I lay on the couch, my phone in my hands as I scroll past lists of information on various people, contemplating everything. My job, my life, my career. I wonder how everything ended up like this.
"Shizu-chan?" I ask, not taking my eyes off of my phone. I hear a 'Hm,' come from the man sitting on the chair across from me. "Why am I like this?" I ask him, turning my head to him.
He sets down the newspaper he was reading on the table in front of him and with a sigh, glances my way with a slightly annoyed expression on his face.
"What do you mean?" I lock my phone and roll onto my side, propping my head up with my arm.
"Why did you agree to date me? I was surprised when you said yes, I expected you to not trust me." Shizuo removes his sunglass, placing them at the bottom of the v on his vest. His eyes lock onto mine, the warm, brown irises staring into me. They've always been comforting.
"I didn't trust you at first," emphasizing the didn't in his sentence, "I agreed because something told me that I should, like a voice telling me to give you a chance. But, I was constantly on my toes until I could trust you." A deep breathe of air escapes my body as my eyes soften and a small frown appears on my face.
"Yes, but I'm not a good person, so why do you love me?" Shizuo rises from his chair, slightly surprising me, and walks over to my side, bending down to match my level.
"I won't tell you that you're a good person, but you're not fully bad. You're like a double-edged sword. When you do your job you could harm the client or your target because you enjoy dicking people over, but at the same time it's like you're keeping things fair. You're an asshole and have fucked me over before, but as I've gotten to know you I've realized that you actually can be kind, and caring towards those who mean something to you. I love you because you're not afraid of me, and you treat me like I'm a real person," Shizuo's voice is deep and calm, almost hypnotic and tiring in its way.
"I don't have to worry that I'm going to hurt you because you're faster than me and you have always been able to stop me before I went too far. When I start to lose control you bring me back down and remind me that I'm not that monster that people called me for so long. Since I've started dating you I've slowly started hating myself less and less because you make me feel normal. We balance each other out." He leans in and places a soft, gentle kiss on my forehead.
"Feel better?" He asks me. I smile at him and confirm his answer with a small nod of the head. He stands upright and removes his sunglasses from his vest, placing them back onto his face.
"Good, now come on, I wanna go for a run." I sit upright before standing up from the couch, stretching the tiredness out of my body.
"Alright, but I get a five second head start this time." I state as I stretch my legs for a moment.
"Fine, but I'm not going to go easy on you." A big smirk appears on my face.
"Ha! As if you could ever catch me, you're getting too old~" He shoots me a quick glare.
"I'm only four months older than you!"
"Maybe in four months I'll get too old and then you'll be able to catch me."
"It's not even your birthday in four months!" Small chuckles escape my lips at the sight of Shizuo becoming frustrated at my antiques. I walk to the front door, stopping in the doorframe before leaving.
"Catch me if you can Shizu-chan!" I yell before running out the door and down the street.
"Just watch me!" I hear him yell as I race down the street, turning a corner in an attempt to throw Shizuo off of my trail. I smile as I feel the cooling wind blow my hair back, thinking about how I got here, and how happy I am that my life turned out this way.