A Fushigi Yuugi fic
Wishing on the Same star------------------By Venus
*I am using the horoscopes of the seishi to explain why they act the way they are. It is quite accurate
Scorpio,water element : the mysterious, the charming, cold externally, passionate underneath, intelligent, scheming, when put under pressure becomes ruthless
Libra,air element : loyal, charismatic, friendly, proud, diplomatic, loyal, filled with passion, diplomatic, friendly, needy and vulnerable
Virgo, earth: innocent, curious, blunt, rash, possessive of loved ones, diffident or shy
Nakago-------------------scorpio
I slammed the table furious that I had let my temper get to me. I had actually screamed at those imbeciles. Even though it was my fault, for not planning more meticulously. The Emperor was going to laugh at this. I, the great shogun hated being ridiculed. Humiliation, cold, fury seeped.
The tent flap tugged. "WHAT?" I roared.
"Nakagosama." It was her, eyes lowered, offering to treat my backwound. I allowed hr to do so. How could the canon have come from the back, and I had not remembered that the mountain guerillas used sneaky tactics?
"Please don't blame yourself. It was also our fault, more than your own."
"I will think what I like. You will not tell me. I do not require your services tonight, and Soi, report to His highness our losses. I will account for them when we return."
When her footsteps had retreated, I hugged myself forcing my mind to stop wandering. But it always did. Whenever these battles were in vain, reminding me of the weaknesses I had. I hated this. I was NOT that child so long ago. My kaasan dead.. My fault. I'm sorry I killed you, I only wanted to help. But I was too stupid to understand. I miss you so deeply. I tried to, have always tried to convince myself that you are watching over me just like those tales about our ancestors. But I feel no touch. No concern.
I am truly alone.
It was hard not to dwell on it, and I cried the energy dry. My heart was shattered, I longed for my mother's soft touch to make me whole and loved once again. A chuckle.
"Who's there?" I whispered. Shit if it was any of the others seeing their leader in ruins, I composed myself. Squinting, I supposed it was some movement flicking here and there. Was it a naughty spirit? It flicked on the oil lamp.
"I dropped in hearing you crying."
"It's none of your business." I snapped lying down. The light flickered, flicked and then got so bright. It pierced through the lids when I had forced them close. I got a blanket and dumped it over the lamp. The light hissed out.
"Ow." That would teach the thing some manners. Especially on such a lousy night. I wished I hadn't sent Soi away. Stop don't think, I can do this. I have coped.
"Ya like the girl don't ya?"
"You know nothing," I told it whatever IT was. "Disappear now or I will."
"You what, ki-blast every living thing and all the innocent civilians. Nakago, where is your heart?"
It has gone cold and died. No use heating it up for it will hurt. Do you expect me to weep over all the deaths in battle? I vow not to so it wouldn't hurt anymore. I will forever be rejected and resorted to torture. The thing was quiet and just when I thought it was gone, said loudly, "I can make your wound feel better ya know. Just lie still and a miracle will take place."
I almost laughed, almost. "All right not that, physical is manageable, I just want my mother." Why had I blurted that out? Tears came. I couldn't stop it, hold back. Pain blocked out. The bug burst into a spark and I saw whiteness.
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It was a new place. Somewhere that was unearthly. I walked on, feeling more and more drained. Two people chasing flowers. Then the smaller one pointed. He was.. Me! Then she was mother.
"Kaasan!"
"Ayuru, it Is you." We hugged. She DID, then I was not dreaming. She wasn't dead. Not at all. I was not to be alone anymore. I didn't have to miss her anymore.
The bug chuckled at the peaceful smile on the man's face. He slept soundly and his wound was not hurting, it was healing fine. It whizzed out.
*I am using the horoscopes of the seishi to explain why they act the way they are. It is quite accurate
Scorpio,water element : the mysterious, the charming, cold externally, passionate underneath, intelligent, scheming, when put under pressure becomes ruthless
Libra,air element : loyal, charismatic, friendly, proud, diplomatic, loyal, filled with passion, diplomatic, friendly, needy and vulnerable
Virgo, earth: innocent, curious, blunt, rash, possessive of loved ones, diffident or shy
Nakago-------------------scorpio
I slammed the table furious that I had let my temper get to me. I had actually screamed at those imbeciles. Even though it was my fault, for not planning more meticulously. The Emperor was going to laugh at this. I, the great shogun hated being ridiculed. Humiliation, cold, fury seeped.
The tent flap tugged. "WHAT?" I roared.
"Nakagosama." It was her, eyes lowered, offering to treat my backwound. I allowed hr to do so. How could the canon have come from the back, and I had not remembered that the mountain guerillas used sneaky tactics?
"Please don't blame yourself. It was also our fault, more than your own."
"I will think what I like. You will not tell me. I do not require your services tonight, and Soi, report to His highness our losses. I will account for them when we return."
When her footsteps had retreated, I hugged myself forcing my mind to stop wandering. But it always did. Whenever these battles were in vain, reminding me of the weaknesses I had. I hated this. I was NOT that child so long ago. My kaasan dead.. My fault. I'm sorry I killed you, I only wanted to help. But I was too stupid to understand. I miss you so deeply. I tried to, have always tried to convince myself that you are watching over me just like those tales about our ancestors. But I feel no touch. No concern.
I am truly alone.
It was hard not to dwell on it, and I cried the energy dry. My heart was shattered, I longed for my mother's soft touch to make me whole and loved once again. A chuckle.
"Who's there?" I whispered. Shit if it was any of the others seeing their leader in ruins, I composed myself. Squinting, I supposed it was some movement flicking here and there. Was it a naughty spirit? It flicked on the oil lamp.
"I dropped in hearing you crying."
"It's none of your business." I snapped lying down. The light flickered, flicked and then got so bright. It pierced through the lids when I had forced them close. I got a blanket and dumped it over the lamp. The light hissed out.
"Ow." That would teach the thing some manners. Especially on such a lousy night. I wished I hadn't sent Soi away. Stop don't think, I can do this. I have coped.
"Ya like the girl don't ya?"
"You know nothing," I told it whatever IT was. "Disappear now or I will."
"You what, ki-blast every living thing and all the innocent civilians. Nakago, where is your heart?"
It has gone cold and died. No use heating it up for it will hurt. Do you expect me to weep over all the deaths in battle? I vow not to so it wouldn't hurt anymore. I will forever be rejected and resorted to torture. The thing was quiet and just when I thought it was gone, said loudly, "I can make your wound feel better ya know. Just lie still and a miracle will take place."
I almost laughed, almost. "All right not that, physical is manageable, I just want my mother." Why had I blurted that out? Tears came. I couldn't stop it, hold back. Pain blocked out. The bug burst into a spark and I saw whiteness.
******************************
It was a new place. Somewhere that was unearthly. I walked on, feeling more and more drained. Two people chasing flowers. Then the smaller one pointed. He was.. Me! Then she was mother.
"Kaasan!"
"Ayuru, it Is you." We hugged. She DID, then I was not dreaming. She wasn't dead. Not at all. I was not to be alone anymore. I didn't have to miss her anymore.
The bug chuckled at the peaceful smile on the man's face. He slept soundly and his wound was not hurting, it was healing fine. It whizzed out.