Title: Ella
Author: Ruthie
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Category: Angst, Drama
Spoilers: Singularity
Summary: Sam is given something she thought she could never have.
Author Notes: Been working on this for a while now. Many thanks to everyone who has sent me feedback over the past few months - I wouldn't be here without you.
Disclaimer:All publicly recognisable characters and places are the property of MGM, World Gekko Corp and Double Secret productions. This piece of fan fiction was created for entertainment not monetary purposes and no infringement on copyrights or trademarks was intended. Previously unrecognised characters and places, and this story, are copyrighted to the author. Any similarity to real persons, living or dead is coincidental and not intended by the author.
~Ella~
Copyright © 2004, Ruth
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When it finally dawned on me, the realisation that I might never be able to have a normal child, it felt as if someone had shot me square in the chest. Every day, I had to look at happy couples wandering around with their children in their arms, holding onto their hands, I knew that this would never be a reality for me. The naquadah in my blood has already meant that I can't see a doctor outside of Cheyenne mountain, and if I was to conceive a child, the chances are that the same would go for them. I don't think I could put a child through that. My child.
When I sit in my lab late into the night, I try to think about other things. My work - how my life would be different if I didn't work at Stargate command. I try to tell myself that my job is my life, that without this work I would be nothing - but a little voice at the back of my head is just whispering, what if?
It's most painful when I see Janet with Cassie. Don't get me wrong, Janet is a great mother and the two of them have developed a very close bond, but I was the one that went into that bunker with her! I was the one who sat in that room with her for hours on end when she didn't want to be alone. Why did I decide not to take her?
Now it's me who's ended up alone.
**********
The planet that we'd been sent to was much like the others. It appeared to be uninhabited, there were plenty of trees (for Colonel O'Neill's benefit) and Daniel even found some ancient artefacts. The strangest thing was the pair of suns - two, when we were only used to one. Teal'c didn't seem to be phased, but Daniel was fascinated. Like a child in a toy shop, he would look up from his artefacts and a huge grin spread over his face. He made me smile.
I, however, had nothing to do. I'd taken all of my mineral samples, and was playing absently with the computer when I heard footsteps behind me. I had come to recognise them as Colonel O'Neill's. The heavy tread, accompanied by the occasional scuff, told me that it was him standing there. I turned around to face him.
"Sir?"
"Bored, Carter?" He asked, a grin appearing on his face.
"Possibly, sir," I answered, smiling back, "Enough trees for your liking, sir?"
"Come here," Jack said, "Teal'c! We're going for a little recon! Keep an eye on Indiana Jackson, would ya?"
"Indeed, O'Neill," Teal'c replied, and went to stand behind Daniel, who was still absorbed in his artefacts.
"Where are we going?" I asked, falling into step beside Jack.
"Recon," he replied. "There must be something to do on this planet, and we usually come across some people."
"This planet is uninhabited," I reminded him.
"How many times have we thought that, and then been ambushed by a group of people?" Jack asked. "Just to be sure, Major."
**********
She moved through the trees, watching the pair of them walk together. Pulling aside a branch, she looked carefully at the woman. Her hair was the same colour, and her eyes were a beautiful blue. The man was taller, and he was holding a large, black thing. What was it? She'd never seen one before. Her curiosity got the better of her, and she continued walking barefoot through the undergrowth, following their every move.
**********
"Sir?" I asked suddenly.
"Yeah?" he replied, looking at me, shielding his eyes from the glare of the two suns.
"Did you hear something?" I asked carefully, looking behind me. Nobody was there.
"No." He replied, with a smirk, "If you're hearing things again, Carter…"
"With respect, sir," I grinned, "Shut up."
He was about to reply when I heard it again. A heavy footfall, not unlike that of a jaffa.
"Okay…I heard it too that time," Jack admitted, one hand going to his P-90.
I turned around again, in a circle, but there was nothing to be seen. I could practically feel the tenseness of my CO beside me, and all of my senses were on high alert.
**********
She watched them intently. Why had they stopped? She took a step forwards, then another, and another. Still watching the man and woman, she took another step and her bare foot encountered something cold and metallic. She looked upwards into the face of a jaffa, and screamed.
**********
Jack spun around, heading towards the source of the scream.
"Hello?" he asked.
We began to run.
**********
The jaffa looked down at her with a cruel smile, and thrust his staff weapon into her chest. She fell to the floor, dropping her precious parcel that she held within her arms. The jaffa bent down to pick it up, but she lunged at him. Quickly, he turned his weapon on her and fired, enjoying the sound of her scream. He turned back to the parcel, and bent to pick it up.
That was when the bullet slammed into his back, and he fell to the ground beside his victim.
**********
"Over here!" Jack shouted, dropping beside the jaffa.
"He's definitely dead," Jack replied, watching the glow in his eyes go out.
"What about her?" I asked, dropping beside the woman. I put my fingers to her neck and felt a very weak, fluttering pulse.
"Hello?" Jack asked, falling to my side.
"Please…" she said softly, pushing the parcel towards me.
Tentatively, I took it from her, but didn't look inside.
