed against his forehead. As much of an ass Jay Hogart was, nobody, not even her could deny how body melting gorgeous he was or how his words made a girls heart stop. Y
Emma shocked him with her calm reply, "Fine." his eyebrows raised. She nodded and spoke, "We're adults now."
His eyes watched as she backed up just a little and lifted her shirt up and over her head, tossing it to the side and now stood in those short shorts and a lacey white bra that highlighted her tan and golden locks, and it held up those perfect globes beautifully. She could stand there though, looking so unsure of herself even though she had to of had the hottest body he's ever seen. Her smile and eyes weren't horrible either, and he ran his fingers through that long blonde hair of hers he always admired.
Jay cursed under his breath. She was killing him.
"No strings. Just sex." Emma promised.
He paused.
She nodded, for she knew that was probably what he wanted too.
After a moment, he finally nodded back and just closed his eyes and leaned down, kissing her pink little lips passionately. Emma moaned against it, and kissed back as she couldn't believe she forgot how good of a kisser he was. He tasted like fresh apples and waterfalls, and she like vanilla. She knew if Sean ever found out her and Jay were hooking up once again, his ex girl friend and his best friend, it'd drive him overboard. Jay also knew if Sean found out again, he'd get the heat once again too for touching his bestfriends 'girl', but he just didn't care. Sean made his choice, and as bat shit crazy as it was, it was Ellie. Not Emma. Emma was free to take now. Even if just 'no strings'.. for now.
They had made their way to the couch all while ripping off his shirt, then her shorts and as he laid her down they both unbuckled his pants and then he laid over her, spreading her legs.
Now as they laid in her dim living room, naked on the couch, about to start, they stared at another. Jay laid over her, his hardness between her legs and his one hand holding her one thigh up around his waist for better entrance. He was panting from their last kiss, staring at her endlessly and her back at him but biting her lip.
"Ready?" his asked with a deep husky whisper.
She nodded, but bit her lip harder. She wasn't a virgin anymore, so she had nothing to fear there.. but she never had sex with Jay before either. He had so much experience with so many other girls. Meanwhile, she only had Sean, Tom and Kelly. Sean was the best out of the three. But Jay, Jay was the first guy to ever show Emma 'other things', and to be honest, there was more heat between them than ever with Sean. But Sean said 'I love you's' and stayed through the night. Jay didn't. God Sean use to make her feel really loved-
"Stop thinking about him."
Emma snapped out of it. She couldn't believe Jay knew she was thinking about Sean and he gave her a look. "I'm not." she snapped. How did he know!?
He rolled his eyes and Emma's mouth dropped. That jerk! She raised her head and clamped her hand down on the back of his neck to pull him down into her kiss. She kissed him more than she ever kissed anyone and she knew he liked it cause she could still feel his hardness between her legs and it just got harder as their tongues glided together and her chest raised up against his while he almost entered right there and she whimpered into the kiss.
She wanted him now, badly.
His hands caressed the expanse of her stomach, drawing imaginary circles before inching up to her breasts. Emma panted into his mouth and then cried out when he thrusted into her wetness. My god; she was so wet. She threw her head back, eyes shut tight and lifted it back up with a moan and stared into his eyes as he began to thrust in and out again, eyes locked back on hers with a dark passionate look.
Emma bit her lip and cried out again in pleasure, whimpering and moaning as his long thick cock slid up and down between her tight walls. Both her legs lifted and wrapped around his waist and his head leaned down, and took her right nipple into his mouth, swirling his tongue around it while giving its twin equal attention with his hand. He continued fucking her into a bliss and Emma was bucking beneath him and clenching the couch cushion under her.
"Don't stop!" Emma begged, head thrown back into the pillows.
He leaned back down to kiss her and she moaned and whimpered while she tried to kiss him back and her fingers tangled into his hair. He pulled away to tease her as he clenched her hips in his hands, "Why would I?" he smashed his cock in and out of her. She began to shake and only whimper, and he then groaned, feeling her thrust back up against him and he began to feel the sweat drip around his forehead. "Fuck, Emma" he panted, closing his eyes and resting his forehead down on her shoulder. He kissed it softly before gritting his teeth and felt ready to explode.
