Secret life is ending:((((( I am absolutely heart broken. Well anyways I love Ricky/Adrian. And now I'm pretty sure that nothing is going to happen between them so I wrote this. Kim dog giving them closure I guess.

And omg! Did you guys read that Renee interview about Ben and Amy maybe getting back together? Tell me what you think!

Hope you like it!

Oh and it might seem out of character but while writing this I pictured their talk at the library in the 100th episode. It fit while I was writing this. Think of all their facial expressions and stuff.

Seated on the uncomfortably hard mahogany chair in the dim library, Adrian found it hard to concentrate and focus on her English Lit homework. The place felt too lonely, too quiet. It was nothing like Grant High's cheerfully lit room filled with friendly faces ready to talk. Instead everyone seemed to be doing their own thing and they seemed too immersed in their own work to chat. Sighing she turned her gaze back down to her textbook praying that the words would miraculously sink into her brain.

Just as she was about to turn the page she noticed someone walking away. It wasn't hard to detect considering the person made an abrupt turn resulting in a screeching sound in the silent library. "You don't have to run away from me you know. I'm don't bite."

It was him. Of course it was him, who else wouldn't want to talk to her. Because to be honest she was a very appealing person. But not to him, not anymore that is.

She could hear him sigh as he slowly turned around. "And what would make you think I'm running away from you? I'm not scared of you."

She smiled. There was the old Ricky. The one that was so sure of himself and didn't let anyone bring him down; the Ricky that she had fallen in love with in her early years of high school. "Okay then. Why don't you have a seat.?"

"I have to do homework."

"Well what a coincidence, so do I. You can do it here. We can do it together." She said with a slight smirk. "Like we used. That is unless you're intimidated by me."

He took a seat across from her and raised his left eyebrow, amused. "I'm not intimidated by you Adrian. I'm perfectly happy with Amy."

"Okay." She said twirling a piece of her hair. "If you say so."

"Yeah I do. Now I would appreciate it if we could talk about something else. "And then he added under his breath. "Not that I particularly want to talk to you about anything."

The brunette rolled her eyes. "God why do you have to be so uptight. We're just talking."

"That's just it Adrian we don't talk. We're not friends."

"So what if we're not. We can become friends Ricky. " A playful smile present on her lips. "We were friends before. Remember how much fun it was?"

He groaned. "What do you want from me Adrian?"

She folded her arms across her chest. "I want to you to stop ignoring me. It's getting really irritating."

He leaned back in his chair. "Well you irritate me and yet here I am forced to talk to you."

"Gosh she really has you on a tight leash doesn't she?" She leaned back in her chair, twirling the pencil in her hands.

"For the last time Amy doesn't control me. Now can you drop it? And you wonder why I avoid talking to you."

Adrian mockingly bring her manicured hand to her chest and let out an over exaggerated gasp. "I am absolutely wounded by your words." She leaned forward, in an attempt to get closer to him. "In fact I can remember a time when you used to come over to talk to me a lot. Most of those conversations occurred at night of course." She winked at him earning herself an eye roll. "We can have another one of these chats tonight if you want?"

He shot her a sarcastic smile. "Don't you have a boyfriend? Omar wasn't it?"

"Yeah. But only now he wants to be my fiancé. He proposed to me again. He just won't let it go. And you know me better than anyone Ricky, it just ruins my fun. A lot of people want to marry me. It was Ben first and now Omar. And if I recall it was you at one point wasn't it?"

"No Adrian I never wanted to marry you. It was you who always wanted to talk about getting married." He said with one of his famous smirks. "It was always one sided."

She shrugged her shoulders. "Fair enough. But you have to admit. We had a good thing going there."

"If by good you mean sex."

"Oh come on Ricky. You know it was more than sex." She placed both hands on the table, attempting to lean forward again. "It was a lot more than sex. But not that the sex wasn't amazing. Because trust me it was."

He sighed. "Is this all you want to talk about. About the sex we're never going to have ever again. Because you know I'm married." He held up his hand, displaying the gold wedding band.

This time it was her who smirked, "You know Ben came to see me a few days ago. And you know what he told me? And well. She paused. "Well he told me your little secret. You and Amy aren't really married are you?"

Ricky shifted in his chair, uncomfortably. "I don't know what you're talking about Adrian."

"Oh come on Ricky. Drop the act. You and Amy aren't really married and you know it. Just admit it."

He ran his hand through his dark hair, frustrated. "Yes we are Adrian, even though it's none of your business. And we're going to have a second wedding. One of which I will make sure you are invited to."

"Geez Ricky lighten up. I was just wondering."

"No you weren't Adrian. I know you better than anyone. Don't forget that."

She let out a snort. "Look who just seemed to acknowledge our past relationship."

"Just tell me what you want Adrian." He asked sighing again.

