I wrote this after a family incident recently…
Please review. (Sometimes I wonder why I even write that…)
Screaming,
Yelling,
There is just no telling…
When this nightmare will end…
Why do you fight?
And roar?
And shout?
You kick!
You punch!
You slap!
YOU FIGHT!
But…
Why?
What will it do?
I beg you to stop and listen to one another,
But it's simply no use…
Why do I bother?
I scream for the arguing to stop,
But you don't give a shit!
You've never cared!
So what if I cry!
So what if I'm scared!
So what if I tremble with the pain of seeing those I love tear each other to shreds!
So what!
That's all you say!
So…
You smash another cup!
Throw another plate!
Rip another picture…
I can't stand it!
HELP ME!
All I want is to smile,
To laugh,
To sing,
To dance.
But the problem is…
Life's not so simple anymore…
This is not a family!
This is not a home!
This is not love!
But,
It's all I have…
So I'll swap broken plates and cups…
I'll replace the tattered pictures for new ones…
If only I could do that to this torn family and my worn out heart…
But sadly life doesn't work that way.
And I have a reputation as the girl who is always bubbly, to uphold!
As far as the world is concerned I know no pain or sorrow!
I am supposed to be happy!
And cheerful!
Never gloomy!
Or depressed!
For I am Sonny Monroe!
As long as I keep cleaning up the mess…
Everything will be okay…
Or so… I hope…
I've never really had a normal family, it's always full of anger and pain, but writing makes it easier to pretend things are gonna be alright someday…
xxXxx