DISCLAIMER

DISCLAIMER: I own none of these characters nor the universe they are portrayed in. All characters are based on South Park and its world. This story takes place while the children are 2 years ahead of where they were, so primary characters are in 6th grade. As a result this story will reflect their journey through puberty and discovering themselves sexually with each other as well as romantically. South Park has always had their star characters as children who act in a mature theme, this story is no different from that expectation. As a result if reading about 13/14 year olds engaging in sexual activities with each other offends you or seeing an interaction of these characters on a gay theme bothers you, feel free to find another story and if not, enjoy :)

Chapter 1 - Epiphany

Craig looked at the floor in front of him while sitting on the edge of his bed. His face hung low as he stared blankly and emotionless at the thoughts of his past few years.

Knock knock...

There was a moment of silence before the sound permeated through the door into Craig's room once again.

Knock knock…

Craig looked up at the door staring blankly as the sound of rain fell slowly outside his window, tapping lightly on the window seal. He waited as he heard his phone buzz and beep indicating he had a text. He didn't smile or frown, he just looked down at his phone still stunned.

"Hey, dude, it's Kyle, mind if I come in?" Craig got up, opened the door to his room, turned to go back to his bed and sat in the exact spot he left. Kyle peaked his head into the room some before finally walking in and closing the door behind him. "I noticed you weren't at school today. Is everything ok man?"

Craig continued to stare down at the floor while he responded to him, "Kyle...how old are we?"

Silence fell between them as he looked confused but replied, "13 dude."

This time he looked at Kyle before saying, "2 years...2 years I have allowed myself to ignore this...feeling like shit for what I've done."

"What are you talking about man?" Kyle asked concerned.

"Tweek...why the fuck did I let him go? He trusted me, he wanted to help fix me and I never returned that feeling. I pretended I was gay because people said the Japanese are what makes people gay." Craig returned his look to the floor, "but we all know that's not so when I figured that out I broke up with him and hurt him. Up till now I have not regretted that decision nor cared. Now...I feel like I fucked up."

Kyle tilted his head slightly out of pity, "dude….I had no idea, I thought you just were trying to be straight again."

Craig sighed, "I WAS trying to be straight again. Yesterday it just clicked for me, it doesn't matter ...any of it, it doesn't matter if I'm gay or straight. Tweek cared for me, he wanted to be with me and I shot him down. I realized I cared for him in the same way, does that make me gay? I don't know, I just know how I feel about him...maybe it is just him. None of it matters now, I fucked up and Tweek has moved on."

Kyle put his arm around Craig, "dude, no one has ever judged you two for going out. The guys may not show it because we are guys, but we did support you two...hell even Cartman and you know how he is. I have no idea what will happen now, but I'm not sure if you noticed or not, Tweek never recovered from what you did to him by breaking up. Over the past few years, he has actually isolated himself from everyone. I have no idea if he will forgive you, but dude you have to try if you even remotely feel the same way he does."

The rain began to stop slowly and Craig raised his head slightly to now stare at the door once again, "He would never forgive me, and I wouldn't blame him. I think I want to spend some time alone now Kyle."

Looking at his friend while getting up he said, "are you sure dude? You will be at school tomorrow right?"

Craig looked up at Kyle for a moment and shook his head in the affirmative and then laid back on the bed to stare at the ceiling.

The day passed slowly for Craig, almost like living in a jail cell. His mom called him down for dinner and he complied eating silently before returning to his cell. The level of idiocy he had displayed just continued to run through his mind and finally, his numbness passed and for the first time since breaking up with Tweek 2 years ago he shed a tear. That one tear drop started at the corner of his right eye and pooled. Another tear came forth pushing the first one sliding down his cheek and to his lips. In that salty tear he felt it more intensely, the hatred he felt for himself for allowing this to go as far as it has and the guilt he felt for hurting Tweek the way he did. The hours had passed and he dozed off to sleep.