This annoyed her just a bit. Throughout their whole conversation he remained insistent on the fact that she wanted something. And it was seriously starting to get irritating. "Why the hell can't you just believe that I just want to talk? Oh wait I know, because you've been ignoring me. Because for you to move on with your life you feel that it's necessary to forget the portion of your life I was in."

Ricky didn't answer. He just sat there, stunned at her unexpected outburst.

"Well you know Ricky, your life could have been different. But I doubt that you'll believe that."

"What do you mean?" he asked cautiously, not knowing what he was about to get himself into.

"You know damn well what I mean Ricky. Don't you ever wonder what our lives would be like if you hadn't kissed Amy, if I hadn't had sex with Ben, if he hadn't gotten me pregnant?"

He gave an annoyed sigh. "Nothing would be different Adrian." He glanced at her. "Nothing."

Adrian crossed her arms over her chest. "I'm pretty sure that Ben would be with Amy right now and. " She got up from her seat and lifted herself onto the wooden table. She leaned close to him, so close that she could feel his breath on her cheek. "I'm pretty sure you'd be with me."

He scooted away from her. "Are you still holding onto that fantasy?"

She hopped off the table and settled back down into her seat. "Oh its not a fantasy Ricky. It's merely a fact of life."

"I would not be with you Adrian."

"Yes you would Ricky. We'd probably even be engaged, maybe even married." She sent another wink in his direction.

"Your delusional. Even if that stuff wouldn't have happened me and Amy would have still found a way to be together."

She leaned back, scoffing. "Oh right I forgot, true love right? All because you guys have a son together."

"It's not only because we have a son together. She's the only girl I've ever really loved."

" Ouch. Was that supposed to hurt Ricky? Whatever I know the truth. And I know you would never admit it."

"We're meant to be together. Amy would not be with Ben an I would certainly not be with you."

"Belong together huh? Did you guys belong together when you didn't even care she got pregnant. Did you belong together all those times we had sex. When she married Ben? When you tried to get Grace to have sex with you?"

He sucked in his teeth. Adrian knew she was getting him mad. But frankly she didn't care. He needed to know the truth. "They were never really married."

"Is that your defense argument? Cause it kind of sucks."

"What are you trying to make of this Adrian?"

"You know things would have gone completely different had you not kissed Amy. And you didn't kiss her because you liked her. No, you kissed her to piss me off. It was the one insecurity I had and you decided to use it against me."

"Yeah and I felt bad abut it. And no Adrian I didn't do it to get back at you. Not everything happens because of you. I did it because she thought she was a bad kisser."

"So of course you had to swoop in and prove her wrong didn't you." She let out a humorless laugh. "Of course you did. You didn't care that you would hurt me."

"Oh come on Adrian. We always cheated on each other Adrian. Its what we did."

"Yeah and right when we were trying not to you did it again. And this wasn't like the cheating we did. You knew how I felt about her, you knew what it would do to me and you did it anyway."

"You slept with Ben." He pointed out angrily. "He was my best friend."

"I only slept with Ben to get back at you Ricky. And yeah I made a mistake. I know. But you, its like you don't even want to admit what you did was wrong."

"Because I don't think it was wrong anymore Adrian. It needed to happen."

She ran her fingers through her straightened locks. "Sure it did. Just admit that you don't want to talk about the past because you know then you have admit things would have been different."

"God Adrian! Why is it so important that you know wall this. It doesn't change anything."

"Well that's where you're wrong. Ben loves Amy. No, he's in love with Amy. And he won't stop at anything to get her back. " She rolled her eyes and continued. "He stayed with her while she was pregnant while you didn't. And yeah Amy maybe Amy really does love you. But the second you make the tiniest mistake and she sees the old Ricky in you, the one that I fell in love with, she'll leave you. And you know who'll be the first person she calls. Ben. It'll be Ben. And you know why, because she knows that she can count on him to be there for her. It might not happen for years, but it doesn't matter where Ben is in life, he'll drop everything to be with Amy again. So I don't why you even bother trying."

"That won't happen. And you know why. Because Amy isn't like you. She wouldn't leave her husband to go after another guy. She has more class than you." The minute he said the words, he instantly regretted them. He could see the hurt flash through her eyes. "Adrian I-' he began to say but she cut him off.

"Funny. Didn't you say something like that to me in the beginning of sophomore year?" she grabbed her bag off the table and slung it over the shoulder. "I loved you. I just think you should know that." And with that she walked out.

Ricky sat there for the next twenty minutes, just thinking. He thought about the first time they had had sex and he thought about all the times he went back to her. He thought back to the time they went to therapy together and the first time he told her he loved her. He remembered how heart broken he was when he found out that she had sex witH Ben and was pregnant.

It was these thoughts that compelled him to pull out his phone and send a text message.

I loved you too.

I was thinking that I could do like two more chapters about what their lives would have been like if Adrian hadn't slept with Ben. What do you think?