Title: I don't want to be alone anymore / Nobody's boy
Author: Strange Music
Pairing: Friendship Dave/Luka (not in this one but in the next chapter)
Summary: Some things in our life we can't change. We are subjected to the unknown forces called fate. But sometimes we just can stand aside and just look. And Luka knew that for once he had done enough looking. AU / WIP Influenced by Carol leaving him behind Luka make a decision on a May Day. A decision that might heal or break him.
Email: Strange_music@hotmail.com
Spoiler: Spoiler for May Day about Luka's storyline. (I can't help myself this episode just inspires me. Wouldn't have guessed it ;))
Disclaimer: Do not own ER. Do not own Luka, Dave, Carter or any other members of the ER. They belong to their respective owners. And to the wonderful people that bring them to life by playing them.
We can't rewind Life
by Strange Music
Hello darkness my old friend
I've come to talk to you again
Because a vision softly creeping
Left it's seeds while I was sleeping
And the vision that was planted in my brain
Still remains, within the sounds of silence
He knew that the moment he made the decision that he was risking everything he had worked for in the last few years. The works he had taken just so that he could work as a doctor in the states.
It seemed like getting this Green Card had been one of the hardest things he ever accomplished.
And beside that after he arrived in America to start his new life while leaving the old one behind it had been like he had started his Career as a doctor once again.
Leaning the language.
Learning the new expressions in medicine.
And now he was risking it all.
For all he knew what he was doing might also get him either into Prison or deported back to his home country. And there was nothing that drew him back there. Even his parents weren't no longer there had already left behind the burned out ruin of what had been their house. It had been destroyed during the last fights only a few years ago. They were now in Vienna living with his father's brother.
He prepared a few more things and then softly closed the bag. But not without leaving a small part open.
Then the hardest part began.
Getting out of the hospital without anybody noticing it.
The adrenalin and fear were running alongside in his veins. Making it an funny feeling.
A few more steps.
"Luka!"
Kerry's voice had almost caused his heart to stop beating. Of all the people that he didn't want to run into Kerry Weaver was head of them all. She had the almost psychic ability to know when they where lying.
But he couldn't run.
So and turned around to her. Praying it would go without problem.
"Kerry? Still here? I thought your shift ended already 3 hours ago."
She looked like he caught her with this.
Almost stammering when she answered something about having to work up on a few files.
"But what I wanted to talk with you. We will be two people short in the next few days and I might need you on a few extra shifts."
He couldn't do anything else. He took a breath.
Smiled a smile that was hopefully not a false as it felt. And then said yes.
"Thanks Luka. I knew I could count on you. And now go and home and get some rest."
"Thanks.."
"And Luka" there was compassion in her voice "I am sorry about what happened. I wish that there would have been more we could have done for that child."
"Yes…so do I."
"You want to talk….."
"Another time Kerry. I would really like to get home. It had been a long day."
She didn't say anything else. Just smiled sadly at him and went back to the computer
And with that he turned around and left. Finally making it to the and through exist without another stop.
Relived like never before to leave the hospital behind.
The ride in the El went unlike unspectacular.
But only when he reached his flat and closed the door behind himself he was able to breath easier.
As carefully as he had carried the bag all the way from the hospital as carefully he now laid it on the bed.
From this moment on his life would be different he knew.
Had known it ever since he had made this decision hours ago.
The moment he had made given her the drug that made not only *her* sleep.
The moment he had lifted of the contacts on her stomach ever so slightly.
Yet when he opened the bag he knew that it would be worth it.
All these things.
All the trouble were worth the small hands that curiously reached out for him.
And eyes that blinked sleepy. Seemingly the light sedative had run off just on time.
Reaching down he took the young child out of the bag. Still wrapped in the towel that he had clad the boy in Luka softly whispered to him as he carried him around.
There were things to do. Cloth and food to buy. And he had to find someone to take care of the little one while he was not at home.
He sat down looking at the child in his arms.
His own mother hadn't wanted him and a hospital full of people…doctors. Had just stood aside and looked as she let him die…
But he couldn't he had seen too much senseless loss in his time.
And as he watched the little eyes close to sleep again he knew that despite what would come he had made the right decision.
He knew that it wouldn't definitely not be easy.
But he would make it.