The next day came and Kyle smiled when he saw Craig walking through the doors into the school, Cartman had a sour attitude, "what's with you gaywad?" Kyle's happiness at Craig getting back to normal quickly went south hearing this, "shut up fat ass!" Craig saw Tweek as he was walking to his locker, "Tweek!" Tweek turned to see Craig walking toward him and at that moment he felt what Craig felt all of the past day and a half but in the span of a few seconds. He didn't have time to sort through feelings of insecurity, guilt, resentment, anger, sadness, or happiness. He felt numb and just freaked out, "Craig, GAH, WHAT DO YOU WANT?!"

Craig had a look of shock on his face but realized he deserved anything Tweek threw at him. "Look Tweek, I wanted to apologize…"

Tweek's face contorted to a hybrid of anger and contentment at the same time, "what the hell for? Ugh!"

Looking down at the floor Craig started to respond but heard the voice in his head saying, wow dude you are a fucking pussy! Look him in the eye you dumbass jerk! Craig's eyes shot up and looked at Tweek's expression in horror and started to second guess if this was the right decision. No! I have to do this, I've been chicken shit long enough! He sighed and sort of blurted it out in a long but very fast response, "I'm sorry I broke up with you, I was fucked up, maybe I still am. I broke up with you because no matter what the Japanese says, I am NOT gay...but at the same time I still care about you and I am a fucking retard for not realizing that sooner and I hope that i didn't hurt you too bad and oh would you take me back?" He tensed up as he waited for a reply.

Tweek stared at him pissed, then looked at the floor worried before returning this gaze on Craig pissed once again, "YOU FUCKING BROKE MY HEART YOU DOUCEBAG! WHY THE FUCK SHOULD I CARE ENOUGH TO GET BACK TOGETHER WITH YOU?!" Tweek was steaming mad as he started to have a panic attack and breathing harder and harder.

Craig's tension switched to horror once again and feeling worried about Tweek; and his worry was of now as well as their future together which seemed to be dissolving with every word that came out his mouth. "Tweek...I don't…"

"No, you don't care, you didn't fucking think did you? You just acted like always, heartless and uncaring. You said fuck you Tweek and put your own insecurities before our relationship. You never even gave me a chance to try and talk to you, you just all at once on your own ended it. Now you want me to forgive you for that? GAH! Grow the fuck up Craig!" Tweek slammed his locker shut and stormed off.

Craig slowly walked over to the set of lockers nearest him and started to bang his head against them. He kept banging his head as he murmured quietly, "fucking idiot, fucking moron, what the fuck was you thinking? How the hell did you expect him to forgive you?" He didn't notice Tweek glance back and see Craig writing in pain over that conversation. Tweek paused for a moment after hearing this but turned and walked off.

Kyle was passing by and by this point, Craig had stopped banging his head against the locker but kept it leaned up against the locker resting it on the door. "Dude, are you ok? What happened?"

Craig turned around, leaned against the row of lockers and slid down slowly on his ass while keeping his eyes on the floor, "exactly what I thought might happen. He fucking hates me, he doesn't forgive me, I hurt him too badly Kyle, I have to face it….I lost Tweek for good."

Kyle's face now hit the level of horror Craig saw and he plopped down next to him and put his arm around him, "no dude, you can't think that and you can't give up. If you do, you WILL lose him for good."

Craig sunk his head into his hands, "I never realized how much I need him, dude...I never realized how much I care for him, how much I...love him, until now. I know I sound desperate, maybe even stupid, but it's true man."

Kyle rubbed his back, "Craig, look at me." Craig raised his head and looked slowly toward Kyle, his face puffy and his eyes soaked with tears. "Dude...you really love him don't you?"

The bell rang for class as Craig wiped his eyes, "yes I do...but none of it matters now dude, I was right...he's over me man." Craig got up and walked off to class with hands in his pockets and head sunk down in depression.

Thanks for reading, hope you enjoyed Chapter 1, look for Chapter 2 coming soon. My goal is to release a chapter every Friday if I miss a Friday it would probably be the next one before I get to upload it. Please leave any comments as to any major grammatically errors you see xD I am not the best at grammar, my major concern is syntax more than anything, making sure the sentence flows well :) As always I also welcome any comments for suggestions or ways to improve.