A/N (a.k.a. mini-fic): I am at work. I am
thoroughly bored. I feel the need to write. Write something Digimon-related.
Yaoi, of course! But what pairing? Hmmm. What pairing has not been so terribly
overdone? Only one way to find out. I write all the names of the male Chosen on
little pieces of paper and ask my co-worker, Jeff, to pick two. He agrees. I am
happy. He picks two, and I take a look. Takeru and Yamato. I make a face.
"What?" he asks. "Pick again. They're brothers. I'm not writing that." He gives
me a strange look, but agrees to pick again. And finally, he picks two names
that I am happy with. The pairing is…
Disclaimer: Me no own nothing.
Warnings: Shounen-ai and you all hating me for the included pairings. I went
to bed at 5 am and got up at nine. That's the excuse I have for the typos.
'Kari-chan said I should do this. She told me to tell the one I loved how I felt. They always say to do these things so you'll have "the great weight" lifted from your shoulders, that you'll finally have it off your chest and all that. It's true, once I tell him how I feel, I'll have a weight lifted from my shoulders, I'll have it off my chest, but the consequences' weight will be much heavier and will hurt me much more than what I'm feeling right now. What are the chances he'll feel the same? Pretty damn slim. In any case, I have to do this or I'll burst. It's too much for me, and I'll admit it. As much as my own two hands can make up for the embraces and touches I'm missing, it still isn't enough. Just in case, I'll tell him how I feel, and if it works out, it'll probably be the best thing to happen to me in my 15 years on this planet. If it doesn't, I'll be crushed, but hey, that's life. It isn't always fair. And boy, would this ever be fair…
Should I call him? I don't know if I'll be able to do this in person. It's almost 8pm now, his soccer game should be just about over. Well, since I've decided to do this in the first place, I might as well do it right. I'm going to tell him I love him in person.
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"Takeru! Hey! What brings you here? You know Hikari's at her photo club meeting!"
He's just standing there at the door, dirty and sweaty and dead sexy. I can't believe I'm seeing him right now, like this, in front of my face. Don't forget what you came here for, Takeru.
"Uh, I needed to talk to you, Taichi-san."
"Alright! Come on in!"
Damn my over-active hormones and dirty mind…
I take off my shoes and walk through the living room. I look around. His parents are nowhere in sight. That's good. He sits down on the couch, but I just stand there. Right now I'm so nervous that I feel like I'm going to pass out. I hope it doesn't show.
"Come on, siddown!" he exclaims, patting a spot on the sofa next to him. I might as well sit down. I figure I'm better of fainting sitting down than standing up. My head hurts as I sit down. I think I'm going to throw up. I'm so unbelievingly nervous… I think I'm shaking… I really shouldn't have come here. My head is pounding. This isn't funny anymore. Taichi isn't looking at me differently, so I must look relatively okay.
I can't do this.
"I'm sorry, I just came over here to tell you that Yamato's phone line is down and he needs to talk to you." I say as I get up and march to the door. "Sorry to bother you!" I say as I open the door and walk out. I can't believe I almost told him. Can you imagine what would have happened if I would have? He probably would have thrown me out!
Right now, as I'm walking home, I still feel like I'm going to pass out. Getting over extreme nervousness is not something I can do easily. I'll probably feel this way tomorrow, too, but at least it's Sunday and I won't see him at school. Wait… Sunday… Shit! I'm supposed to help 'Kari-chan with her tourism project! I can't ask her to come over to 'kaasan's because she's having her boss over for dinner. And I can't back out because I promised Hikari! She's like a sister and a best friend, I can't let her down. I know she wouldn't let me down.
It's so bad I can't even be near him anymore.
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Sunday morning. 8am to be exact. I've never slept much, but 8am is pretty
early considering I fell asleep four hours ago. I couldn't sleep, obviously. I
couldn't stop thinking about how much of an ass I made out of myself. I don't
think so anymore, though. I'll just go over to 'Kari-chan's and help her with
her project. I'm getting butterflies in my stomach just thinking about it, and
I'm hoping Taichi won't be there, but if he is… that's something I can't help. I
can't act like I did yesterday. But I know I'm not telling him how I feel today.
END OF PART I
A/N: Well, what do you think? Should I go on? Is Takeru going to forget what
he just told himself and tell Taichi how he feels? If he does, how will Taichi
react? If I must, I'll type up Part II and you'll see! ^_^