Okay, I really wanted to write about Jack's emotions with Amber. I did NOT cancel Wynter's Rose.
I was holding her, caressing her. She was warm compared to my icy skin. I was giving her gentle kisses down her neck, causing her goosebumps. I didn't know what I was thinking, and I don't think she did either. Amber has had a crush on me for the longest time, but why was I playing her? Toying with her emotions, that's exactly what I was doing.
So why couldn't I stop myself?
I don't have feelings for Amber, I only see her as a friend.
So why am I doing this? Did I really feel that bad for reading her diary?
But what about in the long run? What will become of Amber when I tell her there were no feelings on my side of our lust? I couldn't tell her that. It would crush her.
But doing this is crushing her too, and she doesn't even know it.
"I…love…you." She moaned, and if I had blood my cheeks would be red from embarrassment, from being ashamed. I just kissed her lips, which were slowly becoming chapped from me. I couldn't say it back. I couldn't lie to her more that I already was.
Why couldn't she stay the innocent eleven year old? Why couldn't her feelings subside?
Yeah, the first crap chapter…of this fic…R&R! Constructive criticism is accepted!