Silent all these years drifting through silent fears
I always seem to stay in darkness every day
I need relief from this grief
I try and I try but
I never succeed in reaching the daylight
I try, I fail, I bleed, I heal
It goes on and on in a never ending circle
But this time it ends if I fail again
I won't try again
I'm tiered of always trying and never succeeding
Of losing when I should be winning
This is supposed to be easy so why is it so hard
I've been silent all these years
Keeping silent all these fears
Never saying anything
Yet always begging for salvation
To give into temptation
Is to seal my fate
But I can't go on at this date
For I love what I'm supposed to hate
This is forbidden
So I keep it hidden
Wanting it to be seen
Shit what a fool I've been.