Summer Blues
"Would you stop lying to me, Hannah?"
But I had to lie, didn't she understand that the truth was way worse then any lie I could ever tell? The truth hurts, it stings, it will murder you.
"What was the question again?"
I'm stalling, I know that. She knows that so I just sigh and say the first thing that comes out of my mouth. "Okay fine! I slept with him."
The words are foreign coming out of my mouth, but she doesn't seem to notice that, she's hurt and she's out for blood. I wouldn't be surprised if she punched me in the face then and there. I would have deserved her punch, I would've deserved all the blood loss because even then it still wouldn't have made me feel any better. I would still have done what I did and I still wouldn't have told her.
"I'm sorry! It just happened, okay?"
And that was the truth, it did just happen. We got heated up in the moment, and we were both drunk. I didn't plan on having sex with my sisters boyfriend. I didn't plan on ruining our relationship forever. It just happened. The fact that it was the middle of July and I was alone at a beach party didn't help. I hated being alone, I hated being lonely. I hated everything happening right now even more, however.
"Did you have to do that? Did you have to sleep with him?"
Of course I didn't have too. I didn't even mean too. He was just there - I was lonely and he was there. Not to mention that we were both drunk out of our minds like I'm sure I have mentioned a million times by now. I know I shouldn't blame it on my loneliness though. I shouldn't blame it on the alcohol either. I should just blame it on me. I was the one who slept with him. I was the one who didn't tell her as soon as it happened. I should've told her the day after it happened, I was just waiting for the right time; the time just never seemed right. I should have told her before she figured it out on her own though, maybe then she wouldn't have been so mad.
"Did he ask for me?"
I couldn't lie to her again. But how could I tell her the truth? How could I tell her that her boyfriend of five years not only hooked up with her baby sister, but didn't even mention her in the process? Not even afterwards when we both woke up naked and hungover. He didn't mention her once. Not once. My silence is all she needed to hear to get her answer as she broke into tears.
"I'm starting to feel like everything's becoming more than I can bear."
I know it isn't what she wants at the moment but I hug her anyway. I really do love her, and I really wish I could take this all back. I'm really surprised when she hugs me back, I guess she needed the support more then she needed to be mad at me. But I knew I wasn't forgiven yet. There was still lots of heartache to come, but I hoped it was a good sign. I hoped it meant I wouldn't lose her forever.
Drabble Club: [Dialogue] "What was the question again?"
Quidditch Pitch: [Character] Hannah Abbott
Speed Drabble: [Dialogue] "Did you have to do that?" ; "I'm starting to feel like everything's becoming more than I can bear." ; "Did somebody (he) ask for me?"
Hopscotch: [Dialogue] "Would you stop lying to me?"
July Event: [Task] Being lonely during summer
Charms: [Task] Write about facing something you've been avoiding for a long time.