"We're gonna get you out of here," I tried to reassure her, "You'll be fine."
She shook her head and smiled at me sadly.
"Take…care…" she said, grabbing my hand and squeezing it. "Please."
"I…okay," I said, looking at Jack in confusion.
Then, I felt her grip loosen on my hand. She had died.
Jack walked away to radio Daniel and Teal'c, whilst I decided to examine what was in the parcel. I picked it up and unwrapped it, and when it moved I almost dropped it in shock.
Carefully, I pulled back the blanket and saw a tiny baby looking back at me. The baby made no sound, but its eyes fixed on mine and didn't move for what seemed like an eternity. I just kept looking at it, in a trance. In fact, I only looked away when Colonel O'Neill kept tapping me on the shoulder.
"Carter," he said, "I'll take it."
I looked down at the child nestled in my arms, and back up at him.
"No. It's okay, I'm fine," I said, standing up carefully and turning away.
**********
The strangest feeling had arisen inside of me. I felt a need to protect this baby. It wasn't something I had ever felt before - and I wasn't sure whether I liked it or not.
When we got back to Danny and Teal'c, Jack offered to take the kid off of me again. Again, I refused. I heard the three of them talking as I walked ahead of them. I suppose they have a right to - I've never been like this around babies before. Usually I try to remain detached from them, but this time was different.
It was the kid's dying mother's wish that I should look after it. How could I let her down?
The thought suddenly came to me that I didn't know whether the baby was a boy or a girl. Stealing a look behind me, I checked that the guys weren't examining me too closely. Lifting up the rag a little, I had my answer. She was a girl.
**********
When we got back to the SGC, I went immediately to the infirmary to get her checked out by Janet.
**********
"Well, hi there," Janet smiled, taking her from my arms, "Let's have a look at you."
The child began to cry as Janet examined her, and didn't seem like she would stop. Even when Janet found her a dummy, she just spat it out and continued crying.
I could see one of the nurses getting agitated in the corner of the room, as well as an airman who was sitting up in bed, with bandages around his head. I got up from where Janet was talking to me and went over to the cot.
"Hey there," I said softly, "Ssh."
Her crying slowed to a quiet gurgle, and she held out her little arms to me. I smiled back at her, and pulled her into my arms. She was warm, and it was the most wonderful feeling I have ever felt to have her next to me.
**********
Janet studied Sam closely from the other side of the room. It was true, she had never seen Sam act like this around a child before. Something about the peaceful scene before her made her smile, and she quietly left the room to find General Hammond.
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To Be Continued
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More to come soon!!
Author: Ruthie
Author Feedback: jm-webmistress@fsmail.net
Category: Angst, Drama
Spoilers: Singularity
Summary: Sam is given something she thought she could never have.
Author Notes: Been working on this for a while now. Many thanks to everyone who has sent me feedback over the past few months - I wouldn't be here without you.
Disclaimer:All publicly recognisable characters and places are the property of MGM, World Gekko Corp and Double Secret productions. This piece of fan fiction was created for entertainment not monetary purposes and no infringement on copyrights or trademarks was intended. Previously unrecognised characters and places, and this story, are copyrighted to the author. Any similarity to real persons, living or dead is coincidental and not intended by the author.
~Ella~
Copyright © 2004, Ruth
**********
When it finally dawned on me, the realisation that I might never be able to have a normal child, it felt as if someone had shot me square in the chest. Every day, I had to look at happy couples wandering around with their children in their arms, holding onto their hands, I knew that this would never be a reality for me. The naquadah in my blood has already meant that I can't see a doctor outside of Cheyenne mountain, and if I was to conceive a child, the chances are that the same would go for them. I don't think I could put a child through that. My child.
When I sit in my lab late into the night, I try to think about other things. My work - how my life would be different if I didn't work at Stargate command. I try to tell myself that my job is my life, that without this work I would be nothing - but a little voice at the back of my head is just whispering, what if?
It's most painful when I see Janet with Cassie. Don't get me wrong, Janet is a great mother and the two of them have developed a very close bond, but I was the one that went into that bunker with her! I was the one who sat in that room with her for hours on end when she didn't want to be alone. Why did I decide not to take her?
Now it's me who's ended up alone.
**********
The planet that we'd been sent to was much like the others. It appeared to be uninhabited, there were plenty of trees (for Colonel O'Neill's benefit) and Daniel even found some ancient artefacts. The strangest thing was the pair of suns - two, when we were only used to one. Teal'c didn't seem to be phased, but Daniel was fascinated. Like a child in a toy shop, he would look up from his artefacts and a huge grin spread over his face. He made me smile.
I, however, had nothing to do. I'd taken all of my mineral samples, and was playing absently with the computer when I heard footsteps behind me. I had come to recognise them as Colonel O'Neill's. The heavy tread, accompanied by the occasional scuff, told me that it was him standing there. I turned around to face him.
"Sir?"
"Bored, Carter?" He asked, a grin appearing on his face.
"Possibly, sir," I answered, smiling back, "Enough trees for your liking, sir?"
"Come here," Jack said, "Teal'c! We're going for a little recon! Keep an eye on Indiana Jackson, would ya?"