Each day at a time.
To be continued……
Author: Strange Music
Pairing: Friendship Dave/Luka (not in this one but in the next chapter)
Summary: Some things in our life we can't change. We are subjected to the unknown forces called fate. But sometimes we just can stand aside and just look. And Luka knew that for once he had done enough looking. AU / WIP Influenced by Carol leaving him behind Luka make a decision on a May Day. A decision that might heal or break him.
Email: Strange_music@hotmail.com
Spoiler: Spoiler for May Day about Luka's storyline. (I can't help myself this episode just inspires me. Wouldn't have guessed it ;))
Disclaimer: Do not own ER. Do not own Luka, Dave, Carter or any other members of the ER. They belong to their respective owners. And to the wonderful people that bring them to life by playing them.
We can't rewind Life
by Strange Music
Hello darkness my old friend
I've come to talk to you again
Because a vision softly creeping
Left it's seeds while I was sleeping
And the vision that was planted in my brain
Still remains, within the sounds of silence
He knew that the moment he made the decision that he was risking everything he had worked for in the last few years. The works he had taken just so that he could work as a doctor in the states.
It seemed like getting this Green Card had been one of the hardest things he ever accomplished.
And beside that after he arrived in America to start his new life while leaving the old one behind it had been like he had started his Career as a doctor once again.
Leaning the language.
Learning the new expressions in medicine.
And now he was risking it all.
For all he knew what he was doing might also get him either into Prison or deported back to his home country. And there was nothing that drew him back there. Even his parents weren't no longer there had already left behind the burned out ruin of what had been their house. It had been destroyed during the last fights only a few years ago. They were now in Vienna living with his father's brother.
He prepared a few more things and then softly closed the bag. But not without leaving a small part open.
Then the hardest part began.
Getting out of the hospital without anybody noticing it.
The adrenalin and fear were running alongside in his veins. Making it an funny feeling.
A few more steps.
"Luka!"
Kerry's voice had almost caused his heart to stop beating. Of all the people that he didn't want to run into Kerry Weaver was head of them all. She had the almost psychic ability to know when they where lying.
But he couldn't run.
So and turned around to her. Praying it would go without problem.
"Kerry? Still here? I thought your shift ended already 3 hours ago."
She looked like he caught her with this.
Almost stammering when she answered something about having to work up on a few files.
"But what I wanted to talk with you. We will be two people short in the next few days and I might need you on a few extra shifts."
He couldn't do anything else. He took a breath.
Smiled a smile that was hopefully not a false as it felt. And then said yes.
"Thanks Luka. I knew I could count on you. And now go and home and get some rest."
"Thanks.."
"And Luka" there was compassion in her voice "I am sorry about what happened. I wish that there would have been more we could have done for that child."
"Yes…so do I."
"You want to talk….."
"Another time Kerry. I would really like to get home. It had been a long day."
She didn't say anything else. Just smiled sadly at him and went back to the computer
And with that he turned around and left. Finally making it to the and through exist without another stop.
Relived like never before to leave the hospital behind.
The ride in the El went unlike unspectacular.
But only when he reached his flat and closed the door behind himself he was able to breath easier.
As carefully as he had carried the bag all the way from the hospital as carefully he now laid it on the bed.
From this moment on his life would be different he knew.
Had known it ever since he had made this decision hours ago.
The moment he had made given her the drug that made not only *her* sleep.
The moment he had lifted of the contacts on her stomach ever so slightly.
Yet when he opened the bag he knew that it would be worth it.
All these things.
All the trouble were worth the small hands that curiously reached out for him.
And eyes that blinked sleepy. Seemingly the light sedative had run off just on time.
Reaching down he took the young child out of the bag. Still wrapped in the towel that he had clad the boy in Luka softly whispered to him as he carried him around.
There were things to do. Cloth and food to buy. And he had to find someone to take care of the little one while he was not at home.
He sat down looking at the child in his arms.
His own mother hadn't wanted him and a hospital full of people…doctors. Had just stood aside and looked as she let him die…
But he couldn't he had seen too much senseless loss in his time.
And as he watched the little eyes close to sleep again he knew that despite what would come he had made the right decision.
He knew that it wouldn't definitely not be easy.
But he would make it.
Each day at a time.
To be continued……