Emma liked the sound of her name upon his lips. He usually called her Greenpeace, Nelson, or idiot sometimes too. But she liked it when he said her name. She smiled in lust and happiness, shutting her eyes again as she began to feel her climax coming. My god this was crazy, sleeping with Jay, the first guy who ever introduced her to the world of pleasure yet wasn't her first but now her best sex ever as they were once again 'friends with bennifits' or whatever the hell they were. She was sleeping with Seans best friend, her enemy, her frenemy, her- oh my god, her best friends ex. What would Manny think!?
Suddenly Emma didn't care as waves of pleasure rolled in when Jay rollled his hips clock wise and went a little harder and she arched her back to lift her hips into his own thrustful hips. "YES!"
"You like that?" He asked roughly, pounding into Emma even harder.
She arched off the couch, "Yes!"
He laid his head down on her shoulder again as they moved together urgently until he slowed down just as Emma was at breaking point. She gasped and laid back as he moved over her, "faster!" she pleaded, her fingers now drilling down his chest, leaving marks.
Jay knew what he was doing though, and shook his head before he kissed her but whispered before he did, "Slower." they kissed once more, or should we say he kissed her because she could barely focus and was becoming paralyzed by climax.
"JAYY!" she squealed a bit and shut her eyes. It felt good, as orgasms always did but this time, after she even fell back from what should of been the end of the orgasm, it kept going; it was an extended orgasm and she was seeing stars. He was so right, slower was better, made the climax longer and Jay had completely stiffened like she remembered him doing at the ravine years ago when he would come, but this time he groaned as well and shook a little. She felt him inside, exploding.
His hot breath was against her neck, and she panted while she felt him finish too and he panted against her ear, "I love-"
Emma's body stilled.
"Fucking you." he finished with a deep exhale that she joined in on, not noticing she was holding her breath and she felt his body collapse on hers and she tried to catch her breath too as she caressed his hair and giggled a bit.
"I..love being fucked by you too." she joked with a soft, sweet, exhausted giggle and he chuckled in her ear before it went silent.
That was, what he meant to say right?
She bit her lip, and then softly closed her eyes as he maneuvered to the side and just held her naked limp body up against his. "Go to sleep Gp, you're going to need it." he said before too dosing off. He too hesitated before he closed his eyes to sleep.
...that wasn't what he meant to say.
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THE NEXT MORNING.
"I came by to make sure you guys were still alive." joked Spinner the next day, walking into the Dot but for once, not on work duty today
Emma and Jay sat at the Dot's counter, Jay with his head in his hands and Emma, with her horrible habit, biting her bottom lip instead of eating the muffin placed in front of her and just staring at it.
Jay heard Spinner, but ignored as he turned his head towards Emma, "eat." Jay tried to demand of her but she just mooped and shook her head no as Jay looked back at Spinner.
Lets just say, when they woke up? Emma wasn't so comfortable being naked next to Jay anymore, much to his 'shock'. When she rudely declined a morning 'delight', he rudely reminded her about Sean's wedding. This resulted in angry sex with another that then got moved into the shower, to Jay waiting for her to blow dry her hair and get ready, and then him driving them to The Dot to get food that he was sure they both needed from this massive hangover and everything that went down last night and this morning.
Spinner laughed at Jay, "You look entirely wiped out, must of been a hell of a party."
Emma went red and avoided both their glances when Jay too even narrowed his eyes at her to sneak a peak.
"I'll get you some coffee." Spinner insisted, though not even working. "You must be hungover from all that booze and heart break." he disappeared for a moment as Emma glared after him.
She didn't need to be reminded of her heart break while she was sitting here in heartbreak! When she woke up today, she had almost completely forgot about the wedding until Jay, like the bastard he was, brought it up since she pissed him off when she didn't want to give him a morning 'quickie'. A girl needed a break after something like THAT you know?! She could barely walk. Last night was, like, a masterly done porn flick. She had never slept with somebody like that before. She let Jay take control, which was crazy since she was so controlling, and he had made her beg, and come undone, which she never had let anyone do or see before.
She felt personally invaded, but ... also, good. It was really confusing!
Jay leaned closer to Emma as he whispered tauntingly in her ear, "Do we tell him it's not just a hangover? That you're completely exhausted from the best sex you ever-" he groaned when she elbowed her arm back into his stomach
She pointed at him, warning, "If you tell Spinner or anyone that we-"
He lifted his hands up as if she held a gun and she squinted her eyes madly.