"Indeed, O'Neill," Teal'c replied, and went to stand behind Daniel, who was still absorbed in his artefacts.
"Where are we going?" I asked, falling into step beside Jack.
"Recon," he replied. "There must be something to do on this planet, and we usually come across some people."
"This planet is uninhabited," I reminded him.
"How many times have we thought that, and then been ambushed by a group of people?" Jack asked. "Just to be sure, Major."
**********
She moved through the trees, watching the pair of them walk together. Pulling aside a branch, she looked carefully at the woman. Her hair was the same colour, and her eyes were a beautiful blue. The man was taller, and he was holding a large, black thing. What was it? She'd never seen one before. Her curiosity got the better of her, and she continued walking barefoot through the undergrowth, following their every move.
**********
"Sir?" I asked suddenly.
"Yeah?" he replied, looking at me, shielding his eyes from the glare of the two suns.
"Did you hear something?" I asked carefully, looking behind me. Nobody was there.
"No." He replied, with a smirk, "If you're hearing things again, Carter…"
"With respect, sir," I grinned, "Shut up."
He was about to reply when I heard it again. A heavy footfall, not unlike that of a jaffa.
"Okay…I heard it too that time," Jack admitted, one hand going to his P-90.
I turned around again, in a circle, but there was nothing to be seen. I could practically feel the tenseness of my CO beside me, and all of my senses were on high alert.
**********
She watched them intently. Why had they stopped? She took a step forwards, then another, and another. Still watching the man and woman, she took another step and her bare foot encountered something cold and metallic. She looked upwards into the face of a jaffa, and screamed.
**********
Jack spun around, heading towards the source of the scream.
"Hello?" he asked.
We began to run.
**********
The jaffa looked down at her with a cruel smile, and thrust his staff weapon into her chest. She fell to the floor, dropping her precious parcel that she held within her arms. The jaffa bent down to pick it up, but she lunged at him. Quickly, he turned his weapon on her and fired, enjoying the sound of her scream. He turned back to the parcel, and bent to pick it up.
That was when the bullet slammed into his back, and he fell to the ground beside his victim.
**********
"Over here!" Jack shouted, dropping beside the jaffa.
"He's definitely dead," Jack replied, watching the glow in his eyes go out.
"What about her?" I asked, dropping beside the woman. I put my fingers to her neck and felt a very weak, fluttering pulse.
"Hello?" Jack asked, falling to my side.
"Please…" she said softly, pushing the parcel towards me.
Tentatively, I took it from her, but didn't look inside.
"We're gonna get you out of here," I tried to reassure her, "You'll be fine."
She shook her head and smiled at me sadly.
"Take…care…" she said, grabbing my hand and squeezing it. "Please."
"I…okay," I said, looking at Jack in confusion.
Then, I felt her grip loosen on my hand. She had died.
Jack walked away to radio Daniel and Teal'c, whilst I decided to examine what was in the parcel. I picked it up and unwrapped it, and when it moved I almost dropped it in shock.
Carefully, I pulled back the blanket and saw a tiny baby looking back at me. The baby made no sound, but its eyes fixed on mine and didn't move for what seemed like an eternity. I just kept looking at it, in a trance. In fact, I only looked away when Colonel O'Neill kept tapping me on the shoulder.
"Carter," he said, "I'll take it."
I looked down at the child nestled in my arms, and back up at him.
"No. It's okay, I'm fine," I said, standing up carefully and turning away.
**********
The strangest feeling had arisen inside of me. I felt a need to protect this baby. It wasn't something I had ever felt before - and I wasn't sure whether I liked it or not.
When we got back to Danny and Teal'c, Jack offered to take the kid off of me again. Again, I refused. I heard the three of them talking as I walked ahead of them. I suppose they have a right to - I've never been like this around babies before. Usually I try to remain detached from them, but this time was different.
It was the kid's dying mother's wish that I should look after it. How could I let her down?
The thought suddenly came to me that I didn't know whether the baby was a boy or a girl. Stealing a look behind me, I checked that the guys weren't examining me too closely. Lifting up the rag a little, I had my answer. She was a girl.
**********
When we got back to the SGC, I went immediately to the infirmary to get her checked out by Janet.
**********
"Well, hi there," Janet smiled, taking her from my arms, "Let's have a look at you."
The child began to cry as Janet examined her, and didn't seem like she would stop. Even when Janet found her a dummy, she just spat it out and continued crying.
I could see one of the nurses getting agitated in the corner of the room, as well as an airman who was sitting up in bed, with bandages around his head. I got up from where Janet was talking to me and went over to the cot.
"Hey there," I said softly, "Ssh."
Her crying slowed to a quiet gurgle, and she held out her little arms to me. I smiled back at her, and pulled her into my arms. She was warm, and it was the most wonderful feeling I have ever felt to have her next to me.
**********
Janet studied Sam closely from the other side of the room. It was true, she had never seen Sam act like this around a child before. Something about the peaceful scene before her made her smile, and she quietly left the room to find General Hammond.
**********
To Be Continued
**********
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