The story is based on Ai's point of view.. You know when you watch movies they always have a song playing on the background on certain moments. So if this story will have a theme song it will be "Making love Out of Nothing at All by Air Supply. Its an amazing song. Make sure you Listen to it while reading this story to add to the mood and help you "feel" it better. Here is a link on you tube so you can listen to it.
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"You're a stinky traitor Sherry. Wherever rat hole you hide I can still smell you. You put up a great chase, I give that to you. I enjoyed it very much. But you still make stupid decisions just like before. That is why you are here. Imagine those innocent people you got into grave danger because of your stupidity"
"Have you been having fun trying to live normally with your little friends? Too bad traitors are not allowed to live. Well, I don't want you to be alone in hell so I will send them with you.. See? Im not so bad after all… No need to thank me, I love what I do." Gin pointed his gun towards the helpless shrunken scientist.
I just closed my eyes, waiting for the end.
Then I heard a loud thud as something fell to the ground, something big and heavy. It was followed by shouts and running footsteps.
I opened my eyes. Vodka, who was guarding the door had collapsed to floor. And Conan. Conan was running towards me. I wanted to yell at him to stay away from here. But somehow, I lost my voice.
I heard a loud bang as the bullet was shot.
Conan pushed me out of the way. But Conan did not move fast enough to avoid the upcoming bullet. It him right in the chest. He was pushed back hard by the impact. He clutched his now bloody chest . He looked at me before he fell backwards. He lay on the cold ground unmoving.
" NOoooooooooo!" I yelled.
I woke up from my horrible dream. I gasped for air. I just laid there staring at nothing. Clutching my pillow closer to me. I hoped it will bring me comfort, but it did not.
Conan, why him? Its all my fault if that really happen. I will never forgive myself. Its always my fault, I should just leave. I have to. I'm nothing here but trouble.
Tears slowly rolled down my eyes when the moon illuminated a framed picture of me with the Detective Boys. The three are kids are grinning widely. I had no expression on my face. Conan looks embarrassed to be there.
Conan…
Yes, that is why I stayed. I had lots of chance to leave but I never did. It was all because of Conan.
* I know just how to whisper,
And I know just how to cry.
I know just where to find the answers
And I know just how to lie.
I know just how to fake it
And I know just how to scheme*
He knows about my unspoken fears and pain and he tries his best to help me with them.
He always reveal my true face behind the mask. I show people that I am strong and independent but he saw through my deceiving mask. He knows how much I need someone. Someone to be with me, to lean on or just talk to. He always try to be that someone.
He gave me reasons to keep on living.
Once in a while he will give me a strange look whenever I laugh or even smile. He knows how much pain I am in right now. The pain and sorrow my fake laughter hides from people was reflected in his eyes.
* I know just when to face the truth
And I know just when to dream
And I know just where to touch you
And I know just what to prove.
I know when to pull you closer
And I know when to let you lose *
I told him I like him once, jokingly. He thought it was hilarious. I wouldn't want to take him away from his "Ran-neechan". I actually could.. If I stop working on the antidote he could never go back to Ran. Shinichi will just have to let her go. And then he will be with-… NO.. I cant be selfish. I wont break his heart in order to mend mine.
If someone was to look at our relationship it will just look like he is using me. What's our only connection? We were both victims who got shrunk. I also makes the antidote so he can return into Kudo Shinichi and into her….
I don't care what people thinks. If he is using me, then I enjoy being used.
No…. he is not using me.. He cares about me too. I know he cares about me.
* And I know the night is fading.
And I know the time is gonna fly.*
If only Conan is here right now. Things will be better. No.. it will be perfect no matter how bad everything is.. But he is not here. Not here to protect me and drive away the shadows of doubt lurking around.
*And I'm never gonna tell you everything I gotta tell you
But I know I've got to give it a try. *
I like him..
Like.. Its such a weak word.
I love you Conan.
I always wanted to tell him that. But I cant.. I will just hurt myself and make things more complicated for him.
He is my knight in shining armour.. I am his…friend… Just a friend… But someday I have to let it out and finally tell him.
Even if I will probably get rejected.
* And I know the roads to riches.
And I know the ways to pain.
I know all the rules and then I know how to break em.
And then I always know the name of the game.*
I am very important to Conan. I don't want that kind of importance. I want him to feel-… NO. I NEED him to feel the same way I feel for him.
He thinks he can never return into Shinichi or bring down the Black Organization without me. That is probably true. But I still feel empty inside.
*But I don't know how to leave you.
And Ill never let you fall.
And I don't know how I do it
Making love out of nothing at all…*
It hurts so much. Everyday a little piece of my heart falls out.
It hurts to stay. It will also hurt if I leave.
I don't think I want to know if leaving will hurt more.
Its what people calls "one-sided relationship".. wait.. NO.. I cant call it A relationship if he doesn't even know about it. Its only on my head and hopeful dreams.
Making love out of nothing at all…..
Hope you liked it.. Please don't get mad because I made Haibara really sad.. Believe me, I don't want her to be sad too =( ..I was moody so I wrote this. There might a next chapter because the song is not yet over. Tell me If I should continue.. And please review!