"You think you are the best I ever had?" she snorted, but her palms got sweaty, "You're wrong." he just stared bluntly at her, which made her anger rise higher but was cut off when Spinner came back over. It didn't stop her from wanting to slap that smirk off Jay's face that he gave her as Spinner began to talk.
"So did you figure out what you're going to do? With Sean's wedding?"
"No Spinner, I haven't!" Emma snapped as the guys blinked and shared a glance, Jay shrugged like he had no idea what her problem was but his smirk turned to a grin.
Emma scoffed and shut her eyes to think to then open them and raise her hand, "On one hand, I've been friends with Sean a really long time.. Maybe I should go."
"You were never friends." Jay taunted her
Spinner agreed, "I don't even think between any break ups that you guys were ever friends."
"Well I can't remember a time in my childhood where he was never there, okay? So that's important to me!" she snapped back and both of them just rolled their eyes. "On the other hand.." she drifted, "If I don't go, I save the awkwardness between me and Ellie and I don't make it hard for Sean..or myself. Or Ellie."
"Maybe she wouldn't feel threatened if you went." Jay didn't know why, but he liked getting under her skin about this, liked reminding her that it was Ellie with Sean now, not her. Liked reminding her that she wasn't Sean's one and only anymore, that he picked Ellie. He did this because Sean and Emma use to annoy him, but now it made him sick and he wanted it to just end.
Why couldn't Emma just move on? How many chances had she given Sean in the past?
Spinner chimed in, "I'm sure she knows Sean invited you. Why wouldn't he tell her? It's her own wedding, right?"
If a cartoon, Emma's ears would of blown smoke, "I don't need your guys' opinion right now, okay?!"
Jay put a finger up, "Just one more," he insisted. She narrowed her eyes, but softened and let him proceed since he looked serious this time. "If you don't go, you look bitter, but if you do go.. well, you should already know this, but you're still going to look bitter because you can't hide your emotions very well." he said knowingly.
Emma looked up in thought, and when she looked back at him with a small gasp, he waited for her to yell at him but what shocked him was her smiling brightly at him, "Jay, you're an evil genius!"
He turned his head confused, eyeing her up and down strangely and nodded slowly, "Yes, I know..but what's that have to do with this?"
She bit her lip until her smiling was too big to hold down. "I'm going to the wedding, I'll just have to act not so bitter." she smirked, "I'll bring a date."
Jay stiffened and glared, "That'll work." he snorted bitterly.
Spinner added, "You're not really going to be the 'happy for you' ex girlfriend, are you?" Emma shook her head no. He squinted his eyes, "Are you going to ruin the wedding?"
Emma shrugged innocently and stated, "That's up to Sean."
"What's that mean?" Jay asked.
She looked up as if still in denial and she probably was, "If he still has feelings for me, then obviously a wedding can't occur. We'll just have to see."
Jay leaned back on the table to rub his eyes tiredly, "You are one cruel girl when you want something you can't have.."
"Who says I can't have him? If he still loves me-"
"Do you even still love him?" snapped Jay. Emma jumped a bit from his anger. He snickered, "You and Sean were one of the worst couples I've ever seen, and I had been the guy who serial cheated on a lesbian before."
Spinner laughed, and Emma rolled her eyes.
"We weren't THAT bad." Emma whispered. Her mom had always told her ' love was hard', so that's probably what she meant, you know, how her and Sean always fought..that must of been the hard part, so they just had to work through it. Get back together. For the 100th time.
Jay shot back, "He took you on a roller coaster ride for years, and you thought you had all the control. News flash, you didn't. You were Sean's puppet. You'd get a new guy and he'd come storming back as if making sure he still had you wrapped around his finger. And he did." he eyed Emma harder, watching her having trouble swallowing down her pride and tears. "He still does." he turned his head away from her.
Emma felt stung, pledged in the heart, knife in the back. Heart ripped out.
"Manny was right," she snapped at Jay, getting up, "No wonder you can't keep a girlfriend, they couldn't stand the cold." she said scornfully to Jay.
He just sneered the way she stormed off, turning back the counter before glaring at it and then his shoulders droppped, looking back the way she went. He frowned and caught Spinners look. "What?" he snapped, angry again.
Spinner shrugged with